...TW:Self harm, lgbtq, violence, curse words...

...note:(No complex words):Sorry if my grammar isn't good or if there are any typos, english isn't my first language...

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*Beep beep beep beep* the sound of my alarm echoed in my room as I slightly opened my eyes to see the sunny weather

I reached out for my phone to turn off my alarm as I slowly got up

"Fuck it's already 1PM?.. Geez" I said as I brushed my hand through my messy hair

"Woman I told you it's not that serious about who I was with yesterday! Goddamit could you just stop?" A sound of breaking glass echoed in the living room I could hear their voices arguing with each other..

Well no shit sherlock do I look like I give a fuck about them arguing after I just woke up

a sound of a door slamming hard finally caught my attention as I slightly opened my bedroom door to peek

"Father where is mom going? yawn..." I asked, dad looked around then at me

Dad sighed "You.. You kid... youre gonna have a step mother if you want to stay with me instead of your broke mother.. I just kick your mom out of the house? dont complain if you want to stay got it?" dad said in a cold tone

I slammed the door in front of him and went back in my room leaning against the door while covering my mouth

A step mom?... I know they argue everyday but I didn't think it will get this far.. well, I have no choice but to accept in anyways.

I sighed then glanced at the photo laying on my drawer beside my door

Rei?... I miss you

Where were you when I needed you?

I barely remember your face now

I want to get out of here...

Flashback from 8 years ago

"Yui... " rei said flatly while looking down

"Yes?" I asked with a warm smile

She glanced at me "Can you live without me?"

she asked her tone cold

"Well..." I hesitated "ofcourse I can I know I might be dependent on you but-" I said as my voice slightly trembled as I nervously rubbed the back of my head with my hand while avoiding eye contact

"Yui.. look at me why are you looking away?" she said with her casual flat tone

I glanced at her "well... I'm not really sure but I guess I can"

my heart skipped as she pulled me in for a tight hug as if she didn't wanna let go of me

I felt warmth

"Yui.. Me and my family are gonna move out of here... Don't forget about me okay? Find someone else to comfort you

I pulled away and the urge to slap her was strong as tears began to fall from my eyes " you said you'll never leave me! I don't have anyone but you.." my voice trembled as I yelled I felt my hands moving on it's own wrapping onto her neck as my hands squeezed her throat

she struggled to breathe then I noticed-

I quickly pulled my hands away from her throat

"N-no sorry... I didn't mean to do that I- I was just too attached that I didn't want you to leave.. I-I was just afraid you'll find someone else but me!"

"Yui.. " she said her tone cold as her expression darkened "I said Im sorry" she slapped me on the face

"I'm sorry" she said again as she walked off

I cried for 2 weeks every night as my parents were arguing

"Youre a man can't you see our daughter has been skipping meals and crying? Do something you shit" my mom yelled

"That bitch is not even my child why should I take responsibilities of that little fucker if I know you went around to sleep with some man" dad yelled back

I could hear their voices even if i was in my room.. the walls were-

too thin...

Rei I really need you right now I can't stop thinking about you... think im gonna-

I said in my mind while sobbing uncontrollably

Months have passed one night came and the bad thoughts in my mind kept getting stronger while my mental problems became worse

I'm sorry rei.. maybe you were right, I can't live without you youre the only one I need. I'm losing my shit already... I wish you could kiss my scars once again.

I said while standing on top of a chair with a rope tied up onto the ceiling infront of me as I slowly put the rope around my neck, closed my eyes and kicked the chair leaving my body hanging as the rope pressed harder onto my skin

I struggled to breathe as I started to lose consciousness, the room smelled like dust and blood

then a nonexisting vision appeared

"Yui"

"Yui"

I heard my name being called out as if we were kids again

"Yui are you there?" That voice..

"R-rei?" my voice trembled as I heard yours, tears started falling from my eyes as my hand reached out to hold your cheek then

shit, snap out of it Yui Aizawa, wake up! wake up!

