Summary & Cast :

(Pchy as Wil Witiakorn)

(Push Dj as San Tipputchai)

When a straight CEO falls in love with a pitiful gay man.

San is a successful young CEO. He looks perfect in everyone's eyes, his appearance, his height and body shape but unfortunately he doesn't have a lover . San is no longer interested in any relationships since his girlfriend died of cancer.

Until Wil comes into his world.

Their first meeting at a bar where San picked up his drunk brother and he saved Wil from a man who wanted to disturb him.

Since that night Wil's sad face was deeply engraved in his mind.

And their second meeting still in the same bar. San saved Wil again but this time from his ex-boyfriend.

At first San thought he just wanted to help Wil out of pity. But the longer Wil is next to him the more San wants to have him .

It turns out San has fallen in love with him without realizing it.

Wil is a son of a bankrupt businessman. After his father's company went bankrupt, Wil had to work hard for his family. His father was a gambler and drinker. Since his father knew he was gay his father could not accept Wil and always beat him.

The worst is that his boyfriend cheated his money and married a woman.

Wil became afraid of falling in love with a straight man. But he can't dodge someone and that person is San.

Wil tried hard to control his feelings towards San since San once told him don't ever fall in love with him because he did not into men which makes Wil on blind date countless time but it didn't help at all instead made San extremely angry.

You can't choose who you will fall in love with or when you will fall in love at ?.

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...Chapter 1...

Wil Pov

" Don't cross the line Wil ".

That's what the tall man said to me.

Ha..ha..ha cross the line? What line? Brother line, friend line?.

Very funny when he was the one who made me cross the line.

" If you don't want me to cross the line then why treat me so well? ...why help me pay my father's debt which is not a small amount ?..... Why take care of me when I have a fever? .... why are you angry when I'm on a blind date?.... why take me to a fancy restaurant?....and you, the respectable CEO why bother fetch me and picking me up a pitiful gay man from work every day?... Just why? ".

" I thought you as my brother and friend ".

" But I don't want to be your brother or friend "

I'm a human being. I have a heart and feeling when someone unconditionally treats me kindly and gently. How can I not be shaken?

I can't never see him like an older brother or friend he gave me warmth, take care of me, he made me comfortable, he saved me many times when nobody does and I felt safe around him.

" We can only be friends, Wil. Nothing more, nothing less ".

Yeah, keep denying that San Tippuchai. Obviously, you have feelings for me but don't want to admit it. I don't know what you are afraid of.

Did I just mention his name? Yes,

His name is San Tipputchai, a young CEO of the Sun group. He is 185 cm tall, fair skin, good looking and cool unlike me 174 cm, a bit tan, average looking, and not cool at all.

San likes to wear suits. I really like San wearing white because he looks like a prince with his height from the manga.

San saved me several times, first at the bar from strangers, second still at the same bar from my ex-boyfriend, and third you will found out in the story later.

San has a girlfriend named Jann. Jann died 3 years ago because of cancer.

Jann is a beautiful woman, why did I know? whereas I never met Jann? That's because San showed me Jann's photo he still keeps all of Jann's belongings with him. I guess he still can't forget her.

I never thought of replacing Jann's position or anyone in San's heart.

I just hope that San can open his heart to other people even though that person is not me. He shouldn't have stay in the past.

According to his grandmother, San never brought anyone else home besides me. Can't I have hope? Even though it's only a little?.

His grandmother said San might have feelings for me because according to San's grandmother after Jann died San never cared about someone like he cared about me.

At first, I didn't believe it but along the time San's attitude towards me was very different that's why I confessed my feelings for him today but did you hear what he said ?!.

He told me don't cross the line. To be honest, San had warned me before to not fall in love with him because he didn't like men but I didn't listen to him instead make myself fall deeper into him. I deserve it. I'm so pathetic aren't I?.

Since he said we can only be friends nothing less, nothing more

I don't think I should hang on the same tree.

Even though I have to sell my body I will pay all my debts then disappear from before him.

You can't just stay in the same spot where it makes you pain.

" If you say so, please do not interfere in my business anymore, even though I die outside, please don't care about me ".

" You know I can't ".

Did you hear that? This selfish bastard.

" Don't make me hate you San ".

After saying that. I took my cellphone and dialed someone's number " Hello P, where are you? let's have a drink tonight I miss you ".

I don't care about the person in front of me, I turn around and walked away and I also don't know how is San's expression right now.

I want him to see how far I can go.

