"How many times must I tell you Ryuunosuke!Wake Up!"

I lifted my head from the desk.Everyone started laughing.Why though?Oh yeah.Tadaka-sensei just can't let me sleep.Shouldn't have stayed up all night

"Ryuunosuke,See me after class in the

Office"

Perfect.Now i have to stay back.

"Hehe,Akihito-kun is gonna have private lessons with Tadaka-sensei.Wonder what lewd things they are he is going to do to her."

Holy shit.Shut the hell up.I'm so done with this shit.I hate it here.Everyone's a jerk.I dont wanna deal with this.

LESSON ENDS

I got off my seat and slung my bag onto my shoulder and left the class.Oh yeah.I had to meet Tadaka-sensei after class.Now i have to head to the office.What a drag.

I headed towards the vending machine to get a coffee before heading to the office only to run into Tadaka-sensei.

"What a coincidence.Didn't i tell you to meet me at the office"

Thats what she says but look who's here instead of at the office.

"Even if i went,I would have to wait for you to even enter.Anyways,what are you doing here?"

"Well,Lets not talk about that and about you."

Tadaka-sensei threw me a coffee.A

BOSSPRESSO,exactly what i wanted.I started searching for my money.

"Its on me." Tadaka-sensei said as she noticed

"Ryuunosuke......"

"yeah?"

"Whats that on your wrist?"

Tadaka-sensei grabbed my arm and pulled up the sleeve,revealing the cuts on my wrists.

The last thing I want anyone to see was that.Especially Tadaka-sensei.She froze in shock as I covered it with my sleeve.

"Ryuunosuke...Are you alright?"

I frowned.If anyone knew about what

my past,It was Tadaka-sensei.Tadaka-sensei was the student of my Mother back then.I could say she was a like a big sister that I

never had.She used to come over frequently when she was younger but now she is a teacher in my school and I have known her for over 10 years.

My parents,both passed away in a car accident.Leaving me and my little sister,Shino,to live our lives alone.However,Tadaka-sensei usually came to help.I was young back then,however,I understood what happened unlike little Shino.Those years were terrifying.But now,it had got better since.

At least that was what everyone thought.I couldn't get over the fact that it

wasn't my fault.My parents had died on my birthday and since then,I hated my birthday.It reminded me of myself,the reason my beloved parents were no longer in this world.The pain they had to go through to make me have a good start in life.They were the best.But I was the cause of their deaths.I didn't want to think otherwise.I resulted to attempts of suicide.

However,Shino and Tadaka-sensei were always there for me.

Tadaka-sensei held my hand.

"Ryuunosuke,it wasn't your fault okay?Stop hurting yourself and enjoy the world Akihito-sensei let you in.I bet she would be really sad if she saw this ,so come on Ryuunosuke.Don't do this again okay?"

I struggled to form a sentence.I was going through the experience again.My life flashed before my eyes and before i knew it,tears streamed down my cheeks.I looked at Tadaka-sensei.Only to see her crying too.I tried my best to force a smile, just to stop her from

crying.

"I'll try my best.Otou-san,Okaa-san.Sorry."

Tadaka-sensei wiped away her tears and looked at her watch.

"Its getting late.I'll send ya' home.We can get some Bento sets on the way for your dinner"

"I'll handle the food part.Thanks"

Tadaka-sensei proceeded to drive me

home.This had happened many times,

especially on festivals where she would send me home in her car.Tadaka-sensei was really worried and I could tell.The cuts on my wrists also caused me trouble but it was my only way of feeling regret for what i have caused.

During the ride,Tadaka-sensei striked up a conversation.

"Ryuunosuke,Are you in a club?

"Uh no. Why?"

"You should join one. It can help take your mind off things for a while. Join one that you might enjoy."

"Enjoy huh? Well i like books.I think?"

"Don't be like that,Bakkanosuke."

