Taehyun was sitting on the window frame , his knees pressed against his chest as he was hugging himself.. He leaned his head on his knees looking outside through the closed glass window ~ The tip tip sounds of the rain slamming against the closed window was getting faster and harsher... Water droplets falling against the window in straight lines before cracking into many lines from the roots ~

His eyes were fixed on the dark sky , covered with the haunting cloud.. He was flinching slightly from time to time hearing the loud thunderstorm hitting against something invisible... The clouds breaking into pieces with the lightening working on the clouds...

Taehyun tilted his head and sat more comfortably while leaning against the window frame as he saw his husband tugged under the blanket , hugging the blanket , warped in warmth and sleeping peacefully... Jungkook took sleeping pill before sleeping or else he wouldn't be sleeping so peacefully after such a hectic tiring day ~

Taehyun placed his feet on the floor before getting up from the window frame , the night robe sliding slightly from his right shoulder revealing that smooth honey skin ~ Taehyun walked towards the drawer that was beside the bed and kneeled on the floor before opening the last drawer box.. He carefully moved the diaries that was kept on the box before holding a diary as he pulled it out from the box..

He let out a smile , a nasty scheming smile before his lips curved in a smirk as he stood up holding the diary in his hand...

Taehyun mumbled under his breath as he walked towards the couch , sitting on the couch while leaning against the headrest lazily ~ Taehyun flipped the pages of the diary and stopped moving his fingers as he stumbled into someone's number... Taehyun smirked as he took his phone in his hand from the coffee table before tapping the numbers on his screen... Taehyun dialed into that number and the work unknown flashed on his screen... He has never ever thought of looking back to his past and reach to the owner of this number... It's been how long again ? 10 years...

He got married to his lover , birthed four kids ~ 1st time a son and a set of triplets on his 2nd pregnancy , two daughters and a son.. So many things happened in his life but he never thought of calling into that number.. Never.. But finally that person can come to his use after so many years ~

A sharp hoarse breath escaped Taehyun as he heard the voice coming from the other side of the phone...

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On the other side... Taehyung was laying on the floor with just a sheet between him and the floor to protect him from the freezing cold.. He was holding and hugging another old tearing bedsheet around himself trying to protect himself and keep himself warm from the spine shivering coldness... It was a old messy bird nest type of apartment... There was nothing in there other than a broken heater , a somehow fine fan for summer , some utensils and a empty plastic box of ramen that he ate for dinner ~

One small kitchen that had nothing in there and a bathroom attached to the room... Taehyung was living the worst of a life while his brother was enjoying a pretty good life.. 100× better than him at least ~

But if it wasn't for Taehyung than Taehyun would not be living such a happy life where his every need is fulfilled by himself or by his own self ~ The scholarship that was for Taehyung , for what Taehyung worked so hard was stolen by Taehyun.. Taehyun did not only steal the academical papers but he stole Taehyung's whole life , He stole the identity in way that Taehyung became Taehyun and Taehyun became Taehyung... Life was unfair for sure for Taehyung at least...

Taehyung was silent... It already has been 10 years... What should Taehyung say now ? He has nothing to say.. The life has drained him in a way , left him in such a road that he even forgot the word of so many things... Forgot the definition , forgot the meaning... He is just surviving... Just surviving...

Life was always meant to be hard for them as they were burned into a poor family , every generation suffering cause of poverty but Taehyun had the ambition to come out from this suffocating slow death but not the talent on the necessary field... Study was the only way by what they could escape but Taehyun really had no talent or interest in anything other than fashion ~

And so when the school mistook him for Taehyung and handed over the papers of scholarship Taehyun did not look back for a single day.. Borrowing thousands of USD dollars from the loan shark and debt collector and hold Taehyung as the nominee...

And really Taehyung was too naive back then , he keep waiting and waiting for Taehyun's return back then without taking any legal action against Taehyun.. He thought if Taehyun stables his career once he will come back for him and their parents but alas...

Taehyung's dad got involved in gambling again , taking hundreds of dollars , so many debt... His mother got sick , diagnosed with stage three cancer.. Taehyung tried everything seeing the strong mentality and ambition of his mother who wanted to live.. That woman did not want to die so how cold Taehyung just abandoned her.. ? He was not Taehyun after all..

And so thousands of debt again... At the very end his mom couldn't do it and took his last breath in that stinky hospital room.. His father died cause of overdose of drügß and he was left with million dollars of debt.. The best he could do was work , work and work... But it never just lessened... So much interest and the helpless him...

And it all happened cause of Taehyun... Only if he hadn't betrayed Taehyung like that... Because if it was Taehyung who would go abroad , he would never abandon his family... Never... He could build such a perfect life for himself but everything got ruined.. Everything...

Just cause of his selfish twin brother who stole his everything...

Including the name his parents gave him...

Taehyun was dead to him.. Dead to him like his parents...

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Taehyun was dead to him... That's how Taehyung coped with the betrayal that ruined and twisted his life in the worst way possible... The way his parents were dead Taehyun was dead to him too... After all the brother who shared the same womb caused him such pain through his entire life... What else he should think of Taehyun ?

But the harsh sentence of Taehyung's had no effect on Taehyun.. He doesn't care.. He never cared... He never cared about anyone else other than his own self... Some are ambitious and maybe take some evil and dishonest path to make it work for themselves but Taehyun.. He is pure evil.. He is drawn as pure evil in Taehyung's life.. The devil himself ~

Taehyun did not want to live that life.. He did not- He wanted to get out and once getting the chance he did.. It was Taehyung's fault for being so naive.. It was Taehyung's fault for trusting his own twin brother so much...

And he had to pay the price for trusting his own twin brother for the rest of his life by working himself to death.. By just barely surviving... Because death is not easy and it is not painless.. Taehyung is scared of death.. He has become immune to pain throughout the years but death is something what is still his nightmare...

And after so many years Taehyung finally learned another truth.. Taehyun did not abandon him , he kept traces but he never lend the hand of help to him.. Now how should he cope with it ? Even the cold that was freezing him till now just felt like nothing... Taehyung's body just got numb.. His brain froze as he lost the ability to say anything or think anything...

How can a person he so cruel.. ? So cruel.. ?

Finally Taehyun reappeared in his life to help him through the hell hole.. Pulling him out of it but at what cost ? The only wishes he did to God every single night was just for someone to help him.. Just for a kind angel to help him and make his life at least a bit better..

But Taehyun is anything but an angel to him ~

Why is Taehyun doing it all now.. ? Why... ? Maybe because he felt guilty ? Did he feel guilty though ? Never.. Never... At least that's what Taehyung knows now.. Taehyun will feel anything but guilty...

That's a sinful word and emotion to him.. A sin he will never commit.. Not even in his deathbed ~

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