And also

I want him to rub salt into his own wound.

Back in the days.

* Crash *

The sound of broken goods. My boyfriend threw things in our room. heard I did not agree to break up.

I don't understand why have to break up? Our relationship is fine and I always give him money on time.

" Why break up P? ".

" You really don't understand? ". My boyfriend glared at me.

I shook my head.

" You're poor now. Your father's company already bankrupt ".

" But I can work hard to get money for you P ".

" Can you have a bit of pride for yourself? ".

What can I do? I love him. He is my first love and my first boyfriend.

In this life meeting people you love are not easy especially that person is willing to be with you.

People like us don't expect to get perfect love. We just want someone to love us sincerely.

Do you think I want to be born like this?. No, I don't want, if possible I want to live like a normal person marrying a woman and having children but I can't choose. In fact, this is the life for me

" Don't you love me P ? ".

My eyes are getting hot.

" Listen to me Wil Wiltiakorn, I never love you, and I dated you because of your money. You are so disgusting, You know? " My boyfriend pointed my head.

My whole world collapsed. Really cruel. The tears didn't stop falling.

" I'm getting married next week, come if you are free ". My boyfriend added.

I immediately sat down on the floor my whole body feels weak.

Then my boyfriend packs all his belongings and leaves me on my condo alone.

Very painful

One week I calmed down, yes even though the pain was still there but life must go on. I can't because of a man I give up on my life. I want to live better than now.

The condo that I live in is given by my father because there are many memories with my ex-boyfriend so I decided to move back with my parents. Since my father's company went bankrupt. We moved to a smaller place.

I just stepped on my foot into the house my father brutally beat me I don't even know what is going on?.

" Mercy, Po " I begged in pain.

My father never lay his hands on me or my mother but today.

While kicking me my father said

" I don't raise you to like men ".

I was shocked my father knew it.

He beat me harder the pain spread all over my body.

" Po mercy please ".

Then my father stopped he throws his phone in front of me.

My vision is not very clear. But I know it is a photo of me kissing my ex-boyfriend.

Who is so cruel sent that photo to my father?.

It turns out that my ex-boyfriend's girlfriend who sent that photo to my father

If that day my mother didn't save me maybe I was beaten to death by my father.

From that day on my father totally changed into another person.

He no longer loves me. He saw me as a disgusting thing. I'm really sad.

I just know people's heart changes so easily.

No one truly loves me Wil Wiltiakorn even my own father.

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I don't know if guys will like it or not but thank you for reading na jaa ❤.

Now I'm walking around in the city with hot weather looking for jobs.

I applied for 24 companies but none of them wanted to hire me for the same reasons because I don't have experience and because I am a child from a bankrupt businessman.

The first reason I can accept it because it's true I don't have any experience working before. My monthly fee is given by my father so I don't work.

But what is wrong with the second excuse?. The company which bankrupt is belongs to my father, not me everyone knows I'm not involved even though I'm his only son. So what does that have to do with me?.

I guess my father's company bankrupt had a big impact on me. It will be hard for me to looking for a job.

I don't think I will find a job if I depend on myself. So I decided to ask for help from my friends.

I took out my cellphone and dialed their number one by one.

But from dozens of my friends, none of them are willing to help me.

As people say when you have money, they stick to you like glue, but when you don't have money, they disappear like a shadow.

I just found out my life is very pathetic. I'm surrounded by fake people with fake love.

" Be strong Wil, don't give up easily "

I encourage myself.

Then I scroll down the last number and also my last hope. That person is P'Ton. He is like a big brother to me.

We met at a restaurant. At that time he forgot to bring his wallet so I helped pay for his food.

Then we hang out several times and naturally become close.

I really hope P'Ton can help me. If he also doesn't want to help me, then what should I do?.

While calling out the number I was very nervous.

[ Hello, N' Wil ] it rang twice the person over there answered.

" Hello, P'Ton can I ask your help? "

I decided not to chit chat but went straight to the point.

[ Do you need money? ]

I think P'Ton also heard the news about the incident that happened to my family.

" No P'Ton, I need a job ".

[ Job? ]

" Yes, can you help find a job for me any job is fine P'Ton I really need it " I begged

The person on the phone was quiet for a while before he stated again

[ Ok, tomorrow come to meet me at this place ].

I wrote down the location and I was very happy at that moment knowing I might get a job and it would be my first job so I needed to appreciate it.

