"Let me cry today because of you! But not forever. For I know this is what god thinks is best for me." And I'll be happy! Because I have god by my side!

"Zahra khadijah abdullah"

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No more moans, but the tears are still flowing.

Woman, why are you so sick when you don't have him you love?

Why are you crying when your love is unrequited?

Is it because you're too weak?

Or because you're too stupid?

Of course not!

The answer is.

Because of you. Too sincere in love

And it's also your fault that you gave your choice to yourself. To what you think is best, while you leave no choice to god.

What you think is best may not necessarily be god's choice for you. Yet you keep forcing yourself to love her. It's not your fault, because love comes uninvited and makes you forget that love can also fool you.

You chose, but eventually you got hurt.

Why not give it to him (god) who has the hearts of all his servants.

If your prayer in bow has not been able to open his heart, then go ahead.

Let go of good in order to get better at what you need is not something that you only want.

Zahra finally fell asleep while reclining on her bed's head while still leaving behind a trail of tears and dark eyes.

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On the other hand a man is fidgeting over his bed. Kept tossing her back nice and to the left. Many times she tried to close her eyes but many times also opened them again.

Irritated, he tried to get up and sit on his cot. The guy messed with his hair with frustration.

"Aggrrhh. What the hell!" he was pissed off.

The man rubbed his face with frustration "why do I feel so uneasy?"

"Here comes the heart! Why's the pounding so fast?" says the man after grabbing hold of his beating left breast so recklessly.

"Ahhh. Numbing!" the man grumbles again and again he throws himself into the bed trying to go back to sleep.

1 second

3 seconds

5 seconds.

"Shit!" as the guy was pissed.

Then he tossed all the pillows and blankets to the floor in a really nasty, yelling resentment.

Until...

"Arsyad! It's evening shut down!" a woman from outside the man's room who is nothing but mother arsyad.

Asryad stared his door "Yes, Mom!" straight out of his room. Then there's the footsteps falling away.

Arshad tried to calm himself by taking a deep breath and blowing it out slowly. "I'd better pray! You didn't pray either. I'll give you until midnight."

Then arsyad stepped onto the bathroom and took wudhu. Later she wore mittens and spread her prayer.

Prayer was completed. Arshad raised his hands in prayer to the creator, with his head spread high,

"Oh, my god, my god! Your reluctance to own the heart and the heavens of the earth as they fill it. I do not know what concerns you leave in my care. Whoever he is, regardless of what he is going through, I plead with you, ease his burden and his pain. "arshad unexpectedly ceased in his prayer as he felt his tears flowing.

Arshad was surprised when heran his wet cheeks, "why am I crying?" he asked himself.

Arshad tried to ignore and again pray: "o whatever god please ease his woes Treat the hurt. - right. Forgive me o god: "arshad suddenly sobbed in prayer and was not aware of it.

"I leave him to you, o god, until the time comes for me to take him!"

The prayer of a 26-year-old man in his sholatte. Pray for the safety of those he may not know. But his heart and soul belong only to him.

The man who waits for his true love Arsyad malik al-mubarak.

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Zahra's latest fell asleep when she heard azan's ring. His eyes adjust the light, his hands try to block the light that shines right on it.

After a few minutes zahra was able to lower her left hand that was right in front of her eyes and drive out the light.

"Awwwsss!" zahra tried to wake up and suffer pain in his waist as well as his neck from falling asleep in a reclining position.

"Asstagfirullah...Holy cow. So grab me!" he groveled.

Then try to rip the jugular muscles, try to tilt to the right and to the left, the pain slowly fades. And slowly zahra got out of bed immediately rushed to the bathroom to take wudhu and perform an early morning prayer.

The morning of seven a clock zahra was preparing to go to work at miss nana's shop, it was Saturday and the campus was off so zahra came in early today.

After bathing and zahra dressed in front of his makeup table to dress up. Zahra was smiling brightly watching her reflection in the mirror,

"Poor you zahra!" soft-spoken mutzahra himself.

His dark eyes and pale face suggest how pathetic zahra must have been this time.

How could I not? It's the first time she's ever loved and loved that it's also what's hurting her.

Zahra chuckles not because he's happy, but because he's trying to mask his grief, zahra isn't the way to go! You believe in god and this is the test you must face. There's always a silver lining." Remind zahra of himself and come back smiling.

After rubbing thin powder on her face and wearing zahra's hijabs stand up straight in front of the mirror.

Then she wore her sash bag, and smiled brightly in front of the mirror: "you can see, it's time to show a fake smile to the spirit of those I love! My smile is happy for them and vice versa. Be strong even for me! An ugly truth.

Zahra smiled brightly as he came out of her room, he noticed ummi (mom) and her sister were making breakfast.

Zahra was walking close to the ummi.

Muachh....

One little kiss landed on her darling cheek setting dishes at the dinner table right in front of her room.

The rather large house joined the living room and also the dining table that was only hampered by the sofa.

"My dearest morning, my heavenly angel." Say hello to the fiery kiss back on zahra's left cheek. "Morning angels of heaven ummi!" said the ummi with a comforting smile.

"He is crippled, citing half as drunk as zahra's sister!" protests to none other than the busy hacurly rice pouring on the plate.

Zahra chuckles, "Somebody jealous? Shame on the same age!"Tempt zahra by blinking him. Haikal her sister.

Haikal angered zahra, "at heart! Neither sooner than tomorrow. Wleekkk... "as much as he hasn't lost.

"Go to hell!" says zahra and her sister laugh at zahra's adorable face when they're pissed off.

After zahra's breakfast zahra bid and go to work. Once again in the mind, patience and perseverance must be tested. He had to be cool and calm in his encounter at nana's, especially after last night he turned off his phone must have been asking her a lot of questions. And she had to be extra patient with Mis Nana.

# TBC....

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