Everyone calls me a true beauty or the goddess of beauty, but no one knows the truth. How did it come that everyone sees me as a goddess of beauty? It all started two years ago. At that time I was only in eighth grade, as for friendship, I really didn’t have any friends at all, but that didn’t bother me, because there was someone who was always nice to me and tried to understand my problem and he always treated me very well.

But for one reason everything changed. Even in elementary school I had no friends and I been always slutted up by my classmates and they used me as their maid, but that one Person was different. He always comforted me and was always on my side. At first I didn't understand why they hate and slutted me up, well now when I think about it, it all happened because of my presence. Since I was born, I have been different from my brother and sister. At first I didn't care what people said about my appearance, but things got worse. When I was ten years old, there was an anime series that gave me courage that no matter how you look, everyone can be a hero of beauty.

And that’s the reason why I decided to cosplay like my favorite character, and show others that appearance doesn't matter. I went out with my cosplay, But the other children laughed at me, pushed me and said the ugly people can't change their appearance and always stay ugly. I was very ashamed at that moment and started to cry, I quickly ran home and realized that no matter how much effort I give myself in the end I am ugly anyway. Every day it was the same until I came to high school, everything just got worse. Every day I was bullied by my classmates and I was like a maid to them, I spent my school break every day by always having to buy food for my classmates. There was a girl who was in the same situation as mine,

I thought we would get along well so I tried to get along with her. But I noticed that she didn't want it because somehow she slowly became friends with the people who bullied me and slowly she started bullying me too. No matter how much effort I put in to get along it was just impossible, every day after school I cried at home, I always wondered what I had done to them that they hated me so much. one day it went so far that I had to cry in front of everyone at school, right at that moment showed a senior up and asked me what happened. At that time I didn't know him personally, I heard a lot about him because he was very famous in our school, but we never talked befor together.

I didn't respond to his question and ran away crying, he ran after me, and said loudly ,,for how long do you want to let this come through’’. And thus began our friendship and my first great love. He always helped me and whenever I cried comforted me. After a time i realized that i felt for my senior. At the beginning I just wanted to keep it to myself but, one day I decided to confess my feelings to him. I didn't want to tell him directly and therefore I decided to write him a love letter, that evening I baked cookies and decorated everything nicely. The day started as normal as always, I went a little earlier than usual, I sat in my seat, suddenly called someone my name I turned around and behind me stood my classmates who have me bullied. I was a bit panicked and asked what they wanted.....

They asked for whom the cookies are and what is written in the letter, I was so excited about how would he react without thinking I had replied that it was none of you.They first laughed then yelled at me and said know your place, I apologized to them, but they pushed me and said you really had become rude. I apologized to them again, but they said they would not accept my apology until they found out what was written in the letter and to whom it was addressed, I was lucky because at that point the class started and the teacher came in. After the lesson the school bell rang so we had a break, I went to the toilet, but when I came back, five classmates stood in front of me and held up the letter.

I asked what they were laughing at, then one of them read my letters loudly through the classroom. the others laughed at me, threw my cookies at me, and said ,.how dare I write such a letter to the senior and approach him''.I took my courage and asked then ,,Why do you hate me so much, I didn't do anything to you'', then one of them pushed me and said loudly CAUSE YOU ARE UGLY YOU FAT PIG. Suddenly the senior stood in front of the classroom door, he looked at me disappointingly and said loudly ,,WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, YOU THOUGHT I'D LIKE YOU JUST BECAUSE I'M BEING NICE TO YOU!!!! I was very ashamed that I started crying and quickly took my school bag, ran shamed with tears in my eyes home.

On the way home I drowned myself all the time on the words of senior and what the others said to me.I was very sad because that was not the first time I heard such words. Then the beauty surgery occurred to me, it was very well known everyone talked about it and said it was good, and decided to talk to my parents about it to get rid of all these problems, when I arrived home I went straight to my mother and begged her for permission. It was already clear to me what her answer will be, this time, as last time, her answer was NO, you have no idea what I did to convince her, but everything was pointless, no one has a chance against her, not even one percent. I was mad but I accepted it because we were neither very rich nor really poor, because recently we found out that my father spent our money to pay his debts, as if that wasn't enough he even sold our own house.

My mother got very upset when she found this out, because we recently moved into this house, Well we moved out where we live now is a little further away from my school so I and my brother had to change school, but to be honest I had no problem with it because I always wanted to change school and have new classmates with whom I can get along.

We moved back into our old place and on the first day of school, I expertly applies my newly learned techniques, transforming my looks so drastically that my family was stunned silent. I turns heads at my new school and this time, they are good stares- they gasp that ,,she is a goddess''.

My new homeroom teacher welcome me warmly, and  the teacher brought me to the class, i introduced myself, everyone start on me then the teacher said that there are two seats free in the back. First place in the very last row right next to the handsome guy and the second place in the second to last row behind a nice looking girl..., well i took the seat in the fourth row where i can't see so well from behind.

the lesson started and we had to work in partnership so with the person sitting next to me, the girl who sat in front of me turned to me and introduced herself, her name was Kim Jiyoung after the first lesson was over we had a break. I didn't know what to do because I wasn't friends with any of my classmates but then Jiyoung said to me that from today she is my best friend, I laughed and said from today take care of me.

Then she said things to me like I was pretty or asked what kind of makeup I used and said that she liked the color of my lipstick and asked what kind of lipstick I used. Slowly the other students came up to me and introduced themselves, then another girl who was very good friends with Jiyoung came up she was really beautiful, SHE WAS THE TRUE GODDESS OF BEAUTY she smiled at me and Jiyoung introduced her to me, her name was Park Hyejin.

School was over for today, I was on my way home but then Jiyoung said let's hang out together with Hyejin out, I looked at her confused and said HUH?

Then Jiyoung said why HUH? We are friends now so let's go and hang out together.

Hyejin said she couldn't come with us, because she has tutoring.

but Jiyoung doesn't accept it and said it has been a long time since they hung out together after school so for once no tutoring for you Hyejin.

We went out to eat, then Karaoke after Karaoke we went to a make-up shop, that was the first time for me to have friends and hang out with them, I was having fun until I unexpectedly met someone who I never wanted to meet again in my life

I met.....

My old classmates who bullied me in my old school ''Choi Eunji, Choi Eunjoo, Sung Minji and Kim Yeona''

I was in panic and reminded me again of the cruel days, there wasn't a single day that they didn't bullied me.

At that moment I just wanted to be alone and cry.