The advantage of the hot weather is the clear sky, and that makes me want to go for a walk outside, despite the scorching sun. But light like this makes for a beautiful photo. After all, there's nothing to do in the room.

I packed my things, put them in my backpack, then took my favorite camera and wrapped it around my neck. I'm getting ready to go for a walk to take photos in Chiang Mai. I've only been here a few days; it's been almost two months since the semester started.

Me, Typhoon... I'll be a first-year student at the veterinary school, on a campus far from home, and I don't know.

I came alone, knowing nothing. But that's okay, because I'm always alone, just like During the exam, I chose medical school as my first choice and veterinary medicine as my second choice. At first, I didn't think I'd get my degree, but when I was accepted into veterinary medicine, I hesitated for a while, whether to continue studying or stop and stay home to go back to studying. But in the end, I decided to continue, for the same reason...

I don't want to stay home.

Being here... should be better.

And it's not just better for me.

I moved alone into the dorm my father had been looking for, and he had took care of everything. He didn't complain or ask a word when I said he wanted to study here.

Of course, the farther away the typhoon is, the better.

Dad told his secretary to send money every month. I talk to his secretary more often than to my own father. He's busy working, but that doesn't mean he doesn't have free time. He has the time, but chooses not to spend it with me.

After divorcing my mother, his life turned out well. His one-year-old daughter is very cute, a very adorable child. If one day we can get to know each other, I'll be a good brother to her. I'll take care of her like Fan takes care of me. But maybe that opportunity will never ... Living alone away from home isn't as bad as I thought. The dorm is comfortable. Dad has financed my life for a long time.

The camera and equipment, all from money he sent without asking. He doesn't care what I use the money for, as long as it's not excessive and I don't bother him often, it's enough.

Typhoon is just a hidden character in my father's life. His new wife mustn't know that his wife had a son named Typhoon. But it doesn't matter, I don't want to ask for anything. I don't want to find a place for myself anymore.

I'm just a typhoon, a typhoon, a raging wind that destroys everything, and nobody wants to see me.

I watched people passing by on campus . During a semester break like this, the campus isn't too crowded. The atmosphere was cool and calm, which made it impossible for me to resist picking up my camera and taking pictures. In fact, I photograph everything because I really love photography. It's my only hobby, and if possible, I don't want my hobby to be just a hobby.

Tonfah...

It's quite warm today, but Fan must like it.

The sky is cloudless today.

Very sunny. I have another picture for Instagram.

I really like taking pictures of the sky.

The reason is that it... is the only sky for me. Always be like that, and will always be like that.

Faifah and Tonfah.

I came here to meet him, but it wasn't easy. I don't know yet how I'll find him, and after I meet him, what should I do? Four years have passed; a lot must have changed.

Four years, without any communication.

Why have I never contacted him?

I'm lost again...

I'm someone who likes to get confused with the road. I've been like that since I was a child, and it's hard for me to remember which way to go. I often get lost, sometimes even confused between left and right. Once, I tried to follow my instincts, but instead, I got more lost; it was harder to find my way back.

This confusion started when I was a child. My teacher taught us that the hand we use most often is the right hand, and then told us to raise our right hands together because most people use their right hand. But I was left-handed, so I've been confused ever since.

I remember walking out of the university gate, but I don't know which gate. I kept walking until it seemed like I had left campus.

I've only been here a few days, so I haven't had time to pay attention to the sky at sunset. Maybe today is different than usual. I was stunned when I arrived at the traffic light intersection.

Now I can't cross, can I? It looks like I have to wait for these cars to pass first.

Ah, it's better not to cross.

I'm afraid of heavy traffic. The trauma of the worst experience of my life has made me always avoid crossing roads or driving on crowded roads. So I decided to backtrack for a while, then get on a songthaeo (Thai public vehicle).

"Uncle, take me to the back of campus," I said to the songthaeo driver who stopped when I waved.

"You know, the back of campus isn't here, the path is different.

