I oppened my eyes slowly , to shut off the alarm bell.

I was way too tired to afford a step as my eyes begged for more sleep .

But I can't.

I have to!

I have to head to work to make a living for me and my angel Aria since our dad and mom left us on our own not giving a damn wether we live or die.

I pull off the sheets and get up, i feel the cold wooden floor send shivers through me and i walk steadily to the en suite , I try not look at the mirror as I looked like a ghost more than a girl.

I was too skinny and pale and comparing to other girls I was a big *** worthless ugly loser.

I turned the shower on and stripped off my clothes.

I let the cold water run through me to help me wake up , I turned it off after minutes, i towel dried my hair and got dressed , I've put on a casual black jeans , an oversized hoodie and a hat to cover up my long thick hair then got out.

I prepared the breakfast for my little princess and then got out of the house.

Silent surrounded me every way , all the street was almost empty some of sobered man was laying on the ground sleeping i stick my earplugs in my ears and put on my favorite song

' Stressed out ' by Twenty One Pilots

Aria says that i must listening to more joyful music to make me feel batter but i can't afford it the joyful music are fake for me and the only reasons People made those is to escape from the bad reality i wish that i could be like those whos pretend that everything will be fine and all the sorrows that they has will vanish with times flows but no matter what i do i can't .

I simply can't forget or forgive either by the time i bullied a strong wall in my heart that has all my emotions : sadness , fears, madness tears.. all locked up well and the only one that have the keys to pass , is my little princess .

By times passes i made my self stronger that if anyone try to harm me or Aria i will definitely made them regretted it .

I will surely made a crime .

I may be a cold and calme outside but I'm a mad person that even i fear what i can do .

The lack of harm i got in the past completely changed me .

When i was little i found the easier way to get ride of all my anger is by making fights with other's or braking something it really useful and made all my anger disappears .

At school they all think that I'm a bad girl do to my fights with teacher's and my scary glare but it really doesn't matter to me because they will never dare talk or try to be friend with me .

For me being alone was always my goal , i don't need friend

For me the less people i know the less harm i get.

I admit that I'm unsociable but what can i do , one's i trust a person that he was dear friend and he promise me that he will be always by my side no matter what and here I'm today alone , by no one at my side . the only thing that i got from him that i need to be stronger and face my problems.

Come to think about , since that day i lose my trust of this two words "Promises " And " friends "

That day i relaise that Promises are the sweetest lies and i didn't use that word ever again neither believe in it because there is no greater fraud then a promise not kept and believe me when i say

" There is no match to the pain of an empty promises "

I stopped thinking when i arrived to my work location .

I removed my mask that was protecting my nose from the dank air when enter the building the warm air make me feel a little better , today was really cold and i was freezing outside when i was close to the elevator i turned and faced a middle-aged man and said with a big smile

" good morning Mr.Alec "

I know Mr.Alec since i started working up here his the security guard though he's bad health condition but he kept on working at night shifts.

Anyways we all have reasons don't we

"Good morning boy you came early today too , you must love you work don't you "

he giggled at me showing his white teeth

though his age but his seems younger. I doubt that he broke many hearts when he was little

"I must do " laughing back to him as i can

"I heard Today you don't have much work so you can leave early boy " he informed me

( you are wondering why he keep calling me boy don't you , well he do that because he and all i work with in this company think I'm a boy too and they don't know my real identity .

Only one person know and that's my boss.

He's an old man who accept only boys in his big delivery company and I'm the only exception that he made

When i asked him the reason for accepting me he simply said that he saw the old him in my eyes that's why he accepted my application and from that time i was working as a boy and Scarlett changed to Sam sometimes i forget my reality when i act and talk like boys. Even Aria think that too.

My relationship with my colleagues at work still superficial

I only talk when they're asking me something though their trying to make me informal with them , i didn't accept, the only one that he can be almost my friend is Mark .

Since i debut working here he's the only one who didn't matter by my cold answering .

