Hello everyone.... I am Evelyn..... I am 10 years old

I am not sad ......but can't really feel anything. I came back to my hometown few days back.

And I get to know that wee are not returning where I used to stay ...

Hmm.....it feels lonely.

My best friend is there... I didn't even said goodbye to her.

(teary eyes) I am not sad but ....I miss her.

I have a sister ...her name is Elina. She is 2 years younger. She is- She is just.aaaaayy better than me.

She is beautiful .

she is always smiling.

she remembers things way faster than me .

she loves talking and every one likes her .

she is cutter and out going .

But I am just not good enough.

I feel bad whenever she is near me .

Always smiling and calling me didi didi.

I miss riya ...my bestfriend.

IT'S BEEN A MONTH ,

Here I am standing in front of my new school.

i don't want to get bullied again....riya was the one who became my friend on herself....but here ....don't know what is going to happen.

IN CLASS,

I entered, every one is looking and me .

(ignore their stare and just seat on an empty seat )

???: hello you are new right ? (smilling)

yes I am new .

and just like that every girl introduced themselves, I was shocked that every one is kind here ....

just like that , 3 months went by ,

And I was focusing on study only as there is no fun anywhere, I used to do all kind of trouble with riya back at my old school... those were my happiest moments in life

One day I submitted 5 months of work , to teachers as I was 2 months late to my new school.

There was a boy , named Ken, who praised about me to the teacher ,

that left a deep impression of him on me ...it was first time someone appreciated my hard work ...

i wanted to be his friend so bad .

There were few students who stand out

1)Ken: good and study and liked by all teachers

2)Ray: ken's best friend and also good and study and athletic and also liked by teachers

3) Evan: lil rebellious but also good with everything except his mouth

4)Renu : a girl mostly like me but is talkative.also the first to be my friend here.i like her quite a lot.

3)fauzia: my deskmate Good at study and compitative , don't engage in non scene talk .

Every thing was going well till now ....but never have I ever thought I would face a situation like this in my whole life ....

Yes both my parents and classmates are being verry good to me ... praising me and wanting me to be there friend also....my parents boosting, about me to others.

I loved this change still ....I don't know why it's not fulfilling ......something is missing....

yes , I am working extra hard to be liked ... studying, studying and studying....so why am I feeling like this