We had a lot to talk..a lot..I shared everything..almost everything in my life that is going on..It was like u were my closest family..u said We can meet in future..u gave me the hope yet u disappeared for months..I don't even know where to look for you..and what to do..I even deleted ur number..oh man..everything seems fuxked up..Was our friendship too good that it could never even come to exist in a stable manner? Or am I being too impatient? am I pressuring you? U never even say out aloud of what u feel..u run away when someone attacks..I get that this is hard to tackle..life is hard to face..but still I am ur frnd..I would never be offended if u say I am pressuring you..or anything like that..I would prefer you cursing me..rather than leaving me..Ik that when a tree has less nutrition..we can cut out the weeds in the soil..but do u really cutting off the tree and making it grow again will help the tree be healthy as it was before?? can u guarantee and say the tree will grow? even if it grows..it takes 10 or more years to become the way it was..What ur doing is cutting things off..And trust me..it hurts whenever u leave..and U don't even tell me the reason for why ur leaving..Atleast I wouldn't be creating every possible scenario for why u left..if u told me why ur leaving..Like every single thought is killing me..worst part is..I can't even think of other ppl hurting you..I am always putting myself as the one hurting you in every fake scenario I create in my mind..how can I hurt someone who I love sm? Even if I did..I would throw my ego somewhere..and apologize..Trust me..sometimes I feel very lonely..so lonely Idk who to talk to..ur the only one whoz coming to my mind..but ur not here for me to seek..u left..and left me a cold winter..no Christmas with you..no new year with you..Now I am afraid I would miss your birthday..and We won't be able to celebrate such a great day together..more than anything in the world..I think ur bday is a very special day to me..I frexking miss every memory we made together..Every time I open the app..I see the new follower list..hoping to see any acc that resembles u..You are the only one who I got very close and comfortable with online..and I still trust that you will come back to read this..Ik I always express my pain to you..But I hope this won't be a burden for you..I just need your presence..Even a message a week is fine with me..Uk..All those times I used to log in mt..and make jokes with you..laugh about it..and talking freely about myself with you..Even tho u rarely speak about yourself..which u don't prefer much..so I js let it go..but still I have never seen someone who never judges or stereotypes a person for who they are..you are that person for me..I dedicate these song lines to you

"We all need that someone who gets you like no one"

Yours truly

Anna