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The Monster I Was Obsessed With

The monster I was obsessed with

The soft morning sunlight filtered through the college campus, casting a warm glow over the corridors. The hallways buzzed with the lively chatter and laughter of students—some joking around with friends, others rushing past, consumed by the anxiety of impending assignments.

Yet, amidst that vibrant, bustling crowd, there was one girl who seemed entirely detached from it all. As if she belonged to another world altogether.

Long, raven-black hair... a face of porcelain pallor... and eyes devoid of any expression. There was a silence about her so profound, it felt as though she had forgotten how to speak.

Her name was Amyra.

Like any other day, she walked through the corridor with her head bowed, navigating the crowd. She kept everyone at a distance—no friends, no enemies. If anyone ever dared to speak to her, they were met only with a hollow, freezing stare.

To the rest of the college, she was an enigma. An anomaly.

"Hey, does that girl ever even smile?" one student whispered, nudging his friend.

"Who knows... I’ve never seen her talk to a single soul," came the reply.

Amyra continued forward, entirely unfazed by the whispers.

Suddenly—

"Oh... sorry!"

A boy turned the corner too quickly, colliding straight into Amyra.

The impact sent her books scattering across the tiled floor.

"I am so sorry... that was completely my fault."

The boy immediately knelt down, gathering the books before holding them out to her.

Amyra took them silently, her expression unchanging.

The boy offered a warm, apologetic smile. "See you around..."

With that, he jogged off toward his friends.

His name was Zehran.

Tall, with an easy smile and a stride that exuded effortless confidence, he quickly melted back into the crowd.

But Amyra remained frozen in place.

Her eyes—unblinking and intense—tracked Zehran's retreating figure. She watched him until he vanished completely from her sight. Only then did the corner of her lips twitch upward into a faint, barely perceptible smile.

It was a smile that lacked any warmth. A smile that did not seem entirely human.

Evening fell, and the sun dipped below the horizon, bleeding into twilight.

Amyra walked slowly, eventually stopping before a dilapidated, weather-worn house.

The moment she pushed the door open—

CLANG!

A heavy brass utensil struck her forehead with brutal force. The metallic ring echoed sharply through the empty house.

Amyra stumbled backward, crashing onto the cold floor. A thin trickle of crimson blood began to seep down her forehead.

Standing over her was her mother. Her face was contorted with rage, her eyes burning with pure malice.

"You worthless brat!" she shrieked.

"How many times have I told you to get a job at some shop? Drop out of school! But no... you just have to defy me, don't you?"

Amyra remained silent. She didn’t even look up at her mother.

But her silence only served as fuel to the fire.

"Still silent? You won't answer me?!"

Her mother snatched a heavy wooden stick leaning against the wall.

And then, the blows fell. One after another.

Her back... her shoulders... her arms... her legs...

The heavy thuds of wood meeting flesh echoed through the room. Yet, throughout the onslaught, not a single cry escaped Amyra's lips.

No tears. No gasps of pain.

She simply lay there, taking the beating in absolute silence.

Eventually, her mother grew tired. She threw the stick aside with a huff.

"Why don't you just die?" she spat, before turning on her heel and storming out of the room.

The house fell back into a heavy, suffocating silence.

A few droplets of blood stained the floorboards. Amyra lay there, motionless.

A second passed. Then another.

Slowly, the corners of her mouth began to curl upward.

"Heh..." a soft breath escaped her.

"Ha..."

And in the next instant—

"Hahaha... Hahaha...!"

Lying flat on the bloody floor, she began to laugh hysterically. Her laughter bounced off the peeling walls of the room. Her eyes remained dry, but they shone with a bizarre, manic glint.

It was as if pain no longer registered as pain. As if, somehow, she derived a twisted sense of pleasure from it.

After a moment, she slowly lifted her right hand.

It was the hand Zehran had touched. She traced her fingers gently over the spot where his skin had brushed hers, whispering a single name into the quiet dark:

"...Zehran..."

Her smile widened, turning sharper.

The next morning, Amyra wore a black cap pulled low over her brow, concealing the wound on her forehead. She walked into the classroom and took her usual place at the very back, in the farthest corner.

A few minutes later, the door creaked open.

