to meet your husband at a young age is an predictable to everyone. But we believe that love is powerful to each and everyone, coz we believe having someone in our life we feel that we are complete. and we thought that to get married at a young ages is okay. but the truth its not as easy as we thought. especially if our husband is so nice to you...but we take for granted only the love that they give to us. having a husband is wonderful if only both of you are really in love to each other and not for other reasons. at first I was really happy coz everything I want I can buy and I have a very loving husband. especially when he love my son and treated like his on son. that was the time I said to myself that he is the one that God gave to me as my partner in life. not knowing that its just the beginning of our journey as a husband and wife. and as we all know in every relationship we face a challenge on how our love and faithful to be tested to our partner. and we always saying to our self that we are happy on what we have at this moment. but the truth? we are not happy at all coz although we have everything still thier is something that is missing in our life. and we could not pinpoint what is the missing puzzel and we always searching for it. And I was a bit sad about it coz I should not feel like this coz my husband are very good person to me and to my son. you me wondering whay I have my son and yet married at a young age. actually he is not the first man that I love instead he is the one who help me to fulfill my dream especially in study my husband help me to finished it. and he always telling me that he will do everything for my and my son. and by that I was so grateful for him coz he came to my life when I was nothing and accept me for what I am. but at the end I realised that why my feelings are like this towards him? a very understanding partner that will do just to make you happy...but even though my flaws he always there for me to help me and guide me. but you know sometime we make a mistake that we thought its okay but at the end of the day you realised that why did you do it?what more you will asked? You have everything in life a good husband that will gave you all the things that you want. But you know where just a human being nobody is perfect only God is perfect. and it was to late when I realised it and he was already gone my love my future.

when the person leave as for good we realised it that why we waste the time on other things. instead of giving it to our partner who is always thier for us. why we always look for something that is not thier. why we can't accept and be satisfied on the things that we have in life. when my husband gone I realised that he is the only person who understand me and love me without asking for anything in return. I know it's already to late for this, and no matter what I do now He can't feel that I full in love with him. only that I was to childish to act at that time and not able to express my feelings for him. all I can say now is thank you for everything that you for me and I can't find the same man in my life now. All I want not is hope and pray that if ever you will be burn again my love that we can meet again and by that time...I can assure you that I will return the love that you give to. I know I lost you now but still I believe that your always thier for me watching above. but you know my love that I was really happy and lucky to have you in our life especially for my son you treated him so well and no doubt about it. coz even my friends always telling me that I was so lucky to have you as my husband. And I can't change the fact that I make mistake while was with me. I'm so sorry for that my love and I hope you can for give me for the mistake that I do. I know now you see what I have done my love and I blame myself for bieng so childish and not paying more attention to you. If only I could bring back the time! I will do everything to express my love for you and to tell you everyday that I love you so much... I guest now it's my karma on bieng alone that I feel why my life is not complete? I'm missing your love, but I lnow you are now in a good hands of God. And only in my dreams I can see you my love. once again thank you so much for coming into my life and for helping me to grow and be mature now. It because you teach me to stand my my own. although it's really hard my love without you everything has been a mess with me right now. how I wish you still here with me... I me lost you for good but the good memory will stay forever in my heart and I treasure everything that we have my love. thanks for the 9 years together and the happy moments that we share together I love you.

In our life we thought everything will be okay once we have of own family? But the truth it is not as easy as we think. many things happen that only time can till. In my exsisting in this world for 36 years. I already faces different kind of chanllenges in life. To lost my husband and other things that I thought I will never be able to experience, but I was wrong things that you want will not be easy as we think that we could do it as we plan for it. life is full of surprices. Like when I meet a man I thought he is the one that I been waiting for so many years of bieng alone and as a single mom. at first we are happy everythings seems perfect in our relationship. until one day I found out that all that we have is a lie and it really hurt me to know that he doesn't love even before. All he want from was the things that I can give to him, but even though I already know it and even my friends telling me that he was just using me. Still I believe in him that he loves me and he care for me. to the point that we decided to leave togethere and start a family. I become blind because of love and trusting him was the big mistake that I ever did in my life and for loving him. And thats time that I realised life is full of surprices and even the people we thought will not hurt us... they are the one who most likely to hurt us in the end. for almost 2 years and 6 months I try my best to make our relationship work. coz I believe that one day he will realised that inspite of his flaws I still love him for who he was. But then again i was wrong in that think of mine and no matter what we do if that person doesn't have feelings for you. It will never work and you will just lost your confidence in yourself because you just waste the time and effort. The reality teach as to became a wise person when we are going to enter into a relationship. And in this relationship of mine I sacrificies my studies so that I can move on easily the pain that I got from him. But what can I do even he hurt me I still love him and I still for give him when he asked for a second chance for our relationship. I thought he will change? But I was wrong again to believe that someone can change. Thats the reality and a fact that in this life it is not easy to change and only few are able to do it. But in my case I was not lucky coz everything is just a dream for me and it really hurt me.