His smile, if only I could have it.

He...... he was my first love but I haven't been able to get him out of my mind and make me sad to think that he doesn't fell the same!!!

It all start in high school he was new to my school. Everyone know him except me. when I first meet him, it's was not like the best first impression.

It was beginning of the year. I meet him at school gate. Teacher told me to bring paper to his office and he told me to pass him the paper and I don't know him I handle the paper to him and said" here you go" really quite and he made fun of me because I was quite saying. He ask surrounded students " is she always this quite" . Well of course I got really embarrassed and I don't like him because of that. I don't see him attractive. I mean just like a pretty face. what I noticed is his white prefect smile and his pink lips.

Many days pass away, I didn't really noticed and didn't bother to talk to him because I don't like him. I really really dislike him.

After few days I noticed that he was dating a girl, they look like a cute couple but afterwards I don't see them no more.I remember that day I ask him " what happen to your girlfriend" and he look pretty sad and he answers " I don't feel good talking about it" and I left it there because I don't care. I was just being curious. Afterwards we don't talk to each other.

When the second 6 week started we got new group and with my good luck he was in my group. Then we start talking to each other and I noticed that he was really interesting and hot. I start to crush on him. This is when I saw him and said ( damn he is to hot).

I remember once I was walking in the hallway with a huge smile in my face. I saw him talking to his ex. I felt like shit and my smile disappear they were talking and walking into he saw me see him talking to her. I stop walking they stop and we were just looking to each other and I was looking at his eyes. His ex was so focused because on the corner of my eye I could see her turning to look at me and turning back to look at him. It was about 3-5 second but it felt like ages. I noticed and I shake my head and stat to walk off. But I wasn't the first time that happen the other I was walking with my guy friend to my locker and while he was walking with his friends and I noticed he saw me and at the moment I was talking with my friend but when we see him we just stop talking and stand there again so all three of us were standing in the middle of hallway without talking. What was really funny that my friend ask me " are you dating" I answer "no" we are not why? he replied" I felt like he was coming to jump at me any time"( laughing)............

I remember we had a project on the computer lab. I was setting next to my best friend. The teacher made us go up to pick up paper that said either read, draw or write. He goes up to me and asked me" hey what did you get". I replied " write how about you"? He said" write too we are mean to be together" I was dying inside like OMG what I was supper happy but I replied "oh"and smile at him and I touched his shoulder I walk back to my seat and sit and I was completely good and act naturally but inside I was dying, I was so happy I couldn't stop smiling. But my best friend said " we are meant to be together" really loud on a funky voice. I replied whispering " stop" and I turn to look at him he was looking at me and smile at me. I was going to jump on wall because of happiness.

I remember we have a supper weird conversation but I ended up saying" no I just look around the room I don't have interest to look at you" he replied " don't worry I look at you all the time" and smiled I reply" stocker" laughing. I remember he smell supper good not trying to sound like a creep or nothing but once I stole his sweater... OMG I want to keep it but no I give it back. His hug they just filled me up. one of his best hugs was when I was walking my friend to class. He told me " you come" so I went he was sitting down, what I love that they were this guys talking to him and he move him out the way he could hug me. I made sure to hug him really hard..., making his face ending up between my boobs so I let him go. when I turn around my old friend gives me a big hug almost dropping me to the ground and he said" watch out you almost kill my girl" I got so red and left the class. It was amazing.

when we stop talking, I hate it so bad. I would try to talk to him as much as I could but the weeks went on and on and I felt like he don't want to talk to me anymore.He dated his girl it seemed that they were really happy. He can back on last week of school. I noticed that it was done no other way we were not going to be more than friends. The last day of the school when he saw me and he raise his hand for me to hug. I hug him really hard almost crying he noticed my eyes were watering and ask me" what wrong" I said " I am going to miss my friends" and smile.

Sometimes I think it was my fault that I don't let him know that I like him, which I think it was real obvious.