Having to get up every single day doing the same routine is just so tiring, lacking motivation is just like living a life without it's purpose.

"ella.... honey"

I hurriedly climbdown the stairs

"be careful ija or you'll trip"

luggage and suit case were at the floor. I kissed their cheeks and give them hugs

"how long will it be this time tita"

she gave me sad smile and brush my hair I smiled at her assuring her that I'll be fine

"I'm sorry honey we might take a month for this business trip, will you be okay on your own?"

tita is such a worrywart.

"It's alright its for business.don't worry I'll call everyday" I let a small smile " alright get going or you'll be late again "

"okay we'll be going then. take care of yourself ija"

I walk them to the gate where their service is waiting.

"I will tito, you take care too"

Tita gave me a one last hug before going in the car. I wave them goodbye and my turn my back,lock the gate and stride inside

Tita Issabelle and Tito Steve adopted me when my parents died from a plane crush I was 10 back then, tita is my mothers sister their daughter died from a heart disease when she was 8 and tita cannot bear a child again because of her illness. I am very grateful to them they are so kind to me and treat me like their own even though we have lesser time for each other because of their business. They provide me everything I need and want. I got nothing to ask for nor to worry about but this emptiness I'm feeling I can't find the reason for it.

I tidy up my room, wear my uniform pick up my bag and wear my glasses

" Mr. Song you don't have to drive me to school today"

"are you sure miss?"

"yes just tell tito that I'll just go with the bus if he ask it's still early anyway"

"alright I'll be going then"

"yes thank you"

....................

"wow your early today!"

"huh it's because mom she's a real nagger"

"lets head to karaoke after class"

"uhuh lets hang out laterr"

the bus is buzzing today, this is for senior high service, collecting students everyday

My favorite spot is the sit beside the window in the back it's not very cramped there. I'm a senior high student graduating this year so the schedule is kind of hectec there's a lot to be done but I just don't feel like doing so but I have to force myself I don't want to dissapoint tita and tito, they've done so much for me I don't want be a burden so much.

riiiiiiiiingggggg

"wohoo just in time"

"ellllaaaa!!" Xian was waving at me as she see me getting off the bus.

"why did you take the service today?"

"just want to. why are waiting her for anyway"

"common don't ask me that okay.. I was just so excited to tell you about the party at my house later!"

"and?"

we head to our classroom and she's still clinging on me with wide smile and excitement

"you see mom and dad wants to see you again you know?"

"oh no thanks"

"ahh no it's not like that okay they really just want to see you since tita issa and tito steve aren't here ant country"

"whatever xian I'm still not going"

"wahh noo!!"