"Look here,If you're gonna call me tha-"

Tadaka-sensei yawned loudly

"Can i call you Ryu-kun?"

Thats what my parents used to call me.

"Uh.Ok I guess."

"So Ryu-kun.Maybe you should consider

joining the literature club.There's only one member which is the leader.She's a cutie."

"I don't care about things like that.If I'm gonna' join a club,it better be worth my time."

"Don't be like that,i know boys are just

perverts,Pervynosuke.Anyways,we're here.Say hi to Shino for me."

I decided to be cheeky for god knows what reason

"See you tomorrow,Onee-san"

"EEEEEH?!"

Tadaka-Sensei blushed as she drove away.

I entered the apartment

"Tadaima!"

"Onee-chan! What took you so long!"

Shino ran out of her room to the door and hugged me

"woah.This is how it feels like to be hugged?"

"I was so worried Onee chan got robbed and attacked by gangsters.Thank got you're okay."

Shino,My little sister,is the best sister i could ask for. She's cute, She's pretty and She's my type. However,She's my imouto. I went to sleep without any trouble.

ALARM GOES OFF

Hah.I woke up today,alive and ready for school for the first time in god knows how long.Ive been arriving late at school lately as i barely get any sleep and Shino has to wake me up.

Today,I got my full 8 hours of sleep and Shino was shocked to see me awake at 7am.She's so cute.I wanna spoil her.Oh god i think im having a siscon.

The day went on like normal,getting laughed at by gals,studying,getting laughed at by

delinquents,Getting scolded and drinking

coffee.The day went on without me sleeping once.

Everyday,some gals can't shut up and stop laughing at me during homeroom session.Im used to it but it pisses me off.Their voices sound like the backing vocals of 100 miles but its pitch is 200 times higher,exactly,it sounds like a angry cat.

SCHOOL ENDS

The time i had been waiting for finally came.The time to join a club.I walked around the school,searching for the literature club.

Finally,i found it after looking for at least 15 minutes.Damn room was hiding the library.

Wait..it should be there anyways.I'm a

dumbass.

I knocked on the door and waited for a reply.

"Come in"

It was a girls voice.Her voice was gentle and at the perfect volume,unlike those gals.

I walked in,to see a girl,around as tall as me sitting down.

The room was clean and organized and had a table in between.There were bookshelves

covering the wall with all of the famous books from different authors.The girl had black hair and had a cute face.She also had beautiful blue eyes.She also was flat,which im not ashamed to say,is my preference.She looked at me and asked.

She looked at me with a curious face.She was reading a light novel which i clearly recognize.Tate no yuusha or Shield Hero which is one of the action ones.Me? Im more of a romance guy.She put down her book.

"Um..What business do you have here

Akihito-kun?"

"Im here to join the Literature club and may i ask how do you know my name?"

I tried to be as nice as possible to put up a good first impression.

"You're real popular in this school,you know that right?"

What?Im popular?Thats a joke right?If anything,Im theopposite of popular.

She talked with no slang.Perfect grammar asid she was taking an oral exam.Her voice was cute.She sounded like Shino.

"Really?"

"Of course not.Tadaka-Sensei had informed me that you would be coming."

"Huh,How did she even know?"

"I have no idea.Your name is in the Club list.She must have made you join this club."

Damn Tadaka-sensei.Now im in this Literature club .Not that its a bad thing.But she's always doing this.Welp.I was going to join either ways.

The girl poured some tea in a paper cup and passes it to me.It had a strong black tea smell that i could smell as soon as i entered the room.

She took a bow and said

"Akihito Ryuunosuke-kun,Welcome to the

Literature Club.I am Tomiko Kaede.You can call me Kaichou."

...And like that,the story of My Suicidal Romane begins!...

I looked at Tomiko-san.She had a nice body and she seemed real friendly.I quickly greeted her back

"I am Akihito-Ryuunosuke.A second-year.I'll be in your care,Tomiko-senpai."