You have to cross another path."

But I told you, I don't want to cross the road...

"Ah..." I remained silent for a moment, looking in the direction my uncle indicated. It looked like I would have to cross and wait for a vehicle in the opposite lane to return to the university.

"So, where are you going after that?" I asked

"I want to take the tourists to the pedestrian street."

"Ah... walk in the street? Okay, I'll go that way." I said, and then immediately went to the Songthaeo stop after deciding that walking in the street might be a good idea. After all, there's nothing to do right now.

I sat in the Songthaeo, which drove along a fairly busy road. Around six o'clock in the afternoon, vehicles everywhere in the world always seem to be packed. The atmosphere of this city is different from what I usually see, as if it were opening up a new world for someone who rarely travels like me.

I was surprised to see that there was a Pharmacy Faculty board meeting here And when the car passed the Medical School board building, my heart suddenly started to flutter a little.

What does this mean? Is this school separate from the university, including other health-related schools like dentistry or veterinary medicine? It feels like they have their own area.

I probably won't see him now. It's still holiday time, there's still plenty of time to prepare, the words and everything. Most importantly, I haven't decided whether I should tell Phi Fah everything or not...

I got off the songthaeo when I saw everyone else getting off

It's almost seven o'clock now. This is the first time I've been on a promenade in a different place. I walked slowly with the flow of people, divided into two directions: forward and backward.

The items sold here are quite unique, such as elephant-shaped keychains or items typical of the northern region.

"How much is it?" I asked, pointing to one of the keychains.

"One hundred and fifty baht," the vendor replied.

Wow, that's expensive too.

"It's handmade, that's why it's a bit pricey," the vendor's aunt said with a smile. I nodded and bought it immediately. L products Handmade items are naturally more expensive, but worth it.

I continued walking enthusiastically, finding things I rarely saw. I'm not someone who travels often, especially long trips like out of town. Also... this is my first time traveling alone, so I'm beginning to realize that getting lost is more troublesome than I thought.

Look, I didn't expect there to be an intersection on this street. After I turned...

Okay, where did I turn, huh? If I keep walking, will I ever find my way back? I stood there confused for a long time, but I couldn't stand there too long and block others, so I started walking again, following the path I was on.

Wow, how's it going, Phoon? The plan to walk around here and then go home might not be as easy as I thought.

With a road this complicated, maybe I'll get lost until morning.

I stopped when I heard the sound of music. I followed the sound and found a wide field. It turns out there's a performance.

Some musicians are playing a musical instrument that I suspect is a traditional one, while about six women wearing traditional Lanna clothing are dancing to the beat.

Wow! This is amazing Because I've never seen anything like it before, I feel very excited. I rushed to get out my camera and barely had time to take a picture. They are very beautiful, and the lighting and stage decorations are also beautiful. In addition to photographing the performance, I also took pictures of the stage decorations, the musicians, and the spectators watching the show.

I lowered my camera and looked directly with my own eyes.

I headed to a place that wasn't too crowded so I could take pictures more freely. Until finally, I captured someone's figure through my camera lens, and the image I saw kept me speechless for a moment I froze as my brain began to process what I saw.

My heart started racing, and my hand went stiff for no apparent reason.

Phi Fah....

It really is Phi Fah... He looked different from how I remembered him, but not too far off. I had suspected Phi Fah must be a very handsome man, but what surprised me was that he was much more handsome than I had imagined.

Phoon... your heart is beating too fast, isn't it?

It seems Phi Fah isn't alone. But because there were so many people and some were blocking my view, I couldn't see who was with him. After talking for a while, they began to leave the performance arena.

My legs are moving faster than my brain, which is processing the situation.

I just want to see Phi a little longer. I promise not to greet him because I'm not ready, but is secretly following him like this a wise decision?

Phi Fah is very tall; I think he must be over 180 cm. I raised my camera again to take a picture of the person I was following. I started learning how to take pictures because of this person, and this action finally enabled me to see who was with Phi Fah.

