I was 4 years old at that time ..I was playing with my  robot,his name was pilpil...it was my favourite toy..whoever wants to touch it i just get angry at them..i was a kid at that time but still i can remember the first day i saw her.

it was my aunt who gave a small day care in our house..i used to stay alone from other kids cause i hate them when they tries to touch my favourite stuffs..at that time a young lady came with a kid..bright smile on her face.I just kept looking at  that girl on her lab...and then she gave her child to my aunt and left...i saw my aunt was looking at her with a smile and she was also happy...my aunt was going to make something for her..cause she was hungry and started crying loudly when she got to realize that her mother left..

so my aunt put her down beside me and was going to find her baby bag for feeder.She looked at me with a crying face...

i felt bad when i saw someone crying for the first time..and suddenly she looked at my toy..she touched my pilpil,i shouted saying No!! she got scared and started crying more loudly after that i gave her my pilpil...at least she was happy after that she was enjoying playing with my pilpil..the way i love to play with my pilpil she also loved it..when i looked at other girl kids,i saw most of them where interested in barbie dolls and princess toy..but she was different..she gets attracted to whatever i like...so,you may say she was my first friend..i thought i will never have one because of my behaviour but she always accepted me the way i was..i started playing with her..we both were happy.

FEW MINUTES LATER,,,

my aunt came and when she saw her with me she was a lot shocked cause she never saw me playing with other kids...i was a little bit sick and abnormal from other kids..no one used to talk with me that much..but she did..my aunt was so happy...even when my toys gets broken because of her i dont mind...she was friendly.After having such beautiful moments her mother came and took her...and while leaving my aunt told her mother to take her at our house everyday cause my aunt thought that i can be a normal child again if i spend much time with her..but her mother refused...before going we hugged each other tightly..cause it was a symbol of our friendship...she didnt wanted to go..but her mother took her..

after 3 days,,,

my aunt was trying to feed me but i wasnt eatting anything cause from my childhood i was a lot stubborn..i kept looking at the door waitting for my friend..when she arrives..but my aunt was trying to make me watch cartoons so that i can forget about her..but with each passing days i was becoming more and more sick...and it was night my aunt was sleeping i got a page in front of me and some colours,,i started drawing..when my aunt woke up in the morning she saw that two kids playing together in that drawing,and she was surprised that how i did it ..then she called her mom saying that she has to come..her mom came and she told her about me that im not like other kids..i have some mental sickness..and tried to convince her by saying that after my mother died there was no one to take care of me ...my father has to take care of many business in CHINA..so,my special demands as a child wasnt fulfiled due to lack of motherly care..i used to stay quite...i coundnt even talk...cause my dad didnt spended much time for me...i was always grown up by servants and there was more than 3 servents in our house to take care of me but still i wasnt happy with it....they didnt even cared about me much....

after listening to all this insidents her mom finally agreed...she used to come everyday after then..seeing her with me a smile filled with happiness used to come from my face...i started laughing loudly for the first time when she was crying again for playing with my pilpil...and i was becoming a normal child slowly..my aunt used to notice it every single time..

we even used to fight together...fighting is also a part of friendship..and when this friendship with turn into a LOVE we never knew about it.....

we were growing up together,,,we used to play together everyday..staying with me she never had any friends...we both were so close that we didnt needed anyone else...and we were quite same in habbits and all...she started wearing my clothes,,she started playing with my toys,,she started watching boys cartoon with me..it was like she changed herself completely because of me...sometimes even though i felt like she was a boy..we were like buddies very close..those beautiful and every single moments are precious for me..cant just forget about it..others used to tease her because of me by saying that she is a boy when we grow up...they used to call us gays..but i really dont care about what others think about me but my shy cupcake is a lot emotional...she cries every times because of these small facts..it is a lot easy to make her cry..

i told her that dont talk with me..i didnt wanted to but she was turning into similar character like me..but she cant stop playing with me neither do i...?

our days were passing so beautifully,,we also got admitted in the same school..we both used to help each other in everything like studies and sports..she was in boys school for me..only a few girls were present in our class..there was 2 group sports classified for girls and boys....girls had sports like pillow passing and all that girly stuff which was the opposite of her character because she never played anything like that..she loses all the time cause she used to play what i wanted her to...

