Suddenly I opened my eyes. I was back to reality. I still couldn't believe what had happened. There were many questions storming my brain but the first thing I did was get up and looked into my mirror. I was injured. I had bruises all over my body. Some scratches and my knees had dried blood. My clothes were all ripped and dirty. How could it have happened? It was all a dream. I have always lived these nightmares but for the first time it was real. I went there. I witnessed it. I felt it. I lived it. I went into the ABYSS.

I started having these dreams for when I was 13. I remembered that day my parents were fighting and I cried myself to sleep. I was never a person who would let out everything on table. I was always the person with smile on my face. I liked it though but I was a complete different person when I was alone but I guess that was the real me. I was always surrounded by friends because I had a bright personality I never had any enemies. But one the curtains closed I was alone. I have always been. I only let people know me how much I wanted them to. I kept them at a safe distance. Not to long not to close. I thought this was best for me which had turned out to be the best. I never had any one but then it happened or rather "he" happened and turned my life upside down and then I fell straight in Abyss and kept falling deeper and deeper and who would have thought I found my home in this void, Abyss.

But will my life get better? Can I really find a reason to live. A purpose, a motive to let go of all my grief and be happy. Find my true happiness. But the question the arises first in my mind is Do I really deserve this? Deserve to be happy. I had always thought that sorrow can never harm the heartless. I was fine even though I wasn't happy but I was also never sad. I had a neutral attitude and had always kept myself calm and collected in all situations. I excelled in all the work I did. Singing, Dancing, Acting, Storytelling, Sports and academics there was never a thing that I couldn't do but still I couldn't find my passion.

Ultimately I decided to let go of everything and just focus on academics.

I had a plan in my mind find which I had to follow. I would only focus on my studies and keep an average score. Be neutral to everyone and never be in spotlight to avoid unnecessary problems. Given my personality I never had to worry about dating it was out of question. I could never trust anyone. Even my shadow. After I graduate I will get a stable job in a company and then later livey life peacefully. This was what it was supposed to happen. But my life took a unexpected turn. The day I fell. Hard.

I was 13 when I had this dream for the first time. I remember suddenly feeling something soft and fresh. I opened my eyes slowly and scanned the area nearby. There were beautiful and glowing trees which were completely covered with blooming flowers. There was a very enchanting aroma of Citrus and rosewood which was filling throughout the environment. It had a small pond which was filled by crystal clear water so clear that it was transparent as glass and resembled a mine of sapphires.

I was thirsty so I went to drink some water from the pond. I reached my hands but to my surprise the water moved. Shoked by this I tried it several times but failed. I saw a tree which was baring some fruits but the same thing happened again. Later I found out that all the factors in this space weren't allowing me. There was some kind of Barrier between us. Maybe because I wasn't from this world so I finally gave up. The only thing I could do was be on the ground and sit around. As soon as I touch anything it would change it shape as if they had their own thoughts.

I started to wander off and found myself on the top of the mountain. The view was breath taking. Cold wind blew on the top of the mountain I could feel the breeze on my face It felt refreshing. When was the last time that I felt so fresh? I felt alive. I really liked this place, a place in middle of nowhere where it was only me. I didn't have to pretend or try to be "perfect". An environment which didn't demand anything from me nor I have to meet anyone's expectations. A place where I can actually breath.

I sat for some time there but it was getting dark. I went to the pond again bit there was something off. The pleasent environment earlier suddenly became cold. Even the pond had become still as if the water was freezed.

I heard something rustling and suddenly became alert. But deep down I had a thought that I knew my paradise wouldn't last forever. It never did. Happiness always comes with a price.

I slowly started to move then I remembered that I can't touch anything her so I only had one option left:To hide. I was calculating the possibility on the back of my head of what could it be. It certainly was not the wind, maybe some animal, but what if the animal was dangerous? I was horrified. I tried to take a glance but nothing was visible because of the darkness. Moonlight was the only source of brightness. After a few minutes I mustered up the courage and started walking in the direction from which the sound come. Slowly and quietly I made my movements. Suddenly I saw something glowing and almost went blind from the brightness. I tried to open my eyes but only saw a fade shadow walking towards me.

The shadow was of a lady. She had the whole environment shining. There appeared to a halo surrounding her. She literally looked like an angel. That's when it hit me, "Am I actually dead? Is this some afterlife?". But I was confident that I wasn't dead because there was no way that I would have been ended up in heaven. No offense but I was really a hell type of person even as a kid. Heaven is boring.

The lady was observing me very closely as if she was trying to figure out something. After

few moments she moved her hand and placed it on my cheeks. I felt a very warm feeling in my stomach as if am was her child.

She stood there without spouting a single word and the silence was making me more and more anxious so I decided to break the ice.

I tried my level best to be polite to her given her godly like apperance."Excuse me ma'am but can you explain me the situation? Who are you and how did I ended up here?". The lady took a deep breath and said" Child, I am just a wandering spirit who takes care of this realm but how did you end up here? This is not a place where a child such as you can come and go easily. What is your name dear?"

I was still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that a spirit was talking to me but I had to get out of here so I had to gather a much information as posible and she was the only source right now. " My name is Cindy Kennedy. I don't know how I came here. I am pretty sure that I slept and somehow I woke up here. Can you please guide me for a way back?" .I was really anxious about how I ended here and just wanted to escape this place because the environment around me now was giving me chills. I tried to sound eager and desperate. The lady who also was surprised to see me here said " This is a world that doesn't need anyone approval how to enter and leave it only depends on you. You were found near the spring of melancholy that means that you were hurt before you ended up here. Do you remember anything?"

"I was not hurt I don't see any scars and don't feel any pain anywhere"

The lady gave a faint forced smile and a sigh

" It's true that you are too young to understand this type pain. Not all the scars can be dear. There does exist the type of pain where you aren't hurt physically but still it will hurt you so much that you would wish that the physical pain would be less painful"

I really had no idea what she was saying I was only 13 and never in my life I had anyone said something to me like this. My mother and father were too busy earning money and I had no siblings so no one gave me such lessons. As a child I was always curious but had no one to talk to so today there was someone who was willing and had time to answer my questions so I fought the courage and asked her many questions and the lady also did answer the questions patiently.

"Where does all this invisible pain come from?" She replied "Heart".