"Hey, is this seat taken?"

Zehran stood beside her desk, a cheerful smile playing on his lips.

Amyra didn't answer. Taking her silence as a green light, Zehran pulled out the chair and sat down beside her.

"By the way... sorry again about yesterday," he said softly, offering another warm smile.

Amyra remained a statue.

The professor entered, and the lecture began. Zehran reached into his bag to pull out his notebook. In doing so, his arm inadvertently brushed against Amyra's.

"Oh, sorry..." Zehran murmured, his attention already focused on the blackboard. He didn't think twice about the fleeting contact.

But Amyra froze.

For a fraction of a second, the breath caught in her throat. Slowly, almost mechanically, her gaze shifted.

Her eyes locked onto the profile of Zehran's face.

She didn't blink. She didn't move.

She wasn't merely looking at him; she was memorizing him. Etching every line of his face into her mind.

At the front of the room, the professor's voice droned on. Students scribbled down notes, and Zehran remained completely absorbed in the lecture.

He had absolutely no idea that right beside him, behind the mask of that quiet, pale girl, a profound darkness had just awakened.

And it was never going back to sleep.

The monster I was obsessed with

The college lecture had ended hours ago. A deep, suffocating night had now fully settled over the city.

In her usual fashion, Amyra sat in the dark, silent corner of her dilapidated room, having spoken to no one all day. From the front room, her mother’s sharp, bitter voice echoed through the house. But to Amyra, the screaming was nothing more than static—noise in an unknown language that couldn’t touch her.

A little while later, the heavy front door slammed shut with a deafening rattle. Her mother had stormed out of the house, muttering curses under her breath.

Even after an hour had passed, not a single crease of worry appeared on Amyra's pale face. The only sound in the room was the rhythmic, metallic tick-tick of the wall clock.

Then, suddenly, her phone began to vibrate violently against the wooden desk.

The screen lit up, pulsing in the dark: Mom Calling...

Amyra stared at the blinking screen for a few long seconds with cold, indifferent eyes. Then, with absolute calmness, she swiped the screen and pressed the receiver to her ear.

There were no screams from the other end. No angry insults.

Only shallow, ragged gasps, and the distorted, agonizing sounds of someone choking on their own breath.

"...A... Amyra..."

"...He... help... listen to..."

The voice sounded incredibly distant, as if echoing from the bottom of a deep, dark well. Amyra listened without blinking. There was no panic in her eyes, no anger, no rush of adrenaline. Without uttering a single word, she slowly lifted a finger and tapped the screen, cutting the call.

The room plunged back into its frozen, heavy silence.

Amyra walked over to her wardrobe. Reaching into its depths, she pulled out an old digital camera—the one she kept meticulously hidden in a secret compartment of her college bag every single day.

As she powered it on, the blue glare of the screen washed over her porcelain face.

She connected the camera to her laptop, and one by one, the printer beside her began to hum, spitting out glossy photographs.

Every single one of them was of Zehran.

The college corridor...

A quiet corner of the library...

A wooden bench in the campus garden...

The bustling crowd of the cafeteria...

Every shot had been captured stealthily—taken from behind trees, through the gaps of half-open doors, or from the shadow of brick walls. In some, Zehran was laughing; in others, he was simply walking.

Amyra took the first picture and pinned it to the wall. Then the second. Then the third.

But as she went to hang the fourth, she suddenly froze. Her entire body went rigid.

The photograph was crooked. Perhaps by no more than half an inch, but to her, the tilt was monstrous.

Her breathing fractured, turning shallow and rapid. An intense, clawing anxiety rushed through her brain.

"No... it can't be like this."

With trembling fingers, she ripped the photo off the wall and realigned it, pressing it back down. She stepped back to inspect it. Unsatisfied, she stepped forward again, adjusting it by a millimeter. She repeated the process until it was absolutely, flawlessly level.

Only then did her racing heart quiet down.

A smile crept back onto her lips—cold, hollow, and deeply unsettling.

"There... much better."

She stepped so close to the wall that her breath misted over the glossy paper. Gently, her fingertips traced the contours of Zehran's printed face.

"You wore a blue shirt today. Blue looks beautiful on you, Zehran."