A woman...

I can only see the side of her face because she's talking to Phi Fah, but even though that's all she can see, I know she's very beautiful. Her hair is as long as her waist.

Her girlfriend...?

Phoon... why did I never think that Phi Fah might already have a girlfriend? Of course, who wouldn't want to be with someone like Phi

Fah?

"Akh!" I was shocked when someone behind me hit my body.

"Sorry," the person immediately apologized. I turned my head and saw them looking at me with a worried expression. "You're not hurt, are you?"

"No... it's okay," I replied quickly. It seemed the person behind me had hit me quite hard.

"Phoon?"

I turned my head toward the voice calling my name.

"Uh..."

The person calling me looked very surprised and stared at me. Phi Fah looked surprised to see me here, before quickly moving closer.

The woman with him looked a little confused, but she also moved closer.

"Phoon, do you still remember Phi Fah?"

"Yes."

"Are you out for a walk?"

"Yes."

"Are you alone?"

"Uh... yes."

"That's weird."

"Sorry?"

"Phoon, you're not the same kid who likes getting lost as you used to be?" Phi Fah asked, smiling jokingly.

Still the same as before...

Phi Fah is still the same as before...

I smiled slightly, looking at the person in front of me.

"Uh..." I turned my head to see the person standing next to Phi Fah.

"Oh... This is my neighbor Nong, her name is Typhoon."

Ah...

Yes, Typhoon is right next door to Nong.

"Oh... Hello, are you a first-year?" He nodded at Phi Fah's words and smiled kindly at me.

"That's crap..."

"No need to be formal, you're Typhoon, aren't you? My name is Mona, I just started my first year too."

"Oh..."

"What faculty are you in?" Mona asked

"Veterinary medicine."

"Oh, I'm from medical school too."

"Do you want to go home now?" Phi Fah asked.

"Yes, my brother has been waiting."

"How is he..." Phi Fah seemed to think for a moment. "Typhoon, wait here first, okay? Phi wants to invite him to eat. Have you eaten yet?" I shook my head.

"Not yet...? Okay, wait here first. Phi will take Mona first, then come back for you." I nodded.

"Goodbye, see you later." Mona made me sign, and I responded with a slight smile, then I watched them leave.

He said I have to wait here...

Because Mona is a woman, it must be dangerous if she goes home alone.

I can wait here alone too.

I stood between the rows of stalls; if I kept standing in the middle of the road, it would block other people. My hands were starting to sweat, I didn't know why. My fast-beating heart also felt more suffocating.

Why am I standing here? Will Phi Fah really come back or not, I don't know.

I looked up at the night sky. There were no stars, nothing but darkness. But it's still beautiful.

I'm secretly glad that Phi Fah is still the same as before. His friendly attitude toward everyone never changes.

Because Phi Fah was raised that way. Uncle and aunt are also very kind. Everyone should know at a glance that Phi Fah was raised well in a perfect family.

Perfect... in every way.

"Excuse me, give me a way, please."

I was jostled. "Oh, sorry." I apologized hastily when I realized I was blocking people who wanted to shop. I immediately moved to another spot, but Wherever I stood, I always felt like I was bothering others. Eventually, I was pushed back onto the road and had to walk with the flow of people moving about, hurrying here and there, until I appeared somewhere.

Ouch... Phi Fah said I should wait there. But where am I now?

...

It was a rainy day, as usual during the rainy season. The town where I live is often hit by storms. Typhoon, a stubborn child, lost again. Uh, no, actually, I was almost home, but I got lost because I heard the sound of a kitten and followed the sound.

A little kitten that's soaked in the rain Why do I always depend on Phi Fah?

"Sorry, Phi Fah. I'm bothering you again. >>>

It's okay.>>

"What did Phi tell you?"

"If you get lost, stay where you are and wait. Phi Fah will find you," I said, repeating what Phi Fah had said. Because if I try to find my own way, I'll just get lost. So we agreed that Phi Fah will find me, and I have to be a good boy while I wait.