In other hand,,we were playing basket ball,cricket,football,tennis ,volleyball and all...she was interested to play with me but there were 2 different groups...we left for break time and our coach saw her playing football better than boys...she even defeated me..i was playing with her to spend time so that she dosent feels bad...and our coach came saying that" hey boy! where did you leant playing all that?  she was silant...and he started to praise her...she was blushing as always and hidding her blushy face behind my back...she wispered in my ears by touching my shoulder saying that "tell him that i,m a girl!

i started laughing loudly...and our coach was asking me that why are you laughing? i told him that she is a girl?

he said,ok..sorry dear...she smiled..the sweet baby smile on her face..i cant forget about it..just sharing my feelings with you guys..i know you guys must be bored.Anyway,,.so,,he started to train my shy cupcake specially..other girls were too jellous when they saw her...and some were also encouraging her...and this is how we were growing up slowly..

you wont even notice how time passes so fast...but we were happy together..she used to share every single things with me..she is a lot talkative but it dosent disturbs me at all cause i love listening to every single things from her..whether it is important or not i dont care...sometimes she keeps talking so much that i get lost looking at her eyes...i dont know what she is saying but still i keep looking at her nodding my head...thinking that dosent she gets tired...pfft..i put a chocholate on her mouth and she stops talking...when she eats all chocholates she also takes mine,,hehe...whatever belongs to me is always for her...i want to give her the chocholate but still i keep telling her that it is mine...to make her angry...her cheeks gets red as well as her eyes gets big,,hehehe..and at last she starts showing her cute eyes with some drops of tears which will be falling if i dont gave her..awwn,so cute!! she knows i cant watch her crying so i gave it to her always and she starts licking with her tougue..pfft...i love seeing her eating chocholates..

this is how our days were passing every moment was beautiful...and i coudnt even talk as i said but staying with her finally i started talking.my aunt was happy.i even learnt her name.we started spending more times with each other.Unexpectedly,she became the medicine of my illness..we both became addicted to each other.we cant even spent a single moments without fighting ...hehe

AFTER SOME YEARS,,we came in high school...(junior students)

my shy cupcake was too much excited to be in our new school..there were music,dance,sports and physical excercise classes........our classroom was amazing..nicely decorated.There were other kids also in our classroom.They were old students ,i guess..we were new that's why they were asking a lot of questions.

After we reached home,,we were only talking about our schools......next day will be our first day at new high school.

In the morning we both woke up together..as her mom was with her dad in village for some important works .so,my aunt agreed to take care of her...

IN THE MORNING,,

shy cupcake(misha):Wake up!!~

me:Go away!

shy cupcake(misha):WhAt?? did you forgot about our school...

me:i,m sleepy...lemme sleep..

shy cupcake(misha):(holding my ears tightly with her fingers and pushing me angrily)get up lazy sleeping all day...

me:ouch##*..ok okay...off~

she was going to washroom,,and brushed her tooths and had her breakfast..she was completely ready for school.she was so excited that she forgot about me ...while leaving with her cycle she remembered about me..she came running towards my bedroom and saw that i was sleeping again..(Z Z ZZ~~~)

shy cupcake(misha): kUnIIIII???***(screamed loudly)

me:ehhh?

shy cupcake(misha):your getting me late ...only because of you idiot.(taking the pillow and throwed it on the floor,started taking the blanket from my body.)i,m  turning the AC on..hehe..

me:NOOO? its too cold..

shy cupcake(misha):NO more excuses..go nah..

she was pushing me with her hands at my back..and was telling me "go brush your teeth...it smells yuck...'

get ready...so late!

AFTER SOME MINUTES ,,i came out of my room and she was looking at me by saying that you take thousand times more than a girl for getting ready..i was laughing after that..

let,s go! my aunt told me that her mother gave her the responsibility to take care of her..so,i cant let you to go alone..he will drive you to school..

Driver uncle:ok kids ,get in the car..

me:what? i wanted to go alone with my cupcake..

shy cupcake:it,s alright!!(happy smile)

me:boringgg!

he told us to wear bealts but i wasnt paying attention to him,not at all...so,cupcake was helping me to wear seatbelts..(her head in front of face and the sweet frangrance of her hair which was roaming around my nose).i saw that she was trying but she was unable to help me to wear it...when i touched her hands by saying that it,s ok..I'll wear it..no need..she said ok..after that i told her(while playing with her hair with my fingers)your hair gives me a sense of pinkish flavour...(hesitating)   ohh gosh!!  after that i cant explain how much shy she was..with such small matters she always gets blushed..it is too confusing for me to understand what's on her mind?  she wasnt even looking at me ..she was just looking down ..and she was playing with her hair with two fingers..