Silence swallowed her words. Then, she let out a soft, breathy giggle, as if Zehran had just whispered a witty reply back to her.

"You talk so much to everyone else... why don't you talk to me here?" She drifted her gaze to another photo. In this one, Zehran was smiling directly toward her direction—captured the exact moment he had sat next to her in class.

"You chose to sit next to me today... Did you like being near me too?"

For a long time, she remained in the desolate room, whispering secrets to the lifeless prints. But suddenly, the manic gleam in her eyes vanished, replaced by a bottomless, pitch-black void.

Her fingernails dug into the wallpaper, scraping against the plaster as she whispered, "No one can take you from me. No one."

Meanwhile, in the city's most affluent neighborhood, the grand estate of 'Al-Raza Villa' stood bathed in warm, luxurious light. Manicured lawns glistened under the spray of automatic sprinklers, and inside, the atmosphere was exceptionally serene.

Zehran sat on a plush leather sofa, casually sipping coffee with his friend, Aryan.

Aryan took a sip from his cup, a curious smirk playing on his face. "Hey man... can I ask you something?"

"Go ahead," Zehran replied, his eyes tracing the steam rising from his mug.

"Why do you keep sitting next to that girl lately?"

Zehran set his cup down on the glass table. "Which girl?"

"You know who. Amyra. The entire college thinks she’s a total freak. People won't even walk down the same hallway as her, yet you sit next to her like you’ve been best friends for years."

A faint, enigmatic smile touched Zehran’s lips. "People usually only see, Aryan..." He paused, his gaze drifting toward the vast darkness stretching outside the floor-to-ceiling glass window, "...what they are allowed to see."

Aryan frowned, thoroughly bewildered. "What’s that supposed to mean? I don’t get it."

"Nothing." Zehran stood up and walked over to the window, staring out into the night. When he spoke again, his voice carried an unexpected, chilling weight. "Just remember... not every quiet person is harmless. And not every smiling face is innocent."

Aryan burst into a hearty laugh. "Whoa, alright! Since when did you become such a deep philosopher?"

Zehran turned back and smiled, joining in the lighthearted moment.

But this time, the warm, innocent spark that usually danced in his eyes at college was entirely absent. They were flat, calculating, and dangerously cold.

Right then, the phone in his pocket vibrated sharply.

He pulled it out. There was no contact name on the screen—only a string of digits labeled: Private Number.

The moment Zehran saw the screen, the easy smile vanished from his face, wiped away in an instant. He shot a brief, guarded look at Aryan, and without saying a word, turned on his heel and walked out into the quiet corridor.

The monster I was obsessed with

The following morning, the college campus was buzzing with its usual restless energy.

As Amyra walked down the crowded corridor toward her lecture hall, her steps were measured and slow, exactly as they were every other day. Beneath the low brim of her black cap, her eyes remained fixed on the floor.

Then, out of nowhere, a sharp sound shattered the ambient noise.

CRACK!

A resounding slap connected squarely with Amyra’s cheek. The blow was so sudden and violent that it snapped her head to the side. The cap flew off her head, instantly exposing the fresh, raw wound on her forehead from the night before.

Standing in front of her was a girl from the same college, panting with rage. Her eyes burned with pure malice.

"Aren’t you ashamed of yourself? Acting all innocent on the outside, while you’re so utterly disgusting on the inside!" the girl shrieked, her voice instantly freezing the surrounding students in their tracks.

Amyra said nothing. She simply pressed a hand against her rapidly reddening cheek.

"Look at this girl, everyone!" the girl yelled, turning to the gathering crowd. "She acts like she doesn’t know a thing, but behind the scenes, she’s throwing herself at my boyfriend! Sneaking around with him! I won’t let you get away with this, Amyra. I am going to put you exactly where you belong!"

Within seconds, a thick crowd of students swarmed the corridor, the air filling with hushed, judgmental whispers.

Amyra just stood there. Her face remained a blank canvas, but then, a solitary tear welled up in the corner of her eye and slowly traced a path down her cheek. Even while weeping, her expression was disturbingly calm. In a trembling, barely audible voice, she whispered:

"I... I don’t even know him."

