Like what we always do, me and my girlfriend celebrate our anniversary in the church where we plan to be married at. It's already our fifth anniversary of course still counting.

I remember the time when I first meet her. She was the sweetest girl I ever meet. She have this cute smile, innocent eyes, and beautiful face. She was standing right at the sakura tree while the flowers are blooming. My heart beats fast that day, and I'm sure. I'm already fallen.

"Happy fifth anniversary my love!" she greeted with joy and excitement. I smile at her. This is like a dream.

She's my dream girl. I never thought she would fall for me too. I never imagine that we will end up together like this. I always looking at her afar. Thinking how hard to reach the girl like her.

"Happy anniversary, love." I said before kissing her softly. After we greet each other. We pray and wish in God. I wish I could grow old with her.

"I love you," she whisper at me. I hug her and kiss her forehead.

"I love you too"

Days passes nothing change at us. We still have time together even though we become busier each day because of our work. She's an engineer while I'm working at the company.

I sigh when I saw her still doing her job at 3 o'clock not having a sleep. I enter our study room and sitted next to her and hug her tight.

"Love, let's sleep. You're not having enough sleep this days. I don't what you to be sick." I said and put my chin on her shoulder while looking what she is doing.

"I'll just finish this." she said, tiredly. I waited for her. I hug her tight and kiss her neck. I don't want to sleep alone.

"Love, you look tired." I welcome her with a hug while she enter our apartment. She hug me too and took off her hard hat and put the blueprint on the table.

"I cook, let's eat."

"Later, I have still work to do" she said and smile at me. She kiss my cheek and enter the study room. I sigh before heading at the kitchen.

She's not taking care of his body now because of too much work.

I woke up early because I need to go at work. I was about to enter the bathroom when I notice that the food I prepare for her is still there not touch at all. I look at the study room, the lights are still on. She didn't sleep?

"Love?" I open the door of the study room.

"Oh. You're not still asleep. I'm done let's sleep." she said and smile at me. I sigh. I smile at her sadly before hugging her.

Instead of saying that it's already morning. I answered,

"Yes, let's sleep now." I kiss her forehead. The two of us lay down while hugging each other. I caressed her hair while staring at the wall.

"Love?" she didn't answer.

"Take a rest." I whisper before kissing her.

"Let's have a date!" she excitedly said.

"Okay!"

We spend our time at the park. Play, eat and have fun not thinking of our tiresome works. We spend our time like little children.

"Oh! The ice cream is melting." I lick her hand with ice cream.

We are now sitting at the bench. I'm sleeping at her lap while she is playing at my hair.

"I love you," I said.

She smile at me.

"I love you so much. I can't wait to marry you! And have kids!" she said and laugh. I chuckle. I can't wait too my love.

We are too happy. Yet, this day come.

"The patient have stage 4 cancer" my heart broke after hearing what the doctor said. I close my eyes and shook my head. No, this is not real. This maybe a mistake.

"D-doc.. Have another test again." I said, trembling. The doctor shook his head like disappointment and sadly look at me.

No. No. No. I step backwards making me stumble and fall. I didn't feel the pain at all. I can't take this. I can't lose her. Tear already fall from my eyes.

" Love," she cried and hug me.

"Love, don't cry. Please. We will fight" she said. I hug her tight. Please fight for me love. Please don't leave me. I love you. I can't lose you.

"Hmmm. My hair is falling." I stop fixing the food and look at her. She's combing her hair. I walk towards her and sitted at her bed.

"Eh? You still beautiful with out a wig." I said and giggle. She pouted.

"I have an idea. Let's have a haircut!" she said.

We cutted are hair until there's few hair left. I cutted her hair and he cutted mine. We have fun just doing that. We have like kids and not thinking about her illness.

Days pass. Her illness is getting worse. She become weaker and weaker. Day by day I become scared. She's fighting I know. But I don't want her to suffer. It's hard for me to watch her cry because of the treatment, I can't watch her hurting, I can't.

"The stars are beautiful" she said weakly. She's hugging me while sitting at the wheelchair. I stop the tears falling from my eyes and nodded at her.

"L-love.. I-I'm ti—"

"I can't wait to marry you." I kneel at her. I cup her face and smile at her. I know, love. I know you are tired. I'm not ready to let go of you yet. Please, just give me more time.

"Love.." water is already forming in her eyes. I smile at her. Kiss her forehead. Don't go yet.