I opened my eyes and grabbed the rope hard trying to break free

"gah-"

I struggled breaking free while trying to catch my breath

the rope snapped

I fell down onto the floor while desperately gasping for air

I touched my neck

"shit it hurts" I stood up and went to look at the mirror

my neck was red

I caught a glance of my chair then grabbed it

"FUCK!" I threw the chair onto the wall as it broke, then fell down on my knees sobbing uncontrollably again until at the point it was already morning

At school

"How do you like that? huh" I said with mockery as I gripped the girl with blonde silver, soft reflective, himecut with pink soft, faded, dull, gentle eyes hair tighter, her face and hair wet as I dragged her head by her hair onto the sink again

I pulled her head away from the sink

"do you know what you've gotten your self into? What's your name again?" I scoffed my tone filled with mockery

"too bad it's not worth knowing, I rather call you what I want to" I kicked the back of her knee cap, she dropped but didn't scream

She didn't react the way she would

I frowned in dissatisfaction

Tsk

My grip loosened as I let go then sat down on a chair, legs spread, arms crossed as I grabbed a cigarette and a lighter from my right pocket

"Go fetch me another pack" I said in a cold tone

her face was wet as her face was covered with her hair as the front of her body leaned against the sink while both of her hands gripping onto the side

She giggled as she got her balance back and stood up, hair still covering her face while slowly walking towards me

"Step sis" her expression darkened while a pang of satisfaction and gentleness appeared on her face

"Do you really not remember me yui?…" her tone weirdly teasing and unsettling but also gentle as the air inside the room slowly became thick as she walked closer towards me

My body twitched as the slight nervousness crept in

and what does she mean by step sis?

She glared deep into my eyes as she stopped

"Step sis…." she hesitated "did.. you... miss me.. Yui.. Aizawa?" she said her voice deep and unsettling as she glared deeply into my eyes then turned around and walked off

"what a weirdo.." I whispered under my breath as I thought of something

What does she exactly mean by step sis? I never met her before... I said in my thoughts as I lit up a cigarette

After school I walked back home since my dad went to pick up my new step sibling

as I was walking I drowned into my thoughts

could it be she?.. no way I said in my thoughts as I walked after while running my hand through my hair

Impossible...

I opened the door "Dad are you back home?" I shouted waiting for a response as I took off my shoes and put it beside the door

Geez I guess they're not home yet...

I went to my room and threw my bag on the floor while I threw my body flat against the bed

I slightly closed my eyes and accidentally fell alseep

A few minutes passed by

7:40Pm

I woke up with the sound of people talking in the living room

I slowly got up and went out of my room still half asleep

My dad was sitting at the dining room talking with a girl that looked like she was the same age as me

wait...

she looks...

I stared deeply from far away onto her appearance eyes still sleepy

shit I can't see very clearly.

Dad noticed me and greeted me with a warm smile

"Yui come sit here next to us" he said with a warm smile while gesturing for me to sit next with them

"This is your new step sibling, Rei Aizawa"

R-rei Aizawa?....

The name eoched through my head as my expression was filled with shock and disbelief

But wasn't she the girl I've been bullying for the past 2 weeks?.. Now you're telling me she's rei and is now my step Impossibleossible shit that could never happen... EVER!

Thoughts ran in my mind as I was trying hard to process things out

N-no way there's alot of people named rei... That could never be the rei I met a few years ago and left....

or could be?

SHIT

I snapped out of my thoughts as I heard dad say

"Yui hurry up and come sit with us you've been standing there for awhile now..." dads tone grew impatient

"on my way-" i said trying to make my tone flat as a slight tremble escaped through my tone as I walked to the dining room and sat with them uncomfortably

"Well Yui.. This is Rei Aizawa I heard that you guys met before years ago and were very close to each other. please treat her with love, care and respect since me and your step mother are not going to be at home for a while.. I'm pretty sure you could take care of her right?.. although she might look like she's the same age as you she's actually younger... I'm hoping that you could take some responsibilities since you're an older sister now... " Dad said

I snapped and got up as I slammed both of my hands onto the table my expression darkening

His words shot me like a bullet

what does he mean me and that girl met before?

this can't be it...