those cute lilttle eyes wanted to say something to me......when she was about to say something and we were coming closer again that disturbing uncle started saying that we reached school..go fast...have a great time...

me:so annoying....hmph**

shy cupcake(misha):yayy,,,we are here?

we entered our class and we gave our intro..everyone was nice and good,friendly type  but some were also annoying as always...we were going to sit while a girl just said to her that this sit is only for girls better sit down at last(that girl removed the chair and she was going to fall but she was holding the bench tightly so she wasn't hurt..when i saw that i was a lot angry that it's her first day why is she being so rude to my shy cupcake..i wanted to teach her a lesson at that time but i didn't cause teacher was present...and he scoulded her for creating such a mess...and then we sitted at the same bench...near the window..

i was starring at her the whole class...the only thing which was going on my mind was about her...i kept looking at her..she was blushing a lot ...and this is how our days were passing...we used to go home together and i used to pick her up from her house...

our teacher declared that exam will be startting from next month and we will get in higher grades..i just cant wait to be 20..pfft..she asked me while i was thinking  all this ...

shy cupcake(misha):hey!! are you lost in your dreamy thoughts again..??

me:no,i was just planning about my future..

shy cupcake(misha):oh yeah...your makking me laugh..

1 MONTH LEFT,,and our exam day came ..

at exam,,i was solving my math equations while cupcake was looking at my copy..(pinching me with her fingers at my back)show me..

me:ok ok,,lemmi cheak at first..

when others saw that we completed the exam nicely and we helped each other a lot...

students:how was your exam?

we both answered together by nodding our head yes,,it was great..what about you?

they also said it was nice...

i came back to my home and when i was changing my clothes i was looking at the back of my shirt...and i started laughing cause it was filled with more than 10 pen marks which must be her work(cupcake)

EXAM result day,,,

i got less marks than my cupcake in exam results,,,she got an average marks but i was below average,,i,m not that good in studies to be honest..she even cries for increasing 1 mark..and after seeing her crying a lot even teachers feel pity for her and increases her marks and she becomes happy..i'm so jealous...she has an extraordinary talent of making someone emotional towards her..

We got promoted to grade 3..and we were so happy..and sheoften used to come to my house..i used to solve her problems...we were becoming more and more close with the passing of time..we never noticed that..while she gets to know that any other girls are in my house..she get's a lot angry..i dont know why? she is not even my girlfriend but still she used to get angry and i always felt that is it ok to bring someone else in her absence...we never told each other that we love "each other"..but still i used to see her something more than my friend...she was more interested me in that time....this is how we were getting in upper grades..

the sweetness of her lips...pink smile on her face ..a baby girl..red and blushed cheeks...Dazzling eyes...with that cute look on her face...love and affection towards me..DARK black hair(shinny)she had such a long hair ...the most attractive smell comming from her ..everywhere from her body...holding her hands walking down on streats..it feels like birds singing in my ears....(background music)..whenever i remember about those days tears starts rolling down from my eyes cause the my cupcake whom i used to love so much is lost ..she only exists in my thoughts..cause she dosent love me anymore...

now it feels like blossoms are dying ,,birds are crying..those dazzling eyes are now blind in front of me.and those red cheeks blushes but for someone else not me...and the sweetness of her lips exists but for someone else to taste..the smiley face is now dark as night...those long and silky hair are not here anymore..i felt like things only changes with time but feelings also gets changed,i guess...

so if you fell in love with someone dont forget you will have to suffer a lot,,,later or now...hehe.!!

AFTER WORKING HARD,,,we got the tag of senior at last..it was a amazing day....some of the students were arranging a picnic .they wanted to have a little space along for some time..they made a list.they wrote my name  at the list . While i was going home i didnt saw my shy cupcake i was finding her..it was more than 30 minutes...she never goes home without me.i was so worried about her..i was just hoping that nothing should go wrong with her..my aunt will kill me if anything happens to her,not just that i wont forgive myself also if anything goes wrong..i serched the whole school..not even a single place was left where i didnt searched..i was asking everyone..and at last i started having the feeling of crying..i slipped(bumpph).

i felt like someone touched my back,i looked back.it was a girl(looking at my eyes)

she was asking me  what's wrong?

i told her that i lost my shy cupcake..she answered who is that?

i replied,,she is someone precious to me!!

she gave a sad look by saying that oh,i see...so it must be a girl..   y..you  l i k e  h..her nah..(sad look)

me: I...,,nope!!(lied)

she:oh ok,,,dont cry...i just think she must be with other guys...(giving a fake smile)i,m with you now..dont cry...(trying to show her sympathy towards me)

me:NO!! you have been mistaken..she is not like that..

