Life goes on. With or without people attached to you. But learning and facing the facts that you can't actually compromise that you can still live your life without him is actually destructive. Like a finished canvas with black paint splattered on it. Cannot be undone and cannot be fixed. I still couldn’t comprehen as to why he’s giving up.

I held under my breath as a scheming gasp got out of my mouth as I tried to stifle my sobs. I can't deal with it, it hurts so much. I stood there in front of him, lifeless. I watched as how he begged me to let go of him, to break up with him. It hurts so much knowing that he can't be with me anymore. It feels like he's pushing me away, like I disgust him. He’s got some courage pushing me away when our memories didn’t even bother him. He gave up that easily.

"Do you really wanna separate, Rehan?" I said to him, face-front with no emotions. Looking deep into those black-hooded eyes I used to love to look at, trying to find an emotion that still wants me, but I was wrong. Not one bit of emotion in his eyes, just pain and desperation. He's really determined huh?

He nodded, looking desperately. I got the point that he is serious.

“Is there someone else?” A question that I badly want him to say 'no'.

“You know that I don’t take any interest on others. You’re the only one, Roe. Just you.” Determined answer he gave me.

"Then why the hell are you so determined to separate?!" I shouted at the top of my lungs. Hell, it hurts so much. I loved and cared for him. I have done nothing wrong to hurt him.

He didn't utter a single word. A simple word that I want, a word that my wounded soul begged to hear that could cover up the whole freakin' situation I'm in, be it 'sorry'. A simple apology is enough for me, is enough for the pain that lingered within me. There's nothing else that could make him stay.

"What, Rehan? What's the hurtful reason why you want to let go of me?!" I said.

"I can't take it anymore, Monroe. Just let go. I've had enough." He said to me wholeheartedly. Eyes filled with certainty.

"Do you still love me?” I said with contradiction.

"I s-still do, Roe. But I've had enough, it's suffocating me, Roe. You're suffocating me." He said with a finale of emotion. That emotion, it's blissing with uncertainty yet with solemn truth. I looked and touched the wedding and engagement rings he gave me from the very first day he said 'I love you'. Rings filled with gushing memories of contentment and gaiety.

"My love? My love and affection is suffocating you?" He looked at me tearly. Teardrops streaming down his face.

"Fine." I said with with validation.

I took off the rings he gave me. I gave it back to him with a smile etched on my face. Tears gushing out of my eyes as I stared at him. Longing for him to say 'stop'. I took his hands and put the rings in there and closely shut it. Intentionally, to let him know that I gave up too.

"Give the rings to somebody else, I don't want it anymore. It'll just hurt me." I said to him.

"No, Monroe. This is yours. I gave it to you!" He said while forcefully giving it back to me.

"I don’t need it anymore, Rehan. I don't have a promise to hold or to follow anymore." I said as I forcefully gave it him. I give up, too.

"Just leave me alone, Rehan." I said before I left him, crying in his marbled floors.

Hell, this is really happening. I can't handle the pain I'm feeling. I can't bear to go on. I stopped near the doorstep, I looked at him, one last time.

I love you and I'll miss you.

"I agreed to leave you because I also need to find myself from this suffocating love of ours. But the wrong part about you is that you gave up on our relationship. You gave up on me. While I-I...hell, I still stayed and fought because I love you more than compared to anything." Eyes glistening with tears now.

"I'll send the annulment papers with my signature. I don't want your surname anymore." I said one last time before welcoming a life I'm forced without him.

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This is my first written story ever! I do not like judgments. So pls be a dear and just read. I like typical genres. That's it so yea.