"That's right, Typhoon doesn't want to get lost, does he?"

"No."

"If Typhoon doesn't help, this kitten could get into trouble."

<< Yes, he was shaking so much. >>>>

"Let Phi see." Phi Fah took the kitten from me, then took off his jacket and bandaged it. "Today, let this kitten wear Phi's jacket first." I nodded. Phi Fah usually always wears a jacket when he comes to pick me up. He said, the jacket was brought to me especially.

"Phi Fah..."

<< Yes? >>

<< Can I take care of him?>>>

"Um... Phi thought, how about finding someone else who can take care of him? >>>

<< I want to take care of him >>

"He needs to be alone like me. If we're together, he won't be alone."

"The typhoon won't feel lonely, everyone's here, isn't there?"

"But nobody really has the time."

"Okay, let's try talking to your mother."

"Oh, thank you."

Phi Fah... always good.....

"Not allowed!"

"Mae, but I want to keep him. Please, I promise to take good care of him."

"If Mae says no, it means no."

"But..."

"Enough, if you still have a disagreement, don't talk anymore. Go on, Mae wants to work."

"...s'."

"Why, won't Mae allow it?"

Fan was waiting downstairs in the house. He turned to me as I came down the stairs.

"Yes, Mae is very angry."

"Maybe he's in a bad mood because of a problem at work," Fan said, before turning to the kitten that was in the pile of used fabric. Phi Fah cleans it too.

"Oh."

No, my mother is always in a bad mood whenever I talk to her.

"This kitten is so cute. Have you got a name for it yet?"

"Not yet."

"What a shame." Fhun said, sitting and looking at the kitten.

"I haven't even thought of a name yet."

Suddenly, Phi Fah looked up in surprise: "How about we start thinking about a name now? I'm not very good at names."

"Okay, Phoon, at least you've given him a name."

"But why do we have to name him if he doesn't want to be named?"

"Stay with us?" I said with a sad expression.

"Later, I'll take care of him."

"Really?" Fab asked in a tone as if he didn't believe it,

"Are you really going to take care of him?" I asked.

"Later, you can come and play with him." He replied with a smile.

"Will your parents allow it, Fah?"

"It seems so. I'll try to ask for permission," Phi Fa replied. "Then you can name him now, because he's not going anywhere."

"...Thank you, Phi Fah."

I named him "Thong," after the golden-orange color of his fur.

After Phi Fah moved, we had to take care of Thong ourselves, although our parents complained a bit, but in the end, they allowed it, perhaps because they considered us responsible.

But now, Thong... is gone.

I can't keep anything.

He died a few months ago.

"Phoon...."

I turned my head after the same call, while looking at the items for sale Once again, he found me.

"Daydreaming?"

"Why weren't you here earlier?"

I felt a little strange with his words, perhaps because I could no longer think of myself as the Phoon I was, like when I was a child.

"Never mind, let's eat."

"Ah... yes."

I followed Phi Fah, not daring to speak because he was too nervous. I'm not very good at talking, so I don't know how to start a conversation.

"Is there anything you'd like to eat?"

"Everything's fine."

"Then, just this restaurant, okay?"

"With pleasure."

Then we went into the roadside restaurant Phi Fah had chosen. It's an ordinary restaurant that doesn't seem to be open only on night market days. After we ordered food, the atmosphere became awkward... at least for me.

"What makes you want to study away from here?" Phi Fah began to ask. It's normal for people who haven't seen each other in a long time to ask how they are.

"Are you studying veterinary medicine?"

"Yes."

"Ah... I just want to try it."

"Strange, Phi thinks you don't really like this field."

"No... I like it," I replied, looking down, my hand reaching for the glass of water. "And Phi? Are you studying medicine?"

"Yes."

"Did you come alone? Are there any other friends studying here too?"

"No, I'm alone."

"Wow, that's great."

"How are you, Phi Fah?"

