I never thought this would be the end. I knew deep down they never really loved me. Not only that, but I knew I was just someone they got to fulfill and accomplish their plans. I knew all this but still, still I hoped that they cared for me even a little. I really thought that if I did everything they said, if I followed their orders I would finally claim a little place in their hearts. How wrong I was.

There she was my sister standing in front me laughing at my current situation. I was dying, and they didn't care at all. None of them shed even a tear. They all couldn't wait the moment I would finally die.

"Oh my dear sister. Do you finally get it? They don't love you they never did. It was all to protect me and help the family gain power. You never mattered, you were always a stepping stone, so I could get what I wanted. You were always an extra my dear sister. Always.'

'Why??'

'Why you say. Well you see its very simple. You are an orphan, you have no real family. The only reason they adopted you was to protect me. We are a powerful family after all. We have many enemies and someone had to take the blame. You were that someone every time. You did everything you were told never wondering if it was right or wrong. We didn't even have to threaten you. You were so easy to fool my dear sister. It was rather amusing seeing you try so hard. You became a mage to protect the family, you sacrificed your life so many times only to end up here. You were accused of something you didnt do, and they made you pay the price for something you weren't even aware was happening. So clueless. And even if you wanted to escape you can't anymore, can you? They made sure you wouldn't be able to use magic never again. And now you are rotting in a shell. Alone. Very fitting for an orphan don't you think?

' So you never really cared for me .....

' Hahaha we to care for you hahaha haha. Oh, my you must have lost your mind. You were an investment. Nothing more. You were never a true part of this family more like a slave. But I have to admit you were a rather strong mage. But you wouldn't if we hadn't made you.

I see. Now it all makes sense. I was always a fool. I wanted someone to love me so much I didn't see their true intentions. All the misery, the tortures, the pain all of it were just for their gain and nothing more. I see now. It's all clear. It's a shame it's so late now. I can't do anything to change the past, it's too late. If only I wasn't so blind I wouldn't have made so many mistakes.

If only I had a second chance. If only I could start again I wouldnt be such an idiot always trying to be loved. I would only live for myself.

I never believed I could get a second chance, but I am back at the orphanage. Back to when I was eight years old. This time I will leave before they come. This time I am going to live for myself.

I hated it here. Nobody treated me nicely. All they used to say is that orphans are cursed people, unwanted and a burden to society. The cruelty of their words I never forgot. I never had anyone even in here.

The place is as I remember it thought. Destroyed walls, half broken beds and terrible windows that let the cold pass in. They didn't even give us enough blankets for nights like this. We were all alone. Little kids taking care of each other. We never had enough food and had to do all the chores they assigned if we wanted that small dinner. I hated every moment in here. We all did. But we had nowhere else to go. And as for education we never learned to read or write.

That's the reason I was so happy when they adopted me back then. I thought that I would finally have a beautiful life. I was so wrong. But I won't repeat the same mistake again. If I remember correctly I have only one week before they come, so I have to think carefully and make a plan. But I am wondering about something. She said they only adopted me to help the family but they didn't make me study magic for five years. In this world you can be born with magical powers or if you are very rich you can use items to extract magic power from them. It comes with an awful cost of course although for the ten years I was a mage I never saw any of the terrifying symptoms. If they were so desperate for a mage why wait for five whole years? Is there an age limit ? No I would know if it were. So why? Ahhhhh. This is going to bother me. I can't figure this out. I am missing something here but I don't have time for this right now. I have to prepare for the time I will leave.

I have many things to take care of. I need to go to the office and destroy every paper with my name on it. I have to erase every trace of my existence. After all I don't want to face them ever again. I won't have trouble disappearing since they don't really care what happens to us here. They will just be happy that there is one less child. One problem I am worrying about is the food thought. I have to find a way to get food. Now It's still daytime and thankfully I am sick so i don't have to do chores. Apparently being sick is good. If I remember correctly the fever only took three days to come down. So I have three days to think every detail of my plan and two days after to gather everything. Then when night falls I will leave quietly. I am kind of sorry for the other kids but i can't help them. Right now I am a kid myself. And what I am going to do is very dangerous so I can't take them with me .

The three days passed more quickly than I thought they would. The fever fell and now remain the two days to gather the essentials. Lucky me they assigned to clean the office where all the files are kept. So now i can easily make my papers disappear.

'I am sorry I am here to clean the office.'

' Oh you finally decided to get out of the bed I see. How come? Are you done with that little theater of yours? Or did you finally get hungry?'

I had forgotten just how unreasonable these people where. But I cant draw attention to myself right now. I shall play their game just for two more days.

'I am really, sorry. I know I was wrong so if you want I am willing to work extra in the kitchen. I know you always need help there miss Ann.'

' Oh so now you see you were wrong. You know that an extra work would help you learn your lesson. But working in the kitchen isn't enough. You are also to do the laundry and clean after everyone finishes their meal. After all you were in the wrong don't you agree?'

These people were really a piece of work but I need my plan to succeed. So I don't care even if I have to beg her. Its one thousand times better than going back to that house. A little more work wont be a problem.

' I agree with you of course. I am really sorry. I am sure that the extra work will make me realize how wrong I was and how unreasonable my behavior has been.

As if. I really don't understand how this orphanage is still running. These people really need someone to teach them a lesson. I don't quite recall what happened in my previous life. I think I just went to clean the office and tried to hide from them knowing that they would say. Already I have changed the future. I am so close to acchive the first phase of my plan. And now that I will have access to the kitchen it makes everything so much easier.

' Alright since you are so well-behaved today, you can continue with your work. And be sure to clean the office well. You know well what is going to happen if you don't. I don't believe you want to anger her once again do you ?'

' No miss ann. I dont. I will be extra careful.'

' Alright of you go.'

' Yes miss.'

I had really forgotten how terribly this place was. It is no surprise since I went to an even worse place. But this time everything will be different. My plan is in motion after all.

So now where are the files kept. I have almost finished cleaning but i haven't found them yet. There is only one place left. That door there must lead either to some kind of small room for storing or it leads to a bathroom. I have to check it. I don't know how much time I have so I will be quick.

Thankfully it isn't locked. So now here I come. It's too dark I need to find the lights if I want to see anything. Ah here it is.

Oh ....

I was right it is another room. But it is full with boxes. How am I supposed to find anything inside this mess? I guess there is only on option. Lets get started.