It's March 14 2023 my birthday and the day my mom died. I'm all alone in a cold world where no gives two SHITS ABOUT ME not my dad or anyone else In this stupid family. They think I'm crazy mental weird. But they have to do me right because at the end of the day I'm the only heir to take over the stupid *** family business that's all they care About they are so fucking selfish. The only person whocared about me was my mom but now I lost her and nobody not even one friend.

They only try to get close to me for my money and all the boys go around saying " she's hot only if she wasn't a psycho" like I'm some dam ***** they can just play with. Why did my mom have to die and I'm stuck in this horrible place where I get treated like shit every day. Lonely with no one why couldn't you take my life instead why was it not me I just wanna be loved but nobody can see that nobody could love me for who I truly am. WHY ME!

I tried to commit sucide more than Eight times but every time I try something tells me to stop and keep living but I just can't keep living like this so today this is the end. I head to my dads company and I tell his secretary to give him this letter it's from me "May" she nods and leaves then I head upstairs before my bodyguards notice me leaving. I finally reach the roof top I drop my bags and climb over the railing and sit I take a deep breath this is it finally. I take a hand of the bar and that's when I stopped my other hand just couldn't move of the bar it was like stuck why can't I just end it why can't I just die like come the **** on already let go of the dam bar I keep struggling it like my body is not listening at all I cry. Tears dripping down my face like shards of diamonds why can't I do it why are you stopping me. Shit shit shit shit. I'm really pissed of I knew that my bodyguards where gonna find me and then I will never have the chance to really end my life I'll be stuck in a eternal hell why am I getting punished.

My foot slips and I fall finally but will falling I don't know why but my hand was still attached to the bar and I'm hanging I'm so close I'm so close. Why DAM IT! My arm goes numb after 5 minutes of hanging their are people looking at me from the ground calling police my dad looks worried but it just an act I feel like my arm is finally giving up I'm not gonna exist finally

that's when he came and stopped me from making the biggest mistake in my life is he my HOPE!