i looked at her shoulder..i saw her name as all students have it..she was my senior..after sometimes she grabbed my tie and was about to pull it by saying that come along with me..i just have something to show you...

me:ahh!! hey,leave it..i cant breath...she came face to face closer to my lips..i really wasn't able to breath...and at that time i saw cupcake coming with a angry face....before she see's me with her in this way i have to do something...before i could stop her cupcake came and she was standing like a pillar...

she was  blanked..she didn't know what to do? that girl when saw me looking at her back..she looked back and saw cupcake..Cupcake moved her head at the right side and she was walking away.she pretended like she dosen't even knows me..she didn't even looked at me the second time...she was holding the cycle and was making noice with the bell of the cycle very harshly...so that girl asked me "why are  you looking at that boy?" i said WHAT??? she is a girl..

she:but she dosent look like one....huh?

she dosen't have to use artificial make ups or she dosen't needs girly dress to prove that she is a girl,alright.. it dosen't suits her...

she:looks like there is attitude filled inside you..i'll break it,pfft...i,m jemmi...

me:yeah..y.yeah..!

i was looking at cupcake i don't know why i felt like she was jealous...so,i was telling that girl that it was nice to meet you..your such a sweet girl..she smiled and she was also responding to my comments about her..but there was someone else who was my cupcake she was burning inside a lot...hehe...at last cupcake lost her patients..i was just waitting for the moment when the cat fight among ladies will start..

Cupcake came and that girl stopped laughing and we both were looking at her...

shy cupcake(misha):ArE wE GoING hoME???(angry voice)

jemmi:look who's here ? hi,,,(creepy smile )

shy cupcake(misha):bye!(fake smile)

me:i...i,m coming..

jemmi : why are you lisening to her anyway??

me:to save my life cause i don't wanna die in a early age...by her hands,lol

jemmi:Are you two gay?do you love each other?

me:Are you crazy? she is a girl and my friend..get away...off##

jemmi:whatever!

shy cupcake(misha):i,m waitting.....kuniiiii??

i was walking straight with my cupcake.we were going with a cycle...she was holding my shoulder...i was riding her bicycle...as always she wasn't holding me with her two soft hands on my belly..i stopped with a hardbreak and then she grabbed me tightly with her two hands from back and she shouted...'heyyy!!! why did you stopped...what if i get injured..i didn't even utter a word in front of her..i felt like all her frustrations and madness which was troblling her is coming out when she started shouting at me in front of all at the middle of road...after scoulding me a lot when she got to realize that i wasn't saying anything she just stopped.

Anything else you wanna say my dear cupcake....(with a gentle face)

shy cupcake(misha):nah...i don't wanna talk with you...(shy)

me:so you wont even look at me right,fine..i don't care.your wish...

shy cupcake(misha):i,,,,what were you two talking about without me??

me:so,that is why your so jealous,i see...we were gossiping you know...she was so sweet,hehe(wuww,it's ahh,,working...look at her face)

shy cupcake(misha):ehh??  i,m not jealous you get it....i was just asking..do whatever you two want..why would i care..(fake smile)

me:sure,,,as you wish!!hehe

i was going home after that as soon as possible cause already it was too late....after reaching home i saw her hands were injured she was just hiding and when i asked her she just avoided me...

shy cupcake(misha):why would you care about me ?

me:who did this to you?

shy cupcake(misha):it,s fine i just got hurt while running..

me:you should be a little bit carefull about yourself...give me your hand...

i grabbed her hands and i saw that it wasn't a normal injury..i felt like someone just hitted on her hand...

me:are you sure that it,s because of running and you fell down or someone just twisted your hand...you can tell me..look girl if you dont tell me about it i cant help...

shy cupcake(misha):Actually i had a fight so i got late....

 me:wHaT??? with whom? and why?

after that she didnt even said a word she was going towards washroom....and just closed the door in front of me with a loud noise....i dont know what,s wrong with her all of a sudden?? she wasn't responding...even now i don't have any idea why she behaved like that at that time...