The next day I went to the place P'Ton said. I found that I was standing in front of a luxury hotel, it seemed like this hotel was just established.

Then a beautiful woman takes me to meet P'Ton in his office.

P'Ton gave me a job at this hotel. He put me in the room service department. P'Ton said he couldn't give me a higher position since I had no experience and of course, I don't mind I'm really very grateful P'Ton gave me this job.

I just found out that work was very tiring but also very fun. Tiring because sometimes a lot of work and scolded by hotel guests and It's fun because you have lots of friends at the workplace and when you receive a big tip from hotel guests.

What do I like about working? When you are busy working you will forget everything that makes you sad and painful.

In fact, I always put on a fake happy face that made everyone think I didn't have a problem. Inside only I know how sad and misery I am. How not?.

The two people I loved sincerely changed.

My ex-boyfriend is with me because of my money

My father knows I'm gay. He can't accept me and always beat me.

It sometimes makes me depressed but life must go on.

You sad also a day

You happy also a day

The world won't stop just because you are sad.

So instead of putting on a sad face, I'd better put on a happy face to let the world thinks I'm not having a problem in my life. Who knows? I can inspire people.

Day after day I passed, I have no problem with my job but I started to change I also do not know why? I began to acts slut in front of everyone. I like to flirt with handsome men but I never sleep with them.

And what about love ?.

Love is like death to me I don't dare to touch with the name love again. One time I experienced it. It's already enough.

If possible I don't want to love anyone but myself.

I'm pretty good now alone. But sometimes I will look at handsome men to wash my eyes hahaha.

And suddenly one day a cute man with the height the same as me appeared, he also worked in the room service department. His name is Saun he is really pretty.

The first time I saw him, I felt a good feeling for him. I want to be his friend so I approach Saun first and I talk a lot that makes him always avoid me when he sees me from far. Maybe I'm a bit annoying.

Then we became good friends when one hotel guest accused him of stealing things which he didn't do it everyone didn't believe Saun I was the only one who trusted him.

Since then we have become very close. We share everything together. Saun also knew I had a father who likes to beat me. He knows everything about me. It feels good when you have friends that you can talk about everything with. Finally, I felt I found my true friend.

I have worked for a long time at the hotel but I never met the real owner after knowing P 'Ton is not the owner but one of the shareholders in this hotel.

Not long after, Miss. Leau also these hotel shareholders announced that the owner of this hotel had returned.

At first, I joked with Saun that I will flirt with this hotel owner but after knowing he is P' Ton's younger brother and Miss. Leau's boyfriend I step back.

And something strange happened between Saun and P' Ton's brother.

Several times I noticed how P' Ton's brother looked at Saun very differently. Inside his eyes like there are remnants of love that cannot be explained.

I am sure there is something between them but that's their life and I am nobody to interfere with their affairs. So let's focus on my life.

Now my father rarely hit me since I gave him money to drink and gamble. Just sometimes when he hits me he won't show any mercy.

But that night after I come home from work.

My father started beating me again. My father did not want his neighbor to know that he hit his own son so he hit me in the invisible part.

My father pushed me to the floor and kicked me right on my stomach

" Where is my money? " My father shouted at me.

I think he's lost gambling again that's why he is angry.

" Father, please stop it hurts " I hope my father can stop.

" You are not my son, I don't have a gay son like you '' Another kick landed on my stomach who lying on the floor that barely breathed.

I cried in pain and smiled bitterly while pulling my hair.

'' Shameless son you still can smile? " My father pulled my collar and give one slap on my face.

This is how my life looks like.

All of my salary I always gave to my father.

If I didn't give him money then this the result.

'' Where is my money? ". My father was ready to land another punch on my face.

'' Enough, if you hurt him again I will die in front of you '' It's my mother use a knife pointed at her own wrist.

'' Crazy woman '' My father stopped his actions he stood up and wanted to walk towards my mother.

'' In my bag, the money you need is in my bag '' I afraid my father will hurt my mother so I shouted mixed with a painful voice in it.

My father turned and looked at me for a while then walked away looking for the money in my bag.

My mother threw her knife and rushed to me who was lying on the floor.

My mother when know I'm gay she was truly shocked at first she could not accept for a moment but in the end she supported me she said as long as I'm happy.

" I'm sorry son, Mother can't protect you '' My mother hugged me and cried hysterically.

'' I'm fine Mother'' I hugged my mother back and comforted her.

The wound on my skin is nothing compared to the wound in my heart which my father cannot love me for who I am.