10 Years ago, when i was in 3rd grade i had one friend who was like me but he was monitor of class is the only difference between us ,once he invited me to home i agreed and came on time but he wasn't at home , so i was just going back then suddenly a girl came out ,my heart started beating so fast ,then she just said that his brother is not at home he is at the stationery near his home, then i came home back because i don't want to wait for him at his house but when i came back i was just thinking about that girl who came out from the house, suddenly my friend came and asked "why didn't i came to his house" i was like i came but you weren't there, he said we can study now but i said i am not going to your home if we will study we need to study at my house after study i was just like why I'm feeling so unwell about that girl ,so i just tried to forget that thing and started living normally as everyone live but when the winter vacation started my friend came to my house for playing with his sister and brother ,i asked him who is she he said that she is my twin sister i got scared because she looks like she is his younger sister but she is the elder one, then again i started thinking about her when i see my heart beats to fast what's the problem with me so again i forget that ,next time when i was in 5th grade, when i saw her and thought about that again this time i got what is it, It is Love but i can't do anything because she is my friend's sister that is ,why i have to think that i can't love her because she is sister of my friend ,that friend who thinks that i am his Best friend and he believes me as a blind I can't love her sister ,then i thought i need to die if I cant get my love in this life i was in really anger so i tried a rat kill but it can't kill me i don't why but that didn't work so, i thought forget what happened earlier just live as you live forget that he is her brother get that girl by impressing her ,so i just forget that what happened ,i thought if she will fall in love with me my friend will agree to me for being his boyfriend i was very happy after my thought ,I've been just thinking about conversation i will make with her tomorrow but ,i don't know if his brother will be at home or not i just wish that if he wouldn't be at home i will make her feel happy and she will in love with me probably.

Today, is the day i will go at my friend's home i wish he wouldn't be at home, because i wanna her sister to fall in love with me ,My Brain : Why You need to do this and My Heart : Just do it make her fall in love with you and there is Me me who is thinking How can i make her fall in love with me I thought forget everything let's head to her home I've arrived but this is first time I'm going to do this type of thing like going at someone's house to make that girl fall in love with me that is really weird but still i will try it is my goal i will make her fall in love with me so i am good at maths i will help her in that subject I've just called my friend and I've started feeling nervous i need to do something so i said 'i have some problem in maths can you help me' in My mind i was like 'shit what did I've just said' i was thinking he will make fun of me because i am best at math he will say that why are you kidding last time you helped me in math but then i showed like i really can't solve that then he wouldn't say that and really that happened he doesn't remember that i was top in math thanks to god because he doesn't remember that i was top in math sure he was thinking that he is monitor so he need to help me but he didn't know i am just trying to distract his sister's mind from t.v. and i said her don't you want to complete your maths homework she said she is not good at maths so always my brother do it (I was like 'whaaat' i came here because i wanna be to close to you not to your brother) in my mind (I am not a gay) in my mind ,me to her so you can come here and study with us we are doing our math homework and i can you and your brother His brother to me "you said you have some problem in math" I said" i didn't said i have problem in chapter i said in question i am having some problem" aren't you going to help me in this question you are monitor of class you should help and he can't say no to me because i am his best friend and his sister came to me because she wants to complete her homework and she can't do it herself she need help to complete that homework and i thought this would be okay to make her fall in love with me but i was wrong she didn't fall in love with me for helping her to complete her homework.

Today i am not gonna do time pass i will go to her home and if she will come out i will propose her i know i had not done anything but there is chances that she will say yes but if her brother will come i will just say i have just came to do some time pass, So, i am arrived at his home but i just forgot that i had not set up my hairstyle, i was expressionless because i was roaming out without setting up my hair i have to go back home for setting my hairstyle just because i was going to meet her i changed my foolish hairstyle into a cool hairstyle like other rappers have, so i have reached her home.

So, i called my friend but he was still not at home i thought this is the chance for me to make her fall in love with me by doing these things like paying badminton i asked her do you like badminton, she replied i don't know how to play badminton, i thought "very good that's what I want" i said i can teach you how to play badminton.

Now, after i started playing with her i saw that she is really good in playing badminton, I thought i will teach she will like me and then dhe will fall in love with me but my an ruined because she is too good at badminton.

What should i do she is good at badminton now, i need to find another way to make her feel comfortable with me or make her laugh so, she would definitely fall in love with me.

So, i just goes to her and asked for doing me a favor, she said yeah she will give me a favor because i am her good friend so, i have just asked that i need to go sweet shop will you come with me just for giving me company, she said ok but you need to do me a favor when i need, i said yes how can i say no to her she is the one like and i won't marry another girl than her.

I have came to sweet shop for buying some milk cake, because today is my mom's birthday so, she really like milk cake so i have came to buy this, she asked me that so i told her my mom like this and today is her birthday so I am buying milk cake from my pocket money because i wanna surprise her.

Hey, do you know my date of birth it is 29/August/2003 also next month is my birthday, can you tell what is your date of birth she said i am twin sister of my brother so, my date of birth is same as my brother so, if you know my brother's date of birth mine is too on that day.

She said now do me a favor i wanna go out somewhere like out of city for trip you should set plan and we will go on that day, in my mind i was thinking only she and me how romantic but, my plan is ruined when she said all our friends will go there okay.

I thought forget it when i am going with her i have no problem, But his brother when i asked him for going out he said, yeah i will go but my sister is not going with us, i said she really wanna go out, He still said no. So, i had made a plan with her sister that i will make an excuse on tha day of trip then i will come to your house then you and me would go together but in the city not out of city.

She said "no problem i would like to hangout with my best friend" , i asked her who is her best friend she replied "you", i was shocked at that time because now, i am best friend of her brother and also of her, i said her "do you know you are my best friend not your brother you are my best friend", she replied "i likes you" ,i thought i heard it wrong but she really said that she likes me.

Now, she likes me and i also like her you can say "i am her boyfriend and she is my girlfriend" that is just my imagination, she likes me as a friend, what i thought that she will fall in love with me but it looks like she started liking me but as friend, forget it love is the thing you can't force someone to do it.

As everyone know i always hangout with her some people started saying that we are girl friend boy friend but as you know we are just friends, so after a week her brother said me stop hanging out with my sister everyone making rumors that you are his boy friend i said your sister is not worrying about it then why are you worrying about it you should control yourself

After time flies today is my birthday i invited her and his brother and my some friends, but no one came to my birthday i was sad i had gained depression just because no one likes me, no one wants to talk with me and why does i get birth if no one wants me i thought i need to die so had cut my nerves but nothing happened but that makes me feel happy after doing that, i locked myself in bathroom and cried a lot i cried too much in bathtub of water and blood, water and my blood that made me feel happy so much i also burned my some clothes and felt like I will be alone for whole life for some days i did not go to her because she made me cry I was still in depression and anxiety i forgot that she is the one i liked but i thought nothing can happen now i need to forget her.