AFTER  SOME MINUTES,,,she came out of  bathroom...i was just reading a book which was interesting to me..it was historical..the story of SIRAJJUD DAULA...the GREAT SULTAN..

i saw her drying her hair with a towel..she was looking so cute with her wet hair and the natural pink lips with a sweet smile and a serious look which was reflecting back on my eyes..i told her that \,it's mine....she said \,fool whatever is yours is mine and whatever is mine is yours...so i don't think it's a big deal cause the book your reading is mine\,hmph..***

me:why are you taking my words so seriously...i was just joking..you can use it..tell me what is trobling you..you look quite upset today...(i tood up from sofa and i was standing in front of her)are you gonna tell me or what?

shy cupcake(misha):i ..i joined girls guide..and a girl was teaching my friend how to give scout salute but she was wrong in teaching when i told her the right way she got upset and just cut my name from that list i,m so angry...i didn't know what to do so i complained to our coach he scoulded her after that she just grabbed my hands and pullled me to ground with a flip..so,i slipped..

me:you ok now!! i want to know her name....

shy cupcake(misha):dont involve yourself amoung girls ok...it's fine i can deal with it later...

me:are you sure about that?(hot temper)

shy cupcake(misha):i really dont know...

after that i tried to make her laugh....we had our dinner at night..and then we were watching a movie together...she was feeling sleepy cause it was late hours of night....we both were watching a movie of jakie chan...her favourite actor when she was a child..it was quite funny...she was laughing loudly...and pausing the video she was explaining me everything line to line just like a child ...i wasn't watching the movie at all cause there is someone beside me who is more funny and interesting to me than that movie..and i don,t know when i also feel asleep...after sometimes when i felt like someone was moving near my shoulder ...i opened my eyes and i saw that she was asleeped..i was about to turn off my pc...and i saw that she grabbed my hands tightly cause she was feeling cold..i touched her forehead with my two fingers and i felt that she wasn't feeling well..is she sick? i just turned off the AC...and i removed her hand slowly..she was openning her eyes slowly and then she was asking me that are you going?

i said,yes!!

shy supcake(misha):i,m thirsty!!

me:ok,,wait..i,m coming..

shy cupcake(misha):give me a glass of water please..

me:sure

I was going to give her a glass of water and i saw that she was in deep sleep again so i opened her mouth by holding her cheeks and she dranked the water...after that i was leaving but i didn't wanted to i wish to stay with her the whole night...i gave her a blanket on her body cause it was too cold and i know she has allergies ....i was about to touch her hair with my hands and at that time i heard someone coming towards my room(footsteps)

someone opened the door and i saw my elder brother asking me what are you doing in her room??

me:i...?

brother:yes!

me: your asking me?

brother:yes you?

me:eh? I was just came here to check that she is ....

brother:she what?

me: cant explain..but it,s not what your thinking so..

brother:so...what are you saying? dont make me confused...talk straightly....you like her than you should tell her..why are you hesitating?(with a annoying face)

me:who said that?

brother:look at your face in the mirror...your blushing a lot and when i asked you this question you became angry at me what does it mean..ask yourself..i won't interrupt in your personal matters but still i want your best and dont take advantage of a girl while she is sleeping...

what are you saying bro?i was just looking at her..she is looking so beautiful na while taking deep breath when she is in sleep..

brother:man,,have you gone crazy in love? STUPID...dont get involved so fast...and listen up,,,she knows you as her friend but she treats you as her brother so she dosen't feels uncomfortable while you touch her or look at her cause she things you think the same but just think a little bit opposite that if she get,s to know what's on your mind will she love you anymore?? she won't so just be her friend don"t expect much from girls cause all are same in a way.if you fall for her later you will get hurt im warning you...cause i,m experianced in this matters..

me:your right,but she is different from others...

brother:hey kid,,your still a child so pay concentration on your studies....don't waste your time on impressing her she is too classy and shy...not your type...you,ll get someone more better than her if you pay attention on your studies get it..(laughing)pfft...

maybe i should listen to you...i will try to forget about the feelings that i have for her inside my mind for years..i can't but i will try ok..my brother left by saying that WHATEVER??i really dont care...kidz nowadays fall in love ,,seriously..pfft

me:hey!!! who are you calling a kid...your just 4 years elder than me..dont act smart..heh?

so,,,i was going to my room and i was hugging my pillow while i was trying to sleep my brother came behind and was making me understand that your not enough matured to fall for her..try to understand...and the whole night he was lecturing me....trying to be an ideal brother huh? Anyway he was apsolutely right..and i accepted what he said...i don't know when i  fell asleep my brother kissed me at my cheek by saying that i hope the gost of love gets out of your brain.....pfft...my brother cares about me more than my father....after mom left...i,m just unlucky cause my mom died when i was born...my father has to take care of many important works of his office and all.he is always busy with himself..i feel like i was left alone..only cupcake was there with me the only one who loved me!!