She looked at me,flustered.She quickly said,

"Just call me Kaichou."

I nodded.I noticed that there were many books on the table.I recognised some of them,

however,they still made me want to read them.

I dont spend my time going out with my friends(as I dont have any) so my time is

usually spent reading or watching anime.

I had nothing to do that day and I was

interested in some of the books i saw earlier.I asked kaichou

"kaichou,is it okay if i just take any book and read it?"

"Sure,i mean...you're part of this club anyways."

I randomly took a book and started reading.Luckily,I had chosen an interesting one.It was about a teen being reincarnated into

another world and it was really like an isekai anime in a book.I was so engrossed in reading that i didn't keep track of the time.It was

already 6 pm and I had not left yet.I looked up to see kaichou reading her book.It looked like some sort of romance novel and she seemed really engrossed in it.She actually looked really cute.However,being me,I knew I shouldn't try.It either end with me being rejected and hated or it being akward between us.

What am i saying really?I just met her.Wake up ryuunosuke! I got up and carried my bag.

"I'll be leaving.Thanks for today, kaichou."

"Mhm,Take care."

I can't believe it. Someone that isn't Shino or Tadaka-sensei said 'Take Care' to me.I don't know if we are considered friends considering the fact that we barely talked.On my way home,I stopped by a vending machine.I bought a BOSSPRESSO to wake myself up and Melon Milk for Shino cuz' i knew it was her favourite.

I suddenly heard voices to my left.It was some people from my school.They looked like

delinquents.One was wearing a hat and the others were following him,laughing around.I didn't want to attract attention so i quickly looked away.I suddenly heard one of them shout

"What ya' lookin' at punk'"

He headed towards me.All of his friends

followed him.One of them was holding a stick of some sort.He grabbed my by my collar and screamed at me.

"WHATS YA' PROBLEM PUNK?LOOKING AT ME AS IF IM SOME SORT OF ARTIFACT?"

If anything,he looked like a mistake.I mean,c'mon ur 17 and ur acting like a jerk.get a brain dipshit.However,he was way bigger than me.I couldn't run even if i tried.If i was gonna get out of this,I'd have to beg.

"No sir.I'm sorry"

"Sorry for what? Being a punk? I don't want to hear words from a punk.If you don't wanna look like anpanman,ya gimme your wallet."

My wallet? I barely have money and my Identity Card is in there.I don't want Shino to worry either.I can always just get a new one.

I gave him my wallet.He opened it and screamed

"OI! ONLY 200¥.YOU THINK YA' FUNNY?"

Another guy laughed

"Man look at this punk.Akihito Ryuunosuke?Ya' think ya' funny?Get him guys!"

I struggled to breath as the guy lifted my collar higher.He threw me onto the ground and the rest started kicking me.One of them stepped on my crotch as I howled in pain.My tears came out on their own is i tried to curl up to protect myself.The guy with the stick started bashing my back.I couldn't do anything.I was getting beaten up and no one was nearby to help me out.Slowly,I felt less pain,I tried to move but my arm wouldn't respond.I closed my eyes,and they didn't open again.

I woke up,hoping for me to be in bed just like a typical anime scene where the maincharacter wakes up in someone else's bed after being beated up.That wasn't my case.I woke up where i fainted.My head was bleeding and my whole body stung with pain.I could barely stand up and I was weak.I tried to reach for my bag.The delinquents didnt take my phone nor my wallet(as they were probably worthless.)I tried my best to stand up.My legs wouldn't budge and my ankle was swollen.My back was killing me and my head was dizzy.I was

dying.Just like how i wished. Suddenly i heard a familiar high pitch voice.

"Onii-Chan!"

I looked up to see a blurred figure.She looked like Shino.I knew i was hallucinating.I blinked and she was gone.I knew i was going to die in that corner beside the vending machine,so i closed my eyes and accepted it.

