This is ridiculous! I got reincarnated into a reincarnation novel as the OG female lead clara Loreali who is actually a villainess? Apparently I did!

Now I'm stuck in this body that can't even move properly! Why did it have to be me?! No, the better question is how. Because in these type of stories, it's always a middle-aged Korean/Japanese/Chinese mistreated orphan woman. While I am Asian, I'm not from East Asia. I'm not even an adult for god’s sake! And I'm definitely not an orphan.

Am I...dead? I don't think I'm able to go back. But.... I don't want to be here. Why can't I go back? Why did it have to be me?! Why?!

I guess babies can't handle this much pressure. I think that's why I started crying. The sound echoed through the huge room with marble walls adorned with sapphires and silver decorations. The crib I was placed in started shaking a bit.

In a moments notice, a tall, slender, silver haired woman who looks like she's in her late twenties barged in, her face filled with worry and her steps hurried but graceful. She came closer to the crib and took Clara up in her hands. The lady started to gently sing her a lullaby

"Come stop your crying

it will be alright

just take my hand

Hold it tight

I will protect you-

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I was scared. Terriffied even. But the moment I saw those eyes, the ones with kindness flooding them,and that voice sweeter that honey, for some reason, all my worries started to fade.

Why? I don't know. But seeing her, i felt reassured.

Who is she? She's so beautiful. I like her voice

It felt so comforting and i slowly dozed off. When i woke up, the first thing I saw where those eyes. I also felt like i was being slowly patted.

"Aah- Aaahgoo-" i tried to ask who she was but all that that came out of my mouth was a few baby babbles.

"oh my, did i wake you? Im sorry Clara" the woman said

Clara. That was the first time someone called me by my name. The maids call me 'little miss' or 'little lady'

Only 2 people in this duchy can call me that. So...is this lady....my mom?

That's weird. In reincarnation stories, the mother is usually...... Dead.

I hope she doesn't die. She seems so nice. I don't know her exact personality, but i know at least that. Her name......what was it again-

BANG

just then, the extremely fabulous door was slammed open - again.

Just what is their problem with opening the door normally?😑

"CLARA! ARE YOU OKAY?! I HEARD MY BABY CRIED! DON'T WORRY, DEAR! DADDY WILL-oof"

A man with purple hair barged in , in his very noisy fashion.

One moment he was screaming and the next, he lost his balance, having a pillow with surprising force thrown at him by the lady

After screaming his head off, that pillow was deserved. Way to go mom!- no wait, she isn't my real mom.

The man who's obviously my father got up slowly "ouch- chloeeee whyyyy--" he whined

"Dont scream like that when Clara is here" the woman, that we now know is Chloe, says.

Oh, mom- I mean the lady's name is Chloe. Great timing, old man

The man stepped closer to me menacingly, his eyes were jet black.He's calm with mom, but I'm scared. He's scary.

"aaah- AAAAH( sniffle) waaaah-" I started bawling my eyes out.

curse this stupid body. Aaah- dammnit! Go away! i only want the nice lady here!

My crying had already startled the couple, but then when i started crying louder, they started panicking.

"What did you DO?!" mom said with gritted teeth as she pushed father's face away from me. She pulled me into her hands and started cradling me while slowly patting my back.

"Is my clara hungry?" she said softly with a gentle smile.

My father came near with a worried expression. "C-Clara....Daddy's sorry.." he said a bit stiff. He's so akward. Were my parents in my past life like this with me too? After all, i was their eldest.

I miss them. Mom, dad, are you okay? I....think im dead in my other life. I hope.....that they're okay. I wish i could see them again.

Ugh.

Im once again reminded of my unfortunate fate. I'll just....sleep.

And I fell asleep again, in the arms of my new mother. And I know that I'm being cruel. These people haven't done anything to me. They just love their daughter. Or who they think their daughter is. I feel.... Horrible.

So...i guess I'll be your 'daughter' for a while

I said that I will be your daughter.......BUT WHERE ARE YOU BOTH?!

Yes. It has been 2 months since that interaction.....and the last time i saw them was a brief 'goodbye' in the middle of my nap!

Well 'goodbye' my ass. I HATE YOU BOTH !!!!!!!!!

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The Rivenos Empire and the kingdom of Sidonna have been at war for centuries. They had just come to an agreement, but the Rivenos royals deceived the Sidonnan royals.

So now the Lorelai and Ashcroft Dukedoms are the ones that face the most harm, while the ones who started the war are stuffing their bellies.

Rivenos has 4 dukedoms . The Kairos of the North, Ashcroft of the South, Everett of the East and Lorelai of the West.

The Lorelai and Ashcroft dukedoms neighbour the kingdom of Sidonna. Even though it is just a kingdom, Sidonna is one of the most powerful forces on the continent . unfortunately, Rivenos and Sidonna are enemies.they are in a constant state of war

*the frontlines of the Rivenos-Siddonna war. In Lorelai base:*

"I hope Clara does not miss us too much?" A male voice jokingly said.

Ii hope not" A female voice filled with worry joined in.

The knights behind the two murmured something along the lines of" I cant believe it" and "Having a child changed them so much!"

Then, a particularly brave knight spoke directly to the two." Oh, my lord! Can you believe it, Our Duke and Duchess are such caring parents! And here we are left wondering where that softness went when we are training" This earned him a few weird glances from fellow knights.

The purple haired man turned to the knight with an unreadable expression."oh, really?" he said, stretching the' really '. "Who here thinks our trainings were too harsh?" At this, the silver hair lady turned around too.

"Please tell us, we can change it for you" the lady said, in a venomous tone.

The knights were hesitant, but a few hands started raising, including the foolish knight who provoked the two.1-2-5 hands started raising. In total, within the twenty knights who were present, eight of them raised their hands.