"I'm fine. And you?"

"I'm... fine," I sighed to ease the nervousness. Why am I so tense? "Earlier... is she your girlfriend?"

"Oh, Mona? No, just a friend."

Just a friend...

"Oh..."

I'm just a friend of Phi Fah's too.

Phi Fah is like that. Good to everyone. He treats everyone well. I've seen people who are trapped by his kindness, thinking they're special. But in the end...

Phi Fah didn't think anything of them.

Such kindness... hurts the most.

That's why I said, Phi Fah is like a sky that seems close, but cannot be touched and that cannot be possessed.

<<< How are your father and mother?>>>

"Oh, Pho [Pho: Dad] is fine," I answered honestly, while thanking the waiter who served the food. "But I don't know how Mae is..."

"Why?"

"They're divorced. Mae left. >>>

"...Sorry. >>

"Ah...it's okay."

"And Fhun?"

"Fhun..."

How far can a child resist family pressure? I feel like everything that Time I persevered, I was patient, obedient, doing everything. Try and try harder.

But it's never enough.

Always never good enough.

"Stop bothering me!"

"Phoon..."

I saw a face full of worry, fear, and sadness. Fhun was crying, standing and looking at me from the front door of the house.

I, who had lost patience with everything, accidentally yelled at him.

Sheell to Fhun... this is the first

"No need to call me again. It's very disturbing. >>>>

"Phoon... don't leave, okay?"

"Drive the motorcycle quickly." I got on the motorcycle and turned around to tell my friend who was driving before the motorcycle drove off from the front of the house.

That's right...

My patience ran out.

Becoming a feeling of rejection.

During a childhood that endured everything, at some point, I couldn't survive any longer. In high school, I thought it was unfair. Why should I? Why do I have to go through all of this? Why? Didn't I do my best? Why was he never noticed? If you don't love me

No, why bring me into the world?

Everything is always for Fhun.

Okay... if that's the case, I don't need myself.

After thinking about it, Typhoon became a troubled child. Who is to blame? Because you want recognition, you want praise, you want attention, and when there isn't such a thing at home, but there is among friends, where else can you find more happiness?

Having Phoon is a lost child... lost far away.

"Phoon, are you not sleeping at home today?" The voice of one of the friends asked when we were in his condo, which we can call our hangout.

"Yes."

"Why? Arguing?"

"Yes, very annoying."

"Who was the person who was with you when I came to get you?"

"My brother."

"He's very... Do you have a boyfriend yet?"

"No, no. That one isn't allowed."

I answered by taking the glass of alcohol from the table, lifting it, and letting the taste trickle down my throat.

"Hey, give me some."

"This." The friend handed me a cigarette. I bit into it and lit a flame.

At first, I didn't like it, but After trying it several times, I started to become addicted because my friends use it.

How can't you suck it?

At least alcohol and cigarettes make me forget some of the pain.

"Good."

"How many days have you not slept at home, Phoon? You only live in my condo."

"Why? I can't sleep at home."

"Can't you go to school? So lazy." Another friend asked. We're a group that can be called bad, sometimes going to school, sometimes not, which I've never done before

But now, skipping school has become a habit.

Well... why bother trying to learn if, even if you try, you don't get any praise? But if you get a slightly lower score, you'll be immediately scolded.

It's better not to go to school at all.

"I'm not going," I said.

"Phoon, you'll fail, won't you?"

"Damn, you're so extreme. I don't want to go."

"Let him go."

I turned my head to see Fhun's phone ringing. I sighed impatiently before going out onto the balcony and answering it

"Phoon, where? Back home, okay."

<< I told you you didn't need to call anymore. >>>>

<< Can we talk nicely? >>>

"I don't want to talk. Nothing to say, is there? Stop bothering you. >>>

Then I logged off and smoked another cigarette to calm my mind.

"Phoon...."

Since when did I really start feeling... hatred for Fhun?