"Look how many building I build!" she said proudly while hugging me. I chuckle. I nodded.

"You're building our house right?" I asked.

"Of course! I'm building our big house." she said. I smile while nodding. The atmosphere is so sad. She's crying while I'm stopping my tears to fall.

"I will build the house of our kids to.. And.." she stop because her voice cracked. I hug her tight and and bite my lips stopping the tears but I failed. Tears are now falling from eyes like waterfalls.

"And.. I will building the house of our grandchildren." she breath deeply.

"Love" she cried and buried her face in my chest crying so loud. I cried too while hugging her.

"I.. Love you. I love you. I want to grow old with you. I'm scared. Love I'm scared." she cried.

"I.. Know.. I know.. I love you too." my voice cracked.

"I'm tired love. I'm tired." she said. It hurt me a lot. Hearing that she's tired. My heart is aching so much I can't breath.

"Let's have rest then my love." I said and smile at her. I cup her face. I kiss her and kiss his forehead.

"Hmm.. Let's rest.." I said and smile. Don't cry! Don't cry. She smile at me sadly and nodded.

She lean on my chest.

"I love you." she whisper.

"I love you too."

"G-goodnight"

Her hand slowly fall from my chest. I close my eyes and cry silently. I play with hair. I can't take this. I hug her tight and cried so loud.

"Goodnight love. Take a rest. You did a good fight.." I whisper.

"That's my latest memories with her" I said as I look at the young girl hearing my story. She stared at me without saying any words. She blink twice. Her lips parted.

I smile at her and slightly tap her head. I got shock when she suddenly hug me so tight. I feel her shoulder move, means she's crying. I smile.

"She's the one who thought me to fight" I said while remembering how my love fight for me. How she smile after of her hurtful treatment.

"That was so sad Doc. How can you still smile?" she asked. I look and smile.

"Because she's still with me." I said. She lifted her head and look at me confusedly.

"Huh?"

"She's here" I pointed my heart. "She's here always." I said and smile. Her eyes twinkled amazed of what I just said.

"I can't believe you Doc." she said. I chuckle and patted her head.

"Eat your medicine okay? Follow what I'm saying! I'm your doctor." I said with authority. She pouted.

"Yes. Doc! I will be brave like you!" she said that makes me smile.

I walk outside the room. The smile I'm wearing a while ago fade and tears fall from my eyes. It's been years when she's gone. I can still remember how she said good night.

I cover my face with my hands as I cry.

I still remember..

The day she said goodnight

Did you also love someone?

If you love someone, you must do something for them to fell it. Not just always promises and talks. Like they say, action is better that words.

I salute this character for his unending love and for being strong.

What is your thought about this story?

It all started when my best friend recommended me a book. It was so awesome that I almost didn't sleep at night just to finished it.

I become addicted to novel. I feel so relax reading it. And when I stop reading I felt like there's something missing at me.

"You're reading again?" my best friend asked while sitting in front of me. I didn't bother to look at her because I'm busy reading.

"Yah. So don't disturb me." I said. I heard her sigh.

"Come on, Celine! Go out, have fun even just one time! You always face your books! Your growing Celine! Find boyfriend. You fictional characters won't love you back!" she said at me. I didn't listen to her.

My heart pounded when I read the story about him. A guy who sacrifice everything just for his lover.

I don't know what is this feeling. I suddenly feel strange. From then, I always read the story about him many times. I check every social media just to see him.

I didn't know.

I already fall for him.

"What? Your dream boy again?" lunch break but instead of eating I'm searching about him. Maybe the story have part two? Ugh! I wish so!

I already seen the comics and I really love. My feeling for him grow and grow.

"Celine, I think it's not normal." my best friend said. I stop smiling and look at her. What does she mean?

"It's not normal falling for a fictional characters Celine" she said. I shook my head. It's normal! What's wrong with it?

"I love him!" I said and walk away. She's my best friend but she's not supporting me!

I almost fainted when they already release the anime adaption of the story. I felt so exited. My stomach felt upside down and my heart is beating so fast.

I spend all my money/allowance to buy stuff related to him. I buy a pillow with picture of him. All my stickers is him. All my things is him. This is how I love him.

I also felt jealous when some girls talk about him and fantasies him. He's mine! Only mine!

"Celine. Look at your self. I think this is obsession. I-I know a psychiatrist" my best said one time she visited my house.

