Well I don’t really know how to start this i have love you for 5 years now and i know you won’t be coming back i lost you long ago for me to know your Probly better now you seen happy last time i saw you i honestly think is better if you don’t come back bc if you do i don’t think i be able to ever move on from you. I still miss you ofc but it’s not like before it’s not that feeling telling me that there still a chance between us is more like i wish i could have made things better or just not told you how I felt back then bc I knew how is was gonna end and i still told you i was stupid enough to belive you would even feel the same i see it now before i didn’t but now i think it was pretty clear last time i saw you it was nice i didn’t got to talk to you tho but you know what is the part that hurts the most that you were always able to look at me like i ment something knowing perfectly that i didn’t it is just stuck in my head the way u use to look at me back then i after the summer the way you would look at me this year during first Meyby it was nothing and i am just being delucional but honestly it’s okey i think i prefere to remeber it this way i prefere to remember those lil moments because it’s all i have from you i don’t have nothing else and i think i like to remember you has the orly i meet back in 7th grade not the one that came after even tho you were still nice after i fuck up but i think i am just holding into the food memoris bc i am to scared to accept that it was nothing at all that you were just gone after all and i don’t think i can deal with that yet just yet Meyby later i will but rn i need something to hold onto that remains me of you of the you I knew bc i don’t know you no more I haven’t know you for a long time i still remeber how scared i was once i saw u again after all that time it was like seeing a ghost of the boy i once knew but you still had the same smile the same shine on your eyes that way of looking at people that remind me Meyby you were still the orly i knew but i now i don’t think you are bc i am not even the same person i was back then how would i expect someone else to be the same if i am not. Sometimes i hope i be able to see you again just once to talk just tell you evrything i didn’t told you when i had the chance but i think it won’t be the best idea bc i don’t even know if you remember who i am, i hope you do just a lil even if it’s a random memory of me i just hope u know how i was but i know it’s a stupid tbinbh to ask for.

With love me, for you my orly.💜

Well I am not a writer I think you guys can tell by a lot but what I can do is tell you how one guy can change he every you think you knew. To this point I think y’all read Orlando’s part he left the way I look at love a mess for year I think that made me change a lot about me and the person I was bc I tough if I keep being that person no one would ever love me but some time ago I meet Edgar and don’t misunderstand me I am not saying he is the love of my life or like my hero that not it, it’s just the fact that he made it seen like someone liking me was possible like it could happend like someone could actually talk to me and like the kind of person I was and the way I look. I think he was one of the sweetest person I have met and I don’t regret meeting him at all I think meeting him was something I needed to keep going with my life after it was all a mess. Meeting him was like getting a lil spark in my life back just being able to see the person I had left behind bc I tough no one care enough to meet the person I was before I changed everything possible about my self to fit in with what I tough people would like better but seeing it now it never matter what they wanted it matter what I who I wanted to be not their expectations or anything they wanted from me and I am honestly sad it took me this long to realize that it never matter. So has u guys can see there no much about Edgar bc our time was not really long tbh it was a short about of time but he ment so much to me bc he got me out of the hole I had put my self in to hide everything, I don’t think he knows how much he actually help me too keep going and I don’t think I did either until well right now while I write this but I think if I ever talk to him again I won’t regret it but I think being friends it’s just fine too I don’t mind I am just glad I am still in contact with him from time to time and see him from time to time because I hosestly yes I did like him that’s something I won’t deny bc he was everything Orlando wasent he was someone that I could actually count on but I don’t think no one deserves that to be pick bc you give what other people didn’t so I think it’s better off like this bc we warent anything certain but I will always care for him and this is just getting stupid bc I haven’t reach the limit. And I have nothing else to talk about him bc well yeah there not much to say about him tbh