It's not Fhun's fault. In my heart, I knew it, but at that moment, I couldn't control myself properly because of my parents They only liked Fhun, paid attention to Fhun, and everything was fine with Fhun.

When comparisons arise, the feeling that this self is very low begins to appear.

And the only way not to feel worthless is to build a wall to protect oneself.

Fhun must be quite understanding of where all this comes from. Even when I was indifferent, my parents didn't care. When the teacher called the parents, no one came except Fhun, who came to ask to speak to the teacher. Fhun is a good student, behaves well, the favorite student of all the teachers in the school. Therefore, the teacher tried to ignore my mistakes, according to Fhun's request Fhun was the only one who called to call me home.

But it's not necessary anymore... this house isn't my place.

I spent almost a month living in this mess until I realized I didn't want to be involved in any of it.

Every time I came back home to change my clothes, Fhun begged me not to leave, but I wouldn't listen. I started yelling, saying harsh words that shouldn't have been said.

I don't know how hurt Fhun will feel...

And what made me angry was that at that moment, I didn't care about anything.

"Mouna, this man is watching your wife." A friend who was sitting in the drinks group with us said. Tonight, we're at a bar celebrating the birthday of one of the friends in the group.

"Where?"

<<< That person, who's wearing an orange t-shirt.>>>>

"Has he been watching for long?"

"As far as I can see, it's been a long time."

<<< Should we do something?>>

"Look, it looks like he's from that school too."

"Hey, do we have something to do?"

Then my group of friends stood up to get into trouble with enemies from other schools, which I didn't really like fighting. You might say I'm a coward, but I really hate violence.

"Phoon, do you want to join us?"

"Just go first."

"Are you scared?"

"Guys, go ahead." I replied, dodging. Some of the friends who didn't come were their boyfriends. I sat with some girls, watching my friends start looking for trouble. After that, they fought a little, as usual, nothing serious, at most they just hit each other lightly, but I didn't expect them to invite more people to make the restaurant chaotic

"Crazy!" A woman's voice screamed as a bottle of alcohol was thrown at her. Restaurant employees had to intervene to stop the commotion, and they were also hit. So much so that the manager had to ask the other customers to leave first for safety reasons.

"Hey, you want to run away, huh?"

"HUH?"

"Wait..." I was startled when suddenly my necklace was yanked, and a hard blow struck my face, making me stagger in another direction.

What is this?

"It's those friends, isn't it? You need to learn not to bother them."

Even though I didn't have time to bothering me...

"Damn it!" I gritted my teeth when I was hit again. It really hurts. That's why I don't like to fight. Before the employee came to arrest the person looking for trouble with me, I took the opportunity to run away.

So...

I immediately took out my phone to see who was calling, and it turned out Fhun was calling again.

I immediately hung up.

And Fhun called again. I was forced to pick him up.

"Phoon, you're at the bar, aren't you?"

"How do you know?"

"My friend said he saw you beaten. Is that true?"

"Not at all."

"I'll come."

"Now?"

"Yes, I'll come get you at home now. Are you trying to drive me crazy? No... listen, Phoon, don't argue. You can't go anywhere."

Wait there, I'll be there in ten minutes." Then Fhun immediately logged off without listening to me. I tried calling back, but there was no answer.

Is he crazy?

It's already night It's dangerous, and Fhun's tone seemed very agitated. He'll surely come soon.

Not allowed... It's even more dangerous at night like this.

I was so anxious I couldn't calm down, but I didn't dare call back because I thought he might be driving a car. Nearly thirty minutes passed until the situation at the restaurant calmed down, but Fhun still hadn't come.

I'm waiting in the same place.

But Fhun hasn't come.

I felt indescribable relief when I saw Fhun's number calling, but when the voice on the other end of the phone wasn't the tone I knew, and his words made my heart sink

"Excuse me, are you a relative of the deceased victim? We see this number as the last number on the phone. >>>

<< What? >>

"Because of you!" The high voice shouted loudly as the owner of the voice shoved me against the wall. Her small hand struck my face repeatedly until blood trickled from the corner of my mouth.