"What psychiatrist? I'm not crazy?" I said.

I dream about him last night. He love me too. He hold my hands. He hug me! He kiss me! He even call my name! He love! He love! I know!

"C-Celine.."

I didn't focus in my studies. I become more addicted to novels and fell inlove on fictional characters. I always buy accessories about them. I begun cutting classes so that I don't miss the anime adaption.

Until the day come. I stop going to school and isolated my self inside my room. I never feel the sun again. There are lot of comics, books and cds scatter at my floor. I sleep at the morning and skip my breakfast.

"Celine! Get out there! Open your door!" I didn't listen to my mother. Why? To stop me from watching my love? To stope from seeing my love?

"Celine. This isn't normal anymore. What happen to you." my mother cried.

"Mom! What are you saying!"

"Celine. Let's go to the doctor. Please."

"Mom! I'm okay! I'm not sick!" she cried. I don't why. Am I sick? Why are they all saying that I am!

I'm just inlove!

I woke up, tied. My eyes widened and look everywhere. Where am I? What happen to me? Why I am tied? Help!

"Mom! Mom! Dad! Help!" I shouted. The door open, but instead of seeing my mother a lady come in wearing a white lab gown and holding a paper.

"Good evening Ms. Celine. How are you feeling today?" she jolly asked.

"Who are you?" I asked still moving my hands and feet that is tied.

"I'm doctor Eliza. Your psychiatrist." she said and smile widely at me. I shook my head.

"No! I said I'm not sick!" I shouted. Who brought me here! I said I'm not sick! I'm not sick!

Day pass, the doctor always come and talk to me. She will feed me even though I spit the food. She's patient with me.

"Fictional characters are just in books Celine. They are not true." she said.

"I can still love them!"

"That's not love Celine. That's not love!"

"What do you know! I love them! I love them very much!"

I don't know what changes done in me. Time passes. I become more aggressive because I'm not seeing my boys. I'm not seeing my lovers.

I need to see them. I miss them! Let me out here! Let me out!

"Your mother is here." I didn't look at them. My mother traitor me. How can she send me here. I'm not sick!

"Celine.." she cried.

"Celine. Please wake up from your fantasies. Come back Celine. Please.. I can't see you like this. It's killing me." she cried. I didn't listen to her. She's a traitor! How can she! I hate her! I hate them all!

My mother didn't visit me again after that. I felt alone and lonely. Maybe she's now tired of me that's why she didn't visit.

Being a jail in this place is so frustrating. I'm just like an bird that has no feather. I'm losing my mind here! I need to get out!

"Did you miss your mom?" the doctor asked. I look at the other side.

"Y-yeah" I said not looking at her. She sigh.

"Night after she came here seeing you like that, she worked hard too earn money for your fast treatment. She want to see her daughter back again."

"What are you saying?"

She didn't answer me instead continue telling the story.

"She didn't sell your books because she know how much you love them. The company she's working in got bankrupt and almost all of the worker got fired, your mother is the one."

I don't know why tears slowly fall from my eyes.

"She got depressed. Thinking how she will earn money for your treatment. She also blame her self why you become like that. If she just take care of you and give you time more maybe you will not end up here."

M-mom.

"Last night. They found her laying on the floor.."

I look at her. Her eyes become sad and look away. My hear began beating faster and I can feel my hand shaking. No.. Please.. No.. Say that my mother is okay. Say it. Please.

"Dead"

My world shake and fall after hearing that word. I stared at the wall. No. Why?

"AHHHHHHHH!" I shouted. I shouted my pain. I shouted everything I feel. This is my fault. My mother died. No! No! This is not true! This is just a dream. Yes! This is just a dream.

I wipe the tears falling from my eyes after remembering those days. I put the flower beside my mother's tombstone.

"Hello.. Mom.. Today is your death anniversary. I'm sorry mom. I'm so sorry." I cried. I feel on my knees and cried.

I become obsessed of fictional characters that I become blind. I didn't see the people who care for me me. My best friend and also my mom.

"Yes. I'm stupid. I know that you can't fall for a fictional characters. They are just in the book. You can't hold them. Touch them. Kiss them. Hug them. You can't call thier name, because even thought how many time you will call them they will not turn thier back to face you."

"They are just fictional characters"

Did you also fell for a fictianal character?

For me? Yah. I'm inlove with a fictional characters. It's so sad because they are just fictional.

Well, how do you find the story?