When I woke up again,it was morning.I looked up to see an unfamiliar ceiling.I was in a

bedroom.Whose it was?I had no idea.I was in a sleeping gown and my wounds were

treated.The room smelt like tea and had many stuffed toys around it.I started thinking

'What happened to me,oh yeah,the dumbass delinquents.Where are you?I don't know.Where's my stuff?I don't know. Why am I in a goddamn sleeping gown!'

I tried getting up.It wasn't as hard but it still hurt.I looked around to see a really organized room with stuffed toys everywhere.On the bed,On the dresser,beside the mirror,ob my bag.Wait.my bag? I quickly approaches it to see a bear stuffed toy.It had a note beside it. It stated:

This are your stuff that i managed to find.

I found you beside a vending machine and your items were everywhere.Idk what

happened to you but please take care in the future.You may leave anytime u please.

I realised that i was in a apartment.However,It was a 1 room apartment and it was a bedroom,meaning it probably wasn't someone's actual bedroom.More like a guest room.I checked my phone.26 missed calls from Shino and Tadaka-san and an email from kaichou.It was already 2 pm and school was about to end so i quickly put back on my uniform and walked home.Surprisingly ,my legs didnt hurt as much as they did earlier.Whoever that helped me out must be an angel.Who would want to help a dying loner.

I reached home and saw Shino sleeping on the sofa.I quickly went to take a bath and i realised the amount of scars that had been left on me.They has also cut off a nice chunk of my hair,revealing my eyes.I should have got a haircut sooner.When i came out,I was attacked by Shino.She hugged me and started crying

"Where were you all night.I was so scared you got beaten up by gangsters."

"Well i did.It's fine."i pat her on her head

Shino started crying even more.During my bath.I thought a lot.I decided to change.That day,I went to get a haircut.Now i looked less like a nerd and more like a normal person.Night time came and I went to sleep.Shino said she was scared so we shared a futon.And no i did not do anything to her.I went to school the next day.I got many looks and even the delinquents who beat me up didnt recognize me and just ignored me.I settled down at my table in the classroom and took out my phone.I suddenly noticed a note on my table.It stated:

I hope you are feeling better today.Try not to be beaten up again!

I smiled.Whoever this person was,I knew she was a good persond compared to some delinquents.School went on as per normal.

However,when i was about to leave school to go home,I found a letter in my shoebox.

It was sealed in an envelope

I opened it up and its said:

Meet me on the rooftop at 2.30 pm :)

I recognized that handwriting.it was the person that saved me.She had written all those notes.I looked at my watch and i realised it was already 2.29 pm.I started running up the stairs,hoping to meet my saviour.

I kicked open the door to the rooftop,to see a girl, no taller than 170cm.She had blue hair(which was odd) and she looked at me and smiled.I was ready to do anything to help her for what she did for me.Whatever it was

The girl looked at me in the eyes and smiled.She looked as if she was admiring me.I thought it was weird.I randomly got a letter in my shoebox asking me to meet her on the roof.Isn't that people normally confess?

The girl approached me.I got a rough look of her.She had a slender body and long legs.Her hair was tied into a ponytail.The band had a few attachments to it.She looked pretty casual,in a school uniform at least.I felt it was pretty awkward so I started a conversation

"So uhm...why did you call me up here."

She simply smiled back.

"Uhm...were you the one who saved me?"

She nodded and smiled

She was pretty silent and she didn't even talk.She slowly walked up towards me and put her hand on my chest.I felt that whatever she was doing was pretty questionable but if she claims to be the one that saved me,I'd do

anything.

"A-...Are your wounds okay?"

She spoke in a quiet voice.It was pleasant and cute.

"No.In fact I started bleeding more and my head hurts like hell."

She suddenly looked up at me.

"Really?Should i bring you to the school nurse?"

I chuckled as I revealer the truth

"Just kidding.Im fine,thanks to you."