"Seventy push-ups" the duke said.

"Are you telling us that we only have to do 70 push-ups, instead of 400 !?" The knights said excitedly

"Ofcourse not. Seventy push-ups. NOW." The duchess clarified

"WHAT?!" The knights that raised their hands were taken aback. "But we just finished training!" one of them exclaimed.

"So?" they both said together. "You all have to toughen up a bit if you cannot handle the training we already gave you" the duchess said.

A collective groan from the knights who raised their hands were heard, along with the laughs of the 12 knights who didn't raise their hands as they watched their friends doing extra training.

Even with all this, it was peaceful. Peaceful as it will ever be here. In the Lorelai war base. The laughs and supportive cheers of the knights for their comrades who were getting punished, the glares of their commanders, and a light atmosphere. It was all Chloe Lorelai wishes for.

For her duchy to remain peaceful, for her people to laugh and smile without having to fear their approaching battles and possible death. and for her family, her husband and child, to be safe and smiling.

She prayed every night, and Even before every battle. She wishes that they don't have to feel her absence. And that is what drives her to move on.

'I may not be in love with you like how I should be, Pedro, but I do love you, even if it is different. I will be with you. In life and in death. With our child, Clara'

This was a promise Chloe made to herself when Clara was born. As she held her tiny, sleeping child, she felt an emotion like none before, along with an urge to keep this peace.

This peace, would not have been so out of reach, had it not been for the war.

This war has ruined Rivenos. This is one of the main reasons that the royal family lost support of the public.

*In the Lorelai estate*

"Waa-WAAAA" My cries echoed through my ginormous room. I watched as the maids scrambled to get me to stop crying.“are you hungry?” one of them said “or do you want a toy ?” another one said, holding a rattle toy.

The maid shook the rattle toy for me and then handed it to me.

I don't want a toy-

I didn't want one, but the moment she gave it to me, I felt and excitement and curiosity like none before and stopped crying.

W-what?! Why is a rattle toy so interesting?! Augh- dammit!!!!!!!

And I sat there for a good two hours before i finally felt bored. Curse this baby body.I felt a bit hungry so I cried. That's all I could do anyway, as a 3-month-old.

My wet nurse, Rose, came to me and breastfed me. Because my mom and dad are always at.....war, They hired Rose.

Afterwards, she slowly walked around the room trying to get me to burp. But I saw something....strange.

Near the door, there was a huge mirror. And in that huge mirror, i saw myself for the first time.I had silver hair and big blue eyes, just like the book described. But....in my eyes, there were.....black rings?

I was shocked. Shiver me timbers, what is that? It looks....cool, but i also look possessed ! I thought what the maids said about my eyes were because of the rich blue color, and not because i looked like i was ........like an angel?

I mean....just think about it. I look like i have rings of flames (or burnt rings of flames, cause they're black) in my eyes!

I look so.....cute!!!!!

At least i have that. I got reincarnated into a reincarnation story, that's the least they could give me. Well, im also rich, and have loving parents and-aah

I think i burped after monologing to myself for a while.

And i was back inside my crib. Dammit I'm so bored----

That's where I fell asleep. After all that thinking, it felt nice and relaxing.

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*3 months later.*

 As i was waking up from my very peaceful nap, i smelled a very familiar scent.

"Aah- aagaa" I made some more baby babbles as i tried to wake up.

"oh my. Clara is finally waking up." that voice as sweet as honey spoke and i instantly recognized her.

As i opened my eyes, I was met with a heavenly sight.My mom in this life....is so pretty that i couldn't help but stare dumbfounded.

"Clara really likes you, huh?" that was definitely my father's voice. He was right behind me.

Mom then picked me up carefully."I cant believe that you're already this big! I'm sorry for not being here, baby".

You should be sorry. It's been so long that I stopped counting. And in my eagerness to express my anger I started bawling my eyes out once again, startling the two as I snuggled closer to mom.

'It must be because babies feel more attachment to their parents. I would never act like this normally' I thought to myself.

Yeah. I don't think of them as my real parents. I don't but....I like this feeling.

Mom let out a chuckle at my actions. "Our Clara is such a cutie, right?" she remarked.

"Yeah....it's bad for my poor heart" dad said, looking a bit disheartened" she doesn't seem to like me too much"

Mom stared at dad for a bit before suggesting he try holding her.

“Do you think Clara will like that?” he asked hesitantly

"We won't know until we try, Pedro” she said, slowly handing me over to dad.

‘So his name is Pedro’ i thought to myself as i was being handed over.

As he carefully held me, i got a good look at him. He looked so nervous that i couldnt help but smile.

Now that I look closely, his eyes....are the same shade as the rings in my eyes.

And unfortunately, while I was thinking that, my hands tried to reach out to him.

He gasped in surprise." Chloe, are you seeing what I'm seeing?!" he exclaimed in an excited tone.

“I told you that she likes you too” Chloe said joyfully.

In their excitement, dad squeezed me a bit too hard and startled me, which led me to cry.

Mom immediately took me back from dad as he apologized to me profusely. He took a small, light blue rabbit plushie from the nearby table and waved it in front of me.

"Look, it's a new toy that daddy bought for you! Does Clara want it?" he said.

The plushie was cute, so it got my attention and making me stop crying. Both of them were relieved as I took the plushie and looked at it with curiosity.

"Phew. She stopped crying. Good job" mom said as she put me back in my crib and patted dad in the back.“it seems like she likes her new toy. You have good taste”

"Thanks" dad said.

I wasn't feeling particularly sleepy, but it was nap time already. I felt like I just woke up, but It was already noon. Mom fed me, burped me and rocked my crib until i fell asleep.

Just how long untill i'll see you two again? I hope not too long.