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The Love I Yearned For But Can Never Have

First time when I saw him

In one of the winter days,a girl named Samiha shifted a new home near our school with her family and that day she saw him. Actually she didn’t saw his face at all but his existence gave her a sudden beat in her heart that she never felt. It was the day when she felt very anxious because she didn’t know what kind of these feeling that keep beating her heart. She wanted to see his face but the fog of that day was that much it was blurry.But she was lucky that she got to know he lives in the next door."Maybe I can see him later. But what's this feeling? Why I want to see him that much? It’s not like I have never seen a boy. But why??? Why??",she thinks.She still didn’t know....

My first day

Her school was girls school so there was no boy. But it never made her think of boys as she have enough male friends from elementary school.Even though they are in different school, they still keep in touch.The school she admited was the best girls' school in that city.So she was really excited to go as it was her dream to go there.Luckily her best friend also got in the same school.It was her best day ever.She was putting her long dream school dress.It was kawaiiii(cute).As it was winter she took her badminton rackets also because she love playing badminton.When she went out for school the thing she first saw was him.The boy that made her heart skipped a beat that she never felt.But now It's beating fast more than last time."Why??? Why it’s beating so fast whenever I saw him.My heart never beats like this before.But why now??? For the boy I don’t even know",she thinks.Still she couldn’t see him.She just saw his back. He was also going to school the same time.After judging by his uniform, she got that he is from boys' school.The boys' school he studied was the 3rd boys' school in that city. She was very happy to know that she get to know something about him."But why am I happy? Why I want to know more about him? I want to know his name,his everything."These questions keep coming into her head."But didn’t he notice me at all? Am I invisible?",she thinks.

As her father dropping her to school so she was trying not to think about it anymore.Her father is a sly fox.He really gets her everytime when she thinks something weird.So she stopped thinking and focused on her first day of her long dream school.It's the school where all the best girls get admit.Before the entrance gate,her best friend was waiting for me.Her name is Lilian.She was her best friend since elementry and they are also competitive about their study.Lilan waved her and said,"Come quick, Samiha.The gate is cloesing."Samiha ran to her best friend and hugged her.Her day went smoothly in her school.After school Samiha was returning home.Suddenly she thinks of him again.'Will he also be coming home this time??If he come I can see his face maybe."she thinks."Oh my God... Samiha. Why are you thinking of him??",she blushes and thinks.She was waiting for the elevator. Suddenly she saw him. This time she got to see his face.He was very handsome. Even the word handsome can't define his beauty.Again Samiha's heart beating fast.But she was thinking if he got in the same elevator with her as he lives next door. She was preparing herself to go with him.But the boy didn’t take the elevator. He chose the stairs.Samiha felt really embarrassed of herself.She was also disappoint."Why am I sad just because he didn’t take the elevator? Why I felt rejected? Why??",again these question coming in her head.

My family

Samiha is the eldest daughter of her parents. She also have two younger siblings, Santa and Joe.Joe is the youngest son of her parents but he loves her sister the most.He always listen to his elder sister. When samiha was born her father already made decision to make her doctor without knowing what she wants to do.From childhood her parents force her to do good result but she never told them that she doesn’t want to do this.She always tries her best not to make lose of her parent's face infront of their relatives.Her mother is really friendly with her.She always supports her no matter what Samiha do.But her mother can't also go against her father as he is the only earning member of her family.Her father is a employee of a bank.His job was stable but even though he loves Samiha, he never expresses it.So samiha is only close with her mom and sister.Her sister Santa is quite the opposite of Samiha.They always quarrel with each other but it was their love that made them so lively.Whenever Samiha got hurt or face any problem, Santa is the person who helps her no matter what happen.Samiha felt very lucky to have a great family.

As days goes by Samiha hasn’t seen the boy after the elevator incident. She always wished if she can see him again."How many day's it has been I saw him?? Why I miss him?? Why didn’t he go to school?? I can't ask mom. If I ask mom she will suspect me for sure."she thinks.Dating is forbidden in Samiha's family untill she goes to college.Even her mother don’t support her in this.So she can't ask about any random guy to her mom.After a couple of weeks Samiha stopped to look for him.She started her regular daliy life again.But in her mind she still thinks if anything happens to him.The winter season ended by then.Spring has come.Samiha was preparing props for spring festival in her school.She went to crafts shop with her best friend Lilian.

Lilian: Samiha which color we should buy for the props?? I think orange and red is better.What do you think?

Samiha: Well,take yellow and green also.It's spring and the nature started to show her green look.

Lilian: Right.Fine let's buy then.Ohh yeah I forgot to tell you that spring festival is open for all.So the students of other school will also come.I am so excited. kyyaaaaaaa >_<

Samiha: What's there to be excited that much?? 😒

Lilian: Don't you know students of boys' school will also be attending this year.There will be many handsome boys.I might find my boyfriend hehe 😁.

Samiha: What??? Really?? Why didn’t you tell me before??

Lilian: I thought you know because everyone is talking about it.What happened Samiha?? I noticed many times but never told you but I kind of think you are stressed about something. Is there anything wrong happened with you??

