It was evening and I had come to meet him. It wasn't easy as I was just 17 and parents wouldn't allow for a single girl to move as she please, so I had to give an excuse that I was going to my friend's home to watch anime with her. Although I had a hard time convincing them, I finally managed to get their consent.

I had a crazy adrenaline rush in my body even before I left home. I was wondering if he felt the same as me or maybe more desperate. I was wondering how he would react when he would first look at me. I was wondering how time would feel like, slipping away like sand in my hand or frozen in front of my eyes? I was so indulged in daydreaming that I couldn't pay any attention to my surroundings- due to which I gave my ankle a good twist that I could barely stand still.

It was about time to leave for my friend's home. She lived at just the next colony so it was easier for me as I could just walk there in no time. She was my weeb girl who would never back off whenever I needed her by my side. She was my potion. She was my only true friend that I made in this life. I'll never forget her.

As I was walking along the footpath, my heart was racing like a horse in racecourse. Every single thought fueled my heart to beat faster and faster than ever. I was conscious of where I was going but I wasn't really paying attention to anything happening or passing by me. I finally managed to reach her house with my twisted ankle.

I called him. He was almost here. I just had to distract myself for a few more minutes. I had to keep myself together. Every second, this time around, felt like slipping sand in my hand; I didn't knew how quickly it passed, it was already half hour at her home now. He finally called. I skipped a beat. And another. She brought me back to reality by shaking me off the chair, yeah. I picked up his call. He told me to start walking straight out of her house and that I'd find him sitting in a white car, waiting for me. And toot. Call ended. My heart skipped another beat.

I brought myself together and took my leave. I started walking as he instructed. I saw not one, not two but three white cars parked side by side. Now I didn't have clairvoyance sight to know in which car he was in. I had to call. I finally called. He picked and blew air into the microphone. Okay. What's next? My reaction? Yeah. He wanted me to have my heart beating up in my throat so that he can have a taste of it. Yeah. Stop. I wanted to squat down and make myself invisible somehow. Although nothing from my wishful thoughts happened.

He continued after a pause. He said he'd bring the car right in front of me and I will have to hop on so that we could go somewhere else. Obviously, I didn't wanted to get caught by my parents at the first meeting with my love.

He came. He did.

I just stopped breathing. I really did. I just hopped in his car. He wasn't the one driving. Now, the first thought was that did he just saw every single reaction of mine while on call with him rather than taking a good look at him.

It was almost everyday that we talked and had plenty of explicit video chats. But I never could realize that he had such a good face complexion. I was, for sometime, so lost when I first looked at him. It was as if he captivated me with his eyes. It felt so calm and perplexed at the same time. He was both stunning and messed. I just couldn't believe myself for I had fell rock hard in love with the perfect person in this whole world. He was so authentic and lovely that I was tempted for a moment to touch him and pull him towards me.

Alas, reality is always cruel. Moments were long enough to seem like a day and everything worked in those moments, so vivid and perfect. Now, I was back to my nervous state after all the admiration. I can only say that I almost had my heart kicking out of my chest. I couldn't control myself anymore, no chance. I did lost my senses, for real and for the first time in my life. I shivered. I did the most stupid mistake of my life- I didn't take my eyes off of him, not even for a single moment! How idiotic! But I couldn't help it either. I loved that guy. I had loved him for 3 long years and for worse, I didn't knew it myself. Wasn't I too lucky to be offered such a great gift of love?

All of this didn't mattered really at that time back then. I was just so lost, only in his eyes. They were so deep and wanted to tell me, conquer me, explain to me every pain they have encountered yet. They granted only to me this vision. I could see everything at once. I couldn't pay attention, and when I said I lost my senses, I meant that I couldn't get a hold of anything that happened in my surrounding, not even the voices were to be heard. It was just these two pair of eyes which didn't wanted to let go off of each other. And were eager enough that if allowed, they would just cry and still be happy.

Well, he took the initiative to speak. Someone had to! I could feel the excitement and nervousness both in his voice. He said as his friend on steering wheel drove us to a some certain place on this Earth to let us talk alone,"so,... where should we go?". No, this wasn't right! I mean I was hell afraid of speaking for the first time in my life. (NOTE: whatever next will happen, it was all my first time in life, and needless to say, something brand new happened every time I met him.)

I mentioned about time being sand slipping away from my hands and frozen in front of my eyes.

The moment when I first met him and had our eyes met, the time was frozen like the topmost layer of ice formed in a lake. I couldn't do anything. Believe me, experiences like these will make you loose track of every other thing in your life.

After that brief moment, time was slipping away like a Bull running frenzy! He and his friend had fixated their eyes on me for road guidelines, but have mercy! I was yelling in my mind with my tactical voice that I am a little girl of 17 and you two rogues are 28, where exactly is your conscience? Don't you know how to treat a flustered-in-love girl? Don't tell me that you are newbies!

My, my.

In my entire life till that time, I had never blurted or gestured or stuttered in front of anyone. But you know, a moment comes when you have to become the damsel in distress! And so was I at that time.

I still had my eyes fixated on him for he was my love and my love loved me back. In short, I was still occupied by his eyes and even felt like I wanna be in that space for the rest of my life! After all, who wouldn't want calmness, happiness and peace altogether to embrace every single moment of their life?

This wasn't all that went through my mind, of course. But I had to snap out of this space and get back to reality to guide the newbies to a corner, unnoticed by people. Hence, I tried to think about the roads and guess what, I was thinking of going for a long drive with him! No, this wasn't all. I was thinking of all the other exotic things which he and I could do while we would stop for a drink or two.

No, no, brain. Get back to the freaking reality and give the damned human some instructions!

"Alright. Go straight and take a left at the end of this road.", I said, much more like stuttering and babbling. You have to note that this was the first time that he heard my voice in real life. Although I didn't revert back to my imagination space that moment but soon enough it was about to happen and keep on recurring. I guess it was his turn to speak something and break the overly warmed ice, but he seemed lost. So, now it was him who spaced out to imagine some crazy things. His friend spoke,"Which turn? This one or the next?" I was gave myself a pat on my head to cool down and stop myself from slapping him out of the car. For sure, he was the biggest idiot in this world who didn't knew how to simply follow some most basic instructions. I wondered how did he manage to drive here with the help of something so complex as Google Maps, damn.

So, I replied calmly,"The next one, can't you see? I clearly said the last one" He replied so simply,"There are so many of them, no? So, please specify them." I couldn't bring myself to slap him yet as he was the one driving. I wanted to ask first whether he even heard what I said or not but I restrained myself because if I did ask him, the stupid dumbass would start talking about it and forget that he was driving and might even hit someone and get us a lifetime imprisonment in jail. So, as smart as I am, I just said,"Just keep on driving. I'll tell you when the turn comes. Got it?" He replied,"Okay, okay."

Now, I could finally drift back into my thoughts. But no, how could I?? What if my love asks me something and I just inadvertently don't hear it? I will surely be doomed. He won't talk to me. He won't even look at me. He'll start despising me. He might even think that I was thinking about his friend. Oh come on! stop it!.....

You see? I didn't want to space out but I actually did. That's how stupid I am.

Ignoring the other unworthy details and an idiotic presence, I just wanted to hold him in my arms and never let go off of him. I wanted him to stay with me here for a few days. I wanted to touch him and let myself believe that it was really true and happening to me. I wanted to let him know that I am his, both physically and mentally. I just wanted to do everything with him. I had always been fantasizing things in my mind with him but now it was all in real and I wanted them to happen all in a single moment. I was stupid, but I was in love and every other person fallen in true love is adorably stupid.