hey guys if you are coming from my chat story hi welcome back I raven am back but I decided on changing somethings first is that this is a novel everything will be the same except somethings I hope you understand and please don't get angry I won't do this again....well I can't promise anything hehe sorry LET IT BEGIN!!!

in this lifetime I never had any love or care, I didn't care or longed for it until I was 7 at the playground I saw everyone getting love and cared for from their parents...I wish to feel that too but I cant my real parents left me when I was young and my adoptive parents don't treat me like family they all see me as a waste of air and a servant and I just accepted that what else could I do about it they did get me a roof over my head and food to eat I should be grateful and not ask for anything that's not necessary right while watching all the kids getting loved I just glance over and turn my head around thinking

'hah I don't need it I don't need it it doesn't bother me ' oh why can't I lie even to myself I went behind a building where no one could find me easily and cried pretty loudly I didn't know I could have this many tears coming out of me I've been holding back for so many years why is it coming out now it felt nice to let it out and instead of enduring it

"Hey, why are you crying so loudly its annoying " I look up to see a boy with a small guitar he had nice fair skin dark as the night sky hair and beautiful bluebell eyes 'handsome' is all I could explain to him 

"what are you doing here," I said flustered omg how long has he been here

"I saw it all from the begging " holy smokes can he read minds deabak

"and I should be the one to ask you that what are YOU doing here," he said with his intimidating voice kinda scared me not gonna lie but why does he act like he owns this place cocky

"It's not like you own this place!"

"Actually my parents do," he said that with a cold stare that was awkward what do I say in a situation like this I should just leave right that's what I should do In this situation

I turn slowly walking away from this very awkward situation

"HEY! where are you going ?!" I turn back for a glance just to see him coming after me oh no I turn back my head forward running but....I hit my head by a pole wow now isn't that just my luck

" Why are you running without looking idiot," he said that with a face trying to hold back laughter

"haha laugh all you want, "I said that holding back tears now I'm embarrassed, sad, and hurt

"I'm sorry " he didn't mean it  ugh I wish I could just slap that pretty face of yours

"But I do have a question" he looks really serious kinda spooky..everything about this child is weird and good-looking  ugh

"why were you crying a minute ago " oh my god he looks so innocent saying that been tho we both know that's not true

"because I realized I'm alone on this planet dark and quiet no one cares for me or more as nones wants me with them not even animals!!" I said aggravated when I glanced over to him he looked depressed more than I am I telling this story or are you

"I know how you feel none is willing to stay with you not even animals which I don't blame them " is he confronting me or insulting

"But why does it have to dark and quiet it doesn't have to be like that does it " I'm so confused right now

"huh?" he sighed out of frustration

"music"

",,, music?" he pulled out his small guitar that had every color in the rainbow on it looked pretty from afar but extrasensory up close

"whenever you feel lonely and just want to be free you make music using your voice or instrument he handed me his guitar

"try it I think you'll like it "I swish my hand on the guitar It sounds so calming and pretty

"I like it I really like it! I can also make music with my voice right so like singing  "I said energetically I always had to quiet in the house

"yeah when it is quiet and scary you can just make music it feels calming and makes you feel happy," he said smiling so prettily

"wow!" he looked up in the sky and said

"oop I have to go " oh I got kinda sad seeing him leave if Im honest " bye," I said which sounded really depressing not gonna lie "WAIT your guitar " he turned around with a smirk on his face"keep it !" "huh wait and your gone "I didn't even get a chance to ask for his name" I looked at the guitar and said very quietly "..music..."

as I was walking away with the guitar in my hand "ugh I really should have gotten his name"

14 years

"I need coffee " im to tired to be up this early

"coffee is bad for your health what time did you go to sleep last night" Kim Yun my best friend the only person who cared about me "I don't remember like 4 or 5" "hold up in the morning ?!" "yeah.." why is she being so noisy sometimes shes to much work but I still love her

"I was finishing something "  "HAN SO YEON!" "What!?" "one of these days you are gonna faint from overworking "

"yeah yeah ill wait for that happened I hope I faint in your arms"  "so yeon!" so easy

maybe I should've listened to yun coffee didn't help I feel really sleepy the school hallways look longer than usual maybe I should go to the infirmary wait no I won't have time I still have work to do I have tuition to pay I can hold out for a little longer I can do it. nope, I can't do i-im too tired..... I felt a warm hand on me it felt nice when I opened it I saw a VERY handsome man. dark black hair and moonlight looking eyes pretty a total killer face "are you done staring" that deep cold voice but that face tho magically my eyesight got better "oh i-im sorry, thank you " "ok then if that is so then getting off of me  " wow thas rude you could've at least you're welcome " "do I have to say you're welcome to someone who throws themselves on other people "rude jackass but I can't get over that face oof can one really be that good looking that has to be illegal tho he has no manners" you know what you little--!oh, shit im gonna be late, I have to go I swear if I ever see you again ill be the last person you'll ever see again " " damn it! that face it's too dangerous it could be a killer weapon "excuse me but did you just threaten me !?!" "yes I did and ill do it again !" I need to run from the way he's dressed he looks like someone you shouldn't provoke "YOU! come back here I'm not finished with you he's cocky too ugh I almost got fooled by his face damn but he feels familiar never mind my head properly well right now  don't judge a book it's cover "hah wow " he mutters ugh I don't have time for you