Samiha: No no..It's nothing. I just had a headache for the past few days.

Lilian: Ok then.If anything happens,let me know. I am your best friend remember that always.No matter what I will always help you.

Samiha: Thanks Lilian.You are the best.We are getting late.Let's go.

Lilian: Yes.. Let's go.

After buying props,on the way to school Samiha constantly thinking of that boy.She thinks that maybe she will see him at the festival.After school Samiha has to work for the festival so she couldn’t go to home.After work she found her home was locked. There was no one at home."Where did everyone go?Why nobody told me that nobody's gonna home?? Uggghhhhh!!!What should I do now??Then she sat down infront of her home. She keeps calling her mom. But her mother wasn’t answering.After some time she fell asleep.Suddenly a woman wake her up and asked her patting her head,"Ohh dear!! Why are you sleeping here?? Where is you parents??"Samiha suddenly stood up and bow down and respectly said,"Aunty I don’t know.I tried to contact but it seems they are quite busy about something. It’s ok I can wait here.Thanks for waking me up." "How about you come to my home and wait for them?It's not convenient for a girl to stay outside like this",the woman asked.Samiha first declined but as the woman was persisting so she agreed."Thanks Aunty.I will be in your care then." She bowed."Ohh my!! You are such a sweet girl!!",the woman praised. "Aunty is really a good woman.But why is she going towards that boy's house.Don't tell It's her home. That's means she can be the mother of that boy."she started panicking.But she took a brave a step ask that woman about her family.

Samiha: Aunt if you don’t mind can I ask you something??

The woman: Sure dear.

Samiha: Whom do you live here with?

The woman: I have 2 daughters and a son.My both daughters got married.So I lived here with my son and husband.

Samiha: You might feel alone right? Don't you miss your girls?

The woman:Well sometimes.But my son takes great care of me. So I don’t feel alone.How about you?Tell me about your family.

Samiha:Well I am the eldest. I have 2 younger siblings and my parents.We are also 2 sisters and one brother. My brother is the youngest. And my mom is housewife and dad has a stable job.

After the woman opened the door of her home,Samiha was sure that the women was the mother of that boy.Again the heart started beating.

The woman:It was my daughter's room.You can fresh up.I will get some snacks for you.

Samiha : It’s ok aunt.You don’t need to do that.

The woman:No.It’s your first time here.So make yourself at home.

"Aunt is really hostile,then why her son is like this?? 😤 Maybe he goes after his dad.", she thinks. After freshing up the women gave her some snacks.

The woman:Eat and let me know if it’s suits your taste.

Samiha : Did you make it?? It’s really delicious.

The woman:Really?? Then take some home.I always made this because I like it.But Erik and my husband don’t like this.But after hearing you I am really happy.I will send some whenever I make them next time.

Samiha : Thanks aunt.

"So his name is Erik", Samiha smiles and thinks.She was really happy that she got to know his name.After some time her mother called back.

On the Phone,

Samiha:Mom where are you?? Why didn’t you pick my phone?

Mother:I am sorry child. Your brother burnt his leg so I rushed to the hospital.

Samiha: What??? How did this happened?

Mother:It’s ok.He is safe now.We are heading back.Where are you?

Samiha: I was waiting outside the house.After some time the next door aunt let me in her home to wait for you.Come quick.

Mother: Yes coming.

After hearing the conversation,the women asked her," Is everything alright??You looked tensed." Samiha told her everything.

The woman: Ohh my!! How is your brother now??

Samiha: Mom says he is safe now.But still I am worried about him.He always been a good boy.

The woman:Don't worry.Everything's gonna be fine.

After some time,her mother came.Samiha hugged his brother.His brother cries when Samiha hugged him.He was strong untill when he saw Samiha was crying after seeing him like this.

Joe: Elder sister I have been a brave boy when Dr was treating me.I am sorry I made you worried.

Samiha:It’s ok Joe.You are a good and brave boy.Let's go home.I will make your favourite ramen for you.

Samiha wipes Joe's tears and took him into her arms.Samiha thanked Erik's mom.

After she and her brother went inside...

Samiha's mother: Thanks for making my daughter stay in your home. I really appreciate it. Let me know if you need help.

Erik's mother: Your daughter is really a good girl. You are really lucky. Come to my home sometimes.

Samiha's mother : Sure.You too.

Then they both talkes for somethimes.

Samiha: Joe how did you burnt your leg?

Joe:I wanted to make something for you. Because you always makes for me.But I messed up everything. I am sorry.(cries and snif)

Samiha: When you get bigger than me.I will tell you to make dishes for me.Untill then don’t do it again ok?

Joe: Ok sister

Samiha : That's a good boy.Now eat up.

Joe: It’s tasty. Your ramen is the best sis.

Samiha: Hehe I know.

Samiha :Mother, you go fresh up.Where is Santa btw?

Mother:She is staying at her friend's house.

Samiha : How about Dad?? Did you tell him about that??

Mother : No. I will tell him when he come back from work.

Samiha : ok mom.

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