"Enough!"

"Bratch, you devil's child! You killed my daughter, my daughter died because of you!" >>>

I looked at the woman who looked angry and almost insane in front of me.

Mother...

"Sorry," I lowered my head and said softly, letting the tears flow even though blood was dripping from my mouth, but I didn't feel the pain. What happened to me didn't hurt at all.

Numbness completely covered me.

"Sorry."

Sorry...

Fan... I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

I'm sorry...

Sorry...

Fan's body was taken to the hospital for examination. According to reports, he was hit by a drunk driver's car, and the driver didn't realize he was Drunk. He was punished according to the law. After that, the body was brought back home and the funeral was held simply. Apart from the surrounding residents, no one knows.

My parents didn't want it to be a topic of conversation, but that their daughter secretly took the car alone at night to pick up the boy from the bar and was killed.

Even Phi Fah's family doesn't know, because they are very dear to their father. Dad doesn't tell Uncle, otherwise...

He certainly didn't dare meet them.

I sat in front of the coffin placed in the house, not wanting to go out to greet the guests outside. And I don't want to be looked at like that. Of course, I hate the words people say.

"If he doesn't behave like that, his older sister won't die."

"That's true. Father and mother didn't want to take care of him; only Torfhun was careful. If that's how it is, then what else do you want?"

"Nobody likes him, so only Torfhun is like that."

"Try to think about it. Who's very good for going to the bar at night like that? He said. That night, he left because he was worried; if only he didn't go, the child would always be fine."

"Torfhun is really strange. Why should you worry, Catalin Worried? If I were him, I wouldn't go out looking for him.

"Hmm, that's why he got hit by a car. If you stay home, it won't be like this. Too bad, he said he was a smart kid. Torfhun is his parents' future."

In the middle of the night, unable to sleep since the day Torfhun left. I just locked myself in Torfhun's room all night. The tears that flowed didn't know when they would stop, and no matter how many, it didn't make the sadness any less significant.

Stop...

I just realized what it means to lack the energy to get out of bed

It's Pho's voice...

My whole body was tired, there was no energy to move, but the tears kept flowing.

Hearing Pho and Mae's voices, it sounded like they were fighting downstairs. Because I didn't want them to fight, I tried to stop myself from going near.

"Enough! I'm tired of men like you!"

"Why? What's wrong with a man like me?"

"You're an asshole. Even after marriage, you can still get other people pregnant. How is that possible?!"

"We've discussed this. Why does it have to be brought up again?"

"Why? Why can't I speak? Afraid others will find out, isn't it? Afraid the residents will talk about it? Why?

You, Rit, who have a good name in society, are embarrassed if others know you're just a pervert?"

"Shut up! This isn't the time to discuss it!"

"Why? I have the right to speak, when that child killed my child!"

"I've raised him for over ten years, and that's enough. Every time I see him, it reminds me that he destroyed me."

"I didn't mean to do it. I didn't mean to get her pregnant."

"Then? She's already pregnant. And in the end, that child killed my daughter. >>>

"Torfhun is my daughter too!"

"Why does she have to be Torfhun? Why wasn't that child the only one who died?! Why should she be Torfhun? Huh?! Why Torfhun, my daughter? Huh... Torfhun, my daughter."

Mae started falling and crying on the floor, while Pho didn't know what to do.

Same for me.

Like this world was collapsing and breaking into pieces. Why not me...

"Phoon."

"..."

"Phoon."

"..."

"Hah, huh?"

"What are you thinking about?"

"Uh... no."

"Come on, eat first. It's already afternoon."

"That's bullshit." I immediately took a bite of rice. I raised my hand to wipe away the tears that had gathered around my eyes. I can't cry here...

"Hmm.... so?"

"Yes?"

"What I asked earlier, you still haven't answered."

"..."

"What about Torfhun?"

"Torfhun..."

<<... >>

<< Okay. >>>

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