"Sir, should we got get her?" " no not now we can't cause a scene I don't want to hear ridiculous stories on the internet tomorrow but do it secretly I can't let her get away that easy, but why do i keep getting the feeling like I've seen her before" "alright sir ill be doing that immediately oh i almost forgot sir we have a dinner meeting with some investors" "where and when ? "at 'red plate' and the time is 6 " "red plate what a weird name,ok then lets first deal the situation with the auditions first " "yes sir" her eyes they were pretty like a violet flowers she reminded me of a puppy with dark brown fur cute

"IM HERE IM HERE  IM SO SO SORRY IM LATE "I ran as fast as I could I pretty sure that I broke something without a doubt" why are you so late we don't have time to wait for a little kid like you " rude just how rude "people prefer puppies than giraffes " I mutter " did you say something ?" "no I didn't sir !" I didn't mean to say that out loud if I did say that I would get fired "ok then you have to perform for our important guest well be having later can you do it without making any mistakes " " yes sir I can do it count on me !" "...alright then you have a gown in the back that you can wear I have settle somethings you go and don't make mistakes understand" "YES !" yes I can do it this is something I been waiting for let's go and see the dress I hope it fits me when I open the door my jaw drooped "WOOOW!"

wow it's so beautiful " are you miss than " " yes I'm han so-yeon '" ok then we will be getting your makeup and hair ready " " makeup ? " yes since you are replacing the performer who cancels last minute we had everything already prep so we will just be using it on you instead is it alright " " oh yes of course " oh my god I'm getting my hair and makeup is done professionally for the first time I'm so excited even if it's only for one day I gonna cherish it 2 hours later.. oh my god who is that is that me no way I didn't think I could this pretty damn are you single I'm starting to get nervous now oh my god I've sung so many time before but why am I getting so nervous for this one it's ok fighting you can do it so-yeon

"Mr. yoon nice to meet you "Mr.park, miss Lisa hello" "hi Mr.yoon "I can already see what she is thinking just by looking at her face all women are the same no one can change my mind that " now let's start the meeting now, waiter!" all-female waiter come rushing "YES SIR WHAT DO YOU NEED " ugh so bothersome "jun-hoon take care of this " "yes sir, can i please get the manager " the manager comes  rushing towards them "Mr. yoon what can i do for you" "sir Mr.yoon would like to change waiters to male one " "oh yes of course  " he turns around " all of you leave to go !'" and turns to Mr. yoon " Mr. yoon I also have a surprised for you as a welcome to our restaurant" "a surprised?" " yes! a performance i thought you'd be interested " ugh annoying he's trying to get my favored he's such an *** kisser but id like to see what show he has up his sleeves

ok, t's almost time I can do it don't get nervous you love this don't chicken out last minute "HAN SOYEON get ready your going on stage " "wait right now !?!" "yes! don't keep them waiting " "wai-" and he pushes me onto the stage everyone is staring its feels uncomfortable stop staring it's we- hold up is that.... KILLER FACE BASTARD! what is he doing here why now of all days. oh shit our eyes met uoh he's smirking god damn it now I'm really

nervous 'SING YOU LITTLE CHICKEN ' is all over the managers face while that killer face bastard is like 'well we meet again' ugh I have the worst luck but I'm not giving up  no matter what I worked hard to get this opportunity

'**you said you wouldn't wait  **

**you said you wouldn't cry **

its already too late oh, ts a very long goodbye

can we stay like this for a second?

yeah it's a dream that will be forgotten

**close your eyes **

**I will put you to your last sleep **

my lullaby baby sweet goodnight

**you won't have a scary dream **

your long  never-ending days let them go now '

(lullaby by iu)

the whole room goes silent was it that bad I'm scared I should just leave as I turned around to leave I heard a clap I turn to see who it was and killer face bastard! is he mocking me!? ha but one clap turns to more and more soon everyone was clapping some even stood now I feel a little embarrassed " ladies and gentlemen give around applause to han so-yeon for her amazing performance" wait did I do well?...I feel someone making a hole in the back of my head.. why is killer face staring at Me what ? are you shock I have talents "thank you everyone and I hope everyone enjoys their night thank you " oof finally it was nothing but nerve-racking "nice performance " I know that voice I slowly turn my head " killer face bastard! what are you doing here ?" "I came looking for you and why do you keep calling me 'killer face bastard ' what does that even mean it sounds offensive " "...you don't need to know any way why are you looking for me " '..you have talent I want to recruit you " " huh what like into a gang or? " " no sigh my name is yoon chan-sung CEO of GY entertainment right now i am in need of a trainee and I see you have potential so I want you to audition " "HUH?" what is he spouting?