 "I-i think I'm gonna skip dinner for today" I tried to do a fake smile as I walked off pissed

"Yui! I forgot to tell you rei is gonna sleep with you since she doesn't have her room yet" dad yelled but I was already slamming the door behind me

Dad sighed in dissapointed "that kid.." as he looked to rei again "I'm sorry about that rei... You should go talk to her to see if shes okay and unpack your belongings since you guys are sharing the room"

Rei nodded

"I understand Mr. Aizawa, Ill go talk to her for you" She said in a gentle and polite tone.

I slammed the door shut and sat on my bed snatching the photo away from the drawer gripping it tightly

N-no this can't be it... How is she soo calm about it even if she knew.. S-SHIT SHE CREEPS ME OUT-

I lay down on my bed and covered myself with a blanket to sleep as I was holding the picture in my hand

A few minutes pass by rei entered with her belongings

she walked toward me sleeping

"You sleep soo cute just like before yui..." she whispered as a smile escaped from her lips, face blushing with satisfaction as her eyes caught on to the photo that was in my hand

She still has this? she leaned closer as she brushed her fingers through my cheek

Soo soft.. she said in her thoughts while observing closely

Her smile widenend "Yui.. I love you" she whispered softly while stopping at every sentence

-In the morning the sun arrived

I woke up hearing the sound of people talking from the outside, I got up while rubbing my eyes as I slightly opened my bedroom door to peek outside

My eyes locked onto rei

Sh-shit it's her again?

Then dad noticed as he stopped packing to look at me

Then warmly said

"Oh Yui youre awake, let me tell you something.

Your step mother and I have decided to let rei stay in our house since me and her are going somewhere for a business trip" dad said

I froze in disbelief while gripping onto the end of the door

"U-uhh... well-"

"Dad how long are you and step mom gonna stay In there?" I asked in a panic as nervousness crept into my body

Both rei and dad chuckled then dad answered calmly

"For about 3 weeks." he looked away from my eyes as he looked back onto his packed luggage again, closing the zipper

*zip*

"Well.." he hesitated then said with a smile "well then I guess ive already answered all of your questions" he looked at his watch on his wrist "I'm off now and also don't forget to eat breakfast and take care of your younger step sister okay?" he said as he headed towards the door dragging his luggage with him

"D-dad wait-" Before I could continue the door shut closed behind him

I was left standing awkwardly with my step sister on the kitchen her eyes still staring onto mine like in deep observation as the air grew thicker around us

"Sister" she said with a mischievous smirk on her face as I noticed her staring onto me soo deep

My blood boiled with anger as I lunged myself onto her gripping her collar tightly with my fists

"Y-You" I grumbled as I glared onto her eyes my expression darkened

Rei was calm.. Too calm it pissed me off and gave me an unsettling feeling I can't shake off as if it was stuck deep inside my soul

A feeling I didn't get for the past 8 years after she left

It felt too familiar but It still pissed me off on how I felt like that, I didn't want to feel like this, I never did, I will always refuse to think that you are rei. Cause I didn't even believe who I was after she left how could I possibly believe that you are that person who made me feel like my life depends on them...

Inner thoughts began to fill my mind

I hate you.

I hate myself.

I hate my thoughts.

I hate how you make me feel.

"No! No! YOURE NOT ACTUALLY REI! YOU FUCKING BITCH-" I roared at her as I freed my right hand from her collar and slapped her hard onto the face as my right hand holding her collar tightened even more

Rei's left cheek was red after the slap but that mischievous smirk only grew wider as if it had satisfied her even more...

Tears started to form in my eyes

She turned back to look at me

"Sister..." she spoke calmly as she hesitated for a second "Do you really not remember anything?" she asked softly then giggled

"Not even when your life was dependent on me?" her expression was dark but also filled with satisfaction as if she was enjoying the situation she was in

My grip on her collar started to loosen up a bit as I looked down to cover my face when tears started falling from my eyes

*Sob sob*

"Yui.." she called out my name quietly and softly as she put her hand onto my cheek "you still look cute even if you cry" she gently said as tilted her head

"I- I hate you." I whispered

"I love you.." she whispered back at me softly then asked "Do I really creep you out that much?" as her mischievous smirk turned into a soft smile

Then suddenly-