The moment those frail words left Amyra’s lips, the tide of the crowd instantly turned. The onlookers began to glare at the aggressor, muttering in disapproval.

"Has she lost her mind? Amyra has never so much as looked at a guy in this college. Why on earth would she steal someone’s boyfriend?" a student remarked aloud.

"Yeah, she can't keep her own relationship together, so she’s taking it out on this poor girl," another girl whispered.

"Get out of the way!"

Suddenly, Zehran parted the crowd and stepped into the center of the commotion. The moment his eyes fell on the crimson finger marks burning on Amyra’s cheek and the grim injury on her forehead, his blood boiled. A terrifying, uncharacteristic fury flared in his usually warm, innocent eyes.

"How dare you lay a hand on her?" Zehran roared at the girl, his voice echoing off the walls. "You’ve created this entire pathetic circus without a single shred of proof! Apologize to Amyra right now, or I promise you, this will not end well for you."

Faced with the sheer weight of Zehran’s wrath, the girl shrank back slightly. Yet, driven by hysteria, she screamed back, "You’re all falling for her act! She is a psycho! This is all a game to her... you have no idea how many lives she has ruined!"

Before she could finish her sentence, a violent crash erupted from inside the lecture hall.

BAM! CRASH!

The crowd flinched, scrambling backward. Inside the hall, a boy was tearing the room apart in a fit of absolute, unbridled rage. His name was Ruhan.

Ruhan was furiously kicking the lecture hall chairs, sending the wood and iron structures smashing into one another and splintering across the floor. Stalking out into the corridor, his eyes locked onto the girl who had started the fight. Without a second thought, he snatched her bag and violently hurled it across the hallway. Books burst open, and loose pages scattered through the air like autumn leaves.

Ruhan was the only son of the state’s mayor. He was the wealthiest, most powerful, and most influential student on campus. The sheer, chilling authority in his eyes ensured that no one dared to cross him. The entire corridor plummeted into a dead, suffocating silence.

Panting heavily, Ruhan swept a cold, menacing gaze across the stunned crowd. When he spoke, his voice was dangerously quiet, dripping with malice.

"I am here to study in peace. If anyone creates a pathetic scene like this ever again, I will do things to you that your worst nightmares couldn't conjure. Get out."

Hearing the blatant threat from the mayor's son, the crowd dispersed in a matter of seconds. Terrified, the girl abandoned her scattered books and fled down the hallway.

But amidst that chaotic scramble, while everyone’s attention was locked onto Ruhan... Amyra slowly lifted her head. She watched the retreating back of the girl who had slapped her. And in that precise moment, a terrifying, manic smile crept onto Amyra's face—a smile so deeply unhinged it would make anyone's skin crawl. The tear in her eye had completely dried, replaced by a lethal, predatory gleam.

Yet, in the commotion, her smile went entirely unnoticed.

Moments later, a professor was spotted walking toward the classroom. Students quickly filed back to their respective seats. Without a word, Amyra walked inside and reclaimed her spot in the farthest corner of the room.

Glancing out the window, she noticed Zehran sprinting away from the building, heading rapidly toward the college's main gates. Where was he going in such a frantic rush? Amyra watched him recede into the distance, her gaze completely unblinking.

At the exact same time, sitting across the classroom in the opposite corner, Ruhan was staring at Amyra. His gaze was heavy, intense, and layered with an unreadable complexity. Was it rage? Jealousy? Or perhaps... a dark, deeply buried secret?

Nearly halfway through the lecture, the back door creaked open, and Zehran slipped back inside. He was breathless, his chest heaving slightly. In his hand, he carried an icepack. Shielding himself from the professor's view, he slid into the seat right next to Amyra and covertly slid the icepack across the desk toward her.

"Put this on your cheek," Zehran instructed in a low, fiercely protective whisper. "You shouldn't tolerate behavior from trashy girls like that, Amyra. You need to learn to stand up for yourself. Someone won't always be there to save you."

Amyra took the icepack. She turned her head and looked at him.

Her fingers rested against the cold surface of the pack, but her mind was entirely ensnared by the memory of his touch and the sudden warmth of his concern. Inside her, the shadows deepened, stretching into an even profounder darkness.

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