Secret Feelings
episode 1: The silent comparison
dekisugi
Hey Nobita.
Are you still awake?
nobita
Yeah...
I can't really sleep.
dekisugi
Same.
Do you mind if we talk for a bit?
nobita
No, it's okay.
What's up?
dekisugi
You were very quiet today at school.
nobita
Was I?
I don't notice.
dekisugi
You always say that.
But today felt different.
nobita
It was just another normal day.
Bad test score, teacher scolding,
Gian laughing....
Nothing special.
dekisugi
You forgot one thing.
dekisugi
Everyone comparing you with me.
nobita
...
Please don't say that.
nobita
Because it's embarrassing.
You always get full marks.
And I... Barely pass.
dekisugi
Marks don't define a person.
nobita
That's easy for you to say.
dekisugi
Nobita, I...
(typing stops)
nobita
It's fine.
I'm used to it
dekisugi
That's what scares me.
dekisugi
Yes.
That you think you deserve to feel small.
dekisugi
No.
You just don't see yourself clearly.
nobita
Then tell me what you see.
dekisugi
I see someone who tries.
Even when he knows he might fail.
nobita
Trying and failing isn't something to admire.
dekisugi
It is...
When you don't give up.
nobita
I give up all the time.
dekisugi
But you still wake up the next day,
don't you?
nobita
I don't have a choice.
dekisugi
You always have a choice.
nobita
Why are you talking like this today?
dekisugi
Because I wanted to.
nobita
You don't usually message me this late.
(Dekisugi is typing... Stops... Typing again....)
dekisugi
Because today...
When the teacher Praised me
again,
You looked down at your desk.
nobita
I don't want anyone to see my
Face.
nobita
Then you must've felt proud.
dekisugi
Because I never wanted to be the reason you feel hurt.
nobita
You're not the reason.
I'm just... not good enough.
dekisugi
Stop saying that.
dekisugi
It's your truth.
Not mine.
nobita
Then what am I to you?
dekisugi
You're someone i notice.
Even when no one else does.
nobita
You notice everyone.
You're kind to all.
dekisugi
Like staying awake at night just to make sure you're okay.
nobita
Why would you do that?
dekisugi
Because when you're sad,
it feels like something inside me
hurts too.
nobita
Dekisugi...
are you saying this out of pity?
nobita
Because I hate pity.
dekisugi
Then listen carefully.
nobita
You must be confused.
dekisugi
I've been confused for a long time.
dekisugi
About why your smile matters to me so much.
nobita
This doesn't make sense.
dekisugi
Feelings rarely do.
nobita
Your scaring me a little.
dekisugi
I'm sorry.
I don't mean to.
nobita
It's just...
no one ever talks to me like this.
dekisugi
Then let me be the first.
dekisugi
Because I want to.
nobita
My heart feels strange.
nobita
I don't know.
It's fast... and warm.
dekisugi
Then maybe it's not bad.
nobita
What if I misunderstand
everything?
dekisugi
Then I'll explain.
Slowly.
nobita
And if I don't feel the same?
dekisugi
Then I'll stay your friend.
Nothing more.
nobita
Let's talk like this sometimes.
nobita
Good night, dekisugi.
dekisugi
Good night, Nobita.
Sweet dreams.
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