Though i treated him many times cold as ice but he always try to find anything that makes him talk to me , he even sometimes tells me about his hard life and his trying to make his little brother walk into a better path dosn' t reassemble his and every time he see me he run to talk to me about any subject came to his mind. By the time passes i really Succumbed to his trying but i made our half friendship limited at work hours only , I didn't tell him a lot about my life either i told him just a few things which is that he's life ressamble mine )

" Really that's good i also managed to do some stuff after work now i can finished them faster "

" I'm glad that's suite you , i have to go now boy bye "

" bye Mr .Alic"

The elevator opened and guess who was in there ! Mark

He was standing right there passing his hand into his black hair to get ride of some hair was falling at he's eyes

he was so tall that makes me ressemble to a child beside him.

He's tattoo give him the look of a bad boy that warn you to don't try and mess with him but he was the opposite he was really kind

I hold a deep breath and enter the elevator

when he saw me he put on his famous smile that could make any girl accept me of course fall for him and said

" Good morning bro"

" morning , make it short and spill it out "

" what? " He try his best to put an action for it but i cut him

" you always came late unless you want to escape from someone so i'm waiting  "

He giggled a little and say

" you sure know me better than anyone. That's why i .."

I cut him in a rush as i figure it out "you need money don't you "

He aimed to me as a yes .

I glared at him then opened my bag

took some cash from a small envelope that i had with me and give it to him

"Here, it will helps you a little give it to the Debtors it will stoppe them for a while ..." before i finished i shocked by two arms surrounded me and almost will crushing my bones under them

Mark give me a big hug and said

"THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH YOU DON'T KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THIS IS TO ME "

I pulled him off of me before he crashed my arms

"It's okay you'll do the same for me if i was in you'r situation  "

"I'll promise that i will return it to you when i get my pay.. before he fineshed

I slammed his head and shout

" you need to give it to the Debtors stupid not me you have two life to kept you know "

" Ouch it hurt you really stronger than you look shorty " he giggled at me and i totally ignored him but he didn't care and continue laughing at me

I really don't know why i can't get mad at him even when he laugh at me or when he try to pess me off i guess it because deep in my heart i knew that he doing this trying to forget his problems and his painful life .

Also i knew that the only thing that made me still talking to him that's he really ressemble me

we both had the same path but mine was a little worse than him because my parents still alive while he's passes away .

I envy him a little for that you know , at least his parent's love him so much that i wishes mine was like that.

I get off the elevator passes by some offices and here I'm standing in front a big door that's lead to our boss i knock the door twice and enter after he gave me permission

"Good morning sir i heard that you called for me "

" Yes please take a seat Sam "

Sam ? Why he called me Sam he only do that in front of the guys

I fast turned around and see a big muscled guy with a dark brown hair sitting on the couch he was really handsome i admit it with his blue eyes the color of his eyes was way different from mine my eyes was blue but it changed with the effect of light to be more similar to green but his still blue as a calm sky

I shaked my head and take a seat as the boss says

" Sam this is Sky a new worker here i called you to helps him out since this is his first days at work and you'r the only available person this time that's why i called you "

His name Sky then no wonder

I aimed my head at the boss as he can trust me

When we got out the boss office i tensed his glaring so i tried to ignore him and consetraid on my tour and continued my explanations about the type of our work but i couldn't stand he's glaring anymore so i faced him

" Do you want to say somethings ? " i questioned

" Yes actually , i was wandering if we met each other before "

" No it's the first time I've seeing you "

" That's odd because i don't forget anything that i hear or see you know "

" I don't know about that , but i can't recall that i know you or seeing you either "

" Okay but put one thing in your mind that's i will fast remember where and when I've seen you "

" Sorry to say this but i don't care if you know me or not it's not a big deal to me now here's your office you can start working it's better for you you know "

And before i heard his reply i left him alone and get the the storage room

I replaced the new boxes in order

This time the boxes were few and i fastly fineshed all my work i looked at the wall clock and i see it was  08:00 AM i put on my black jacket and straight back to home...