The girl let out a breath of relief and smiled again.I felt as if she was a really good person compared to me.If anything,I want my girlfriend to be like her.I began to wonder if i could try being friends with her or to help her out in any way just to show my thanks.

It began to feel awkward again so i asked her something

"How did you find me?When i was beaten up by those delinquents,I'm pretty sure there was no one nearby."

"Y-..You were lying down beside the vending machine.I-....I wanted to buy a drink at the vending machine before i went home,then i f-... found you and I dragged you to my guest room."

"Oh i see.Thanks by the way,I would have been dead if not for you."

She blushed and looked down.

"It-..... Its nothing real-.. really"

"So......that was your guest room?There werelike stuffed toys everywhere,I figured it belonged to a girl.Were the toys yours?"

"..."

She looked down,and nodded.I could tell she was embarrassed.I quickly apologized.

"N-..No its fine ,really."

She walked up towards me even nearer this time.She held my shoulder and asked

"Can you do me one favour?"

I was ready for whatever she would have asked.I had to repay for what she had done for me.

"Anything it is just as long its in my power."

She noted and she asked me 5 words that would change my high school life.

"Would you be my friend?"

She looked at me in the eye.It was as if she could see through me.Understanding my feelings and everything.She blushed up and

quickly looked away.

I felt like that was pretty cute.After all,I've never had someone just ask me to be their friend before.I already had an answer.

"Obviously.You're the one who saved me

anyways.I would love to be friends with you."

She nodded and stuck out her hand as if

signaling for a handshake.

"Im Kokoro Mitsuba.A second-year.Pleasure to meet you and be your friend."

"Im Akihito Ryuunosuke.Same year as you.You can call me anything."

She settled on calling me Aki-kun.We proceeded to exchange contact details and then we walked home together.Turns out she lives 4 blocks away.

Upon reaching home,Shino jumped at me as usual.She hugged me and said

"Nii-chan,Nii-chan,guess who we have over today?"

"Huh,I thought no one would come over ever.Who is it?"

Shino didn't answer.She asked me to follow her.Shino lead me into the kitchen,only for me to see Tadaka-sensei cooking.

"Are???Ryu-kun?Why are you back so early?"

"Theres no club today."

She finished cooking and we all ate dinner

together.Shino went to her room and startedstudying while me and Tadaka-sensei had a chat.

"So,Hows school lately?"

I told her about everything except for the delinquents.

She could tell i was lying.After all,she's a teacher,and every teacher knows whether you're lying or not.

"Are you hiding something from me?"

I spilt the beans as i explaines everything from head to toe.She was clearly shocked but i don't think she would care that much as i was alive right in front of her.She was more interested in what happened to me.

"So,Ryu-kun,Whats with the sudden makeover?Got a girl ya' chasing?"

"Nah.I just decided to change myself up.Being a nerd is pretty boring and being a loner is worse.If anything,i gotta change to have a nice high school life."

"I see...So is the club helping?Are you having as much of your suicidal thiughts as always?As i said,for each dumb deed you do,I'll slap you."

"Tch.I haven't thought about it In awhile .I guess i should be okay."

Me and Tadaka-sensei talked through the night.Well,it didn't matter anyways as it was the weekends already.When tadaka-sensei left,I quickly went into my room(which is just shino's room,we share a room) and laid down.I checked my phone and i saw that i got an email from Kokoro-san.She said it was okay just to call her Mitsuba but im not ready for the first -name basis yet.Turns out she was asking what club i was in.I replied:

'Im in the literature club.We only have 2

members.Kaichou and me.Would you like to join?'

Which she immediately replied

'Why not.However,Could you introduce me to her.Im not very good with communicating irl."

I could tell.In real life,she was silent and would just smile at you.However,she was the total opposite online.I agreed to help her out withthe introducing.I put away my phone and at that moment,Shino hugged me in her sleep.I

pumped myself up.

'Big day tomorrow.Kaichou meets my first friend.'