Note

this fanfic is just a "what if" kaori was alive, it's unofficial. Also, i don't own any your lie in April characters.

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Arima's POV

I waited for her... I waited...but she never came...through the whole piano performance...it felt like she is near me...listening me...cutting on me...but as soon as i opened my eyes when my fingers finally pulled away from the piano notes...that bubble cracked... She wasn't there... Why didn'tt she come...?

Watari burst in on the stage

Watari: Kousei!! She is getting operated!!

My world flipped in sync with my heart...operated? Wasn't She healthy? she said she will stay... she said she will STAY- I came back to reality when Watari shook me up. His tears falling on my cheeks.

Watari: Come back to your senses idiot!!

I grabbed his arm and stood up "which hospital?" I demanded

Watari(froze for a second) : down the ally.

And we both launched off the stage. I don't care if i was the winner at that moment...i don't care about the judges. I don't care about the audience. All i care about is her... she stood with me when no one else did... she filled colors in my colorless life... She pulled me out from the ocean of despair in which i was drowning since ages... She made me a pianist again...she made me...me.

We both burst through the hospital gates and straight to the reception.

Watari(breathless) : where it's Miyazono Kaori?

Receptionist(startled) : s-sir-

I burst out "MIYAZONO KAORI!!"

Even Watari froze at my tone because half of the class probably haven't heard my voice... but right now... I don't care who judges me or not... All i want to do is meet her... and make sure she is okay...

Receptionist(typing frantically): Room 20, floor 5!

We both broke into a Flee again...didn't wait for the elevator and climbed the stairs, taking two at a time. The rush of adrenaline is strong... My mind racing with how is much pain she would be in right now... Or how much she wwould'vebeen crying... I just want to hold her... I want her to laugh at me... with me... hit me again. Just stay with me.

We reached floor 5, Room 20. There they were...her parents, crying. Our chest rising, and falling rapidly. The doctor stepped out and my feet moved on its own, stopping just a few feet away from him "how is she?"

The doctor smiled while taking off his mask

doctor: the surgery was a success.

I exhaled a sharp breath i didn't know i was holding "can i see her?"

Doctor: she is still unconscious but i guess... You can.

I looked behind at her now crying happy tears parents. "you should go first…." i said in a soft voice.

They sobbed and said with a small smile

her mom: no, you should.. She was asking about you since morning... Even before some seconds from the surgery.

I understood and stepped in quietly…. my heart ached at the sight as i closed the door behind me….tubes and wires attached to her... chest rising and falling with slow, steady breaths.. Those shiny soft hair... Tucked neatly in a hospital cap...Those lively sparkling eyes closed and that flushed Clear skin... now pale but even despite all this she looked the most beautiful girl i have ever seen... Miyazono Kaori.

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Sayonara~

I slowly, quietly dragged a chair beside her bed and sat...gently took her hand in mine.

Damn...i can't control my tears anymore.

"kaori san...it's me... your idiot Arima kousei... please...please wake up and throw your violin at my face" my voice cracking.

Watari's eyes were teary, but he let out a broken chuckle at my words.

Watari: what was that?

I sobbed "you won't understand"

He let out another small huff.

Watari : guess i really wont...

I stroked her pulse point softly with my thumb. Her heart rate increased just a little...

Suddenly, her mom stepped in and sticked it a neatly folded piece of paper

Her mom: Arima-kun...kaori wrote this to you just before the surgery...

My eyes widen "she wrote something...for me?"

She nodded and smiled softly through tears

Her mom : she said your name through the surgery every now and then... And thought only about you before.

My breath hitched... Me...? She really thought about someone like me...?

I gently took that small piece of paper from her like It's something precious and fragile...

She stepped out again and watari patted my shoulder twice.

Watari: i'll wait out.

And with that... He stepped out too.

I unfolded the paper with trembling hands, There were visible tear marks on it. I sobbed again, she must've cried while writing this. Furthermore, I gulped down the feeling and started reading it.

Isn't it funny how the most unforgettable scenes can be so trivial and vice versa?

My heart ached "none of it was trivial"

So what's the verdict? Was i able to live inside someone's heart?

My lower lip quivered and i bit it softly "no question"

And this heart... wouldn't happen to be yours, would it?

My hands shook more "you barged in without knocking"

Do you think you'll remember me a little from time to time?

A low huff escaped my mouth... Shaky and broken "got no choice, you'd come back to haunt me"

No hitting the reset button

A lump formed in my throat "Not ever"

Don't you forget me. It's a promise okay? I am glad we found each other. Will i reach you…? I hope i can...

Here's the truth kousei,

I love you, i love you, i love you...

I am sorry that i never ate those Connoles and i beat you up so much... I was such a brat to you.

I am sorry for... everything.

And my tears with hers on the paper as i let out a loud cry... she thought she will probably die... my hands gripped the paper so tightly.

"i love you too kaori san...i really really love you"

I was crying like an idiot, my face buried in the paper, head held low...

When i heard a very soft...fragile voice "i am glad you do..."

I froze for half a second then jerked my head up

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There she was... looking at me, tears streaming down the corners of her eyes. Those eyes... those beautiful blue eyes...

"Kaori-san..." the words left my mouth like a breath...

she gave a small smile.

Kaori: did i happen to embarrass myself in the note-

Before she could finish, my feet moved on their own and i wrapped my arms around her shoulders and one on waist...forehead resting on hers...

"My world will fall apart without you..."

My tears now directly falling on her cheek bone.

She lifted her hand slowly and touched my side...her touch barely being felt.

Kaori: kousei-kun...i am glad, really...

She was smiling through tears and i couldn't help but give a small smile back.

Kaori's POV

My eyes started fluttering...the ceiling fan was blur...i frowned and blinked...there is a voice weeping...crying... Am i dead?

I blinked more... trying to move my head... my cousin cleared, body aching...tubes attached to every part of the body... trapped. I slightly turned my head... there he is.

Arima kousei, he was mumbling something...crying in a piece of paper-oh- it's the note i wrote...

My expression softened...and eyes teared up... He's so caught up in the moment, he doesn't know i am awake.

And then he said it... the words i wanted to hear from so long

Kousei: i love you too, Kaori san...i really... really love you.

My breath caught at his shaky voice... A small smile formed as a tear escaped the corner of my eye.

I didn't want to burst the warm bubble there. Being cared for...felt nice. But i couldn't control my happiness and said it "i am glad you do..."

And when he looked up with those big teary eyes at me...? I swear the lock of the cage where i pushed the butterflies living rent-free in my stomach...broke.

He instinctively took a step towards me and rested his forehead on mine.

My eyes widen, now i can feel his tears falling directly on my cheeks... Oh my, i love him so much

And then his arms came around my waist and shoulder... my body heated up at the contact and millions of butterflies fluttered. I wanna hold him back... but...but these tubes...

I somehow slowly lifted my hands to rest on his side and that's when it happened.

He leaned down...his lips resting on mine...ah...so soft. I closed my eyes and tightened my grip on his side... letting myself feel it... And then-

His tongue came out... Asking for permission to slide in... I gasped. My big eyes... Staring in his half lidded ones... looking at me like that... Unfair.

He took advantage of My gasp and slipped his tongue in... I let out another gasp and he deepened the kiss more...

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