“aaaaaagghhhh what a tiring night...I've given almost a lot of my balloons and I've waited a lot of people since this morning ” I said to myself inside the bunny suit I'm wearing while sitting at the wooden chair and massaging my feet.. I looked at the clock on the wall and it's almost time for the usual fireworks show tonight..

well by the way Lets have a short introduction about myself my name is Dia Ember Flores pretty lame right? I know.. my mom said it's Diamond and ember is she's not sure if it's from "amber" or Ember from Dec-ember.. but forget it I don't really care about that stupid shit.. Tonight when the clock strikes to 12 it's pew pew pew!! it's my fcking 23 years of trash life!! ughh yeah it's nothing to celebrate about but my boss told me to go home early and celebrate my birthday... but I think I'm better than being busy with my job here than doing shits like "celebrating"

I'm living with my family in a not so small house with my mother and brother and sister and their family in one house.. well I'm the youngest and I am an outcast like in the family so I don't care.. I don't have that much pressure on me but I'm still doing my best to live my life the way I know...

and yes I'm a bunny Mascot for almost 2 years and I love this job even though I'm not the main character still ....

“sigh.... yeah of course this Chipphop the rabbit I'm wearing right now is the main ANTAGONIST of that kid tv show everyone loves and all this throwing stuffs things and all those curses and bad things they do to me it's fine.... for almost two years that I've been doing this stuff I'm used to it..but anyways I know I'm ugly inside and out of this shell so It doesn't matter to me anymore....

I was dazing around sitting alone in the dark woodchair waiting for nine o'clock to came so my shift is done and I'm ready to go home, I felt something pulling my hand so I looked down to see it.... it's a little girl....

“hi baby do you need something??” maybe I think I should be more gentler or she'll be scared of me??.. “... or you need my help to look for your mom?? ” ..well that's what particularly happens here all the time so I asked it first... she just looked at me with those sad eyes and touch my eye (the bunny's eye) like she's wiping some tears from it... I was surprised...it's the first time someone or a kid came to me with their eyes not filled with disgust or hate, but with pity and sadness.. I just don't know how to react in this situation..,

she said so sweetly rubbing my hand like consoling me... She probably thinks that I'm sitting alone here and sad because everyone hates me and don't want to be around so she wants to make me feel better.. aww.. such a sweet kid so young but she knows what being hated and alone means .,

“awww thank you kid ... maraming salamat (thank you very much) ” I said with the bunny's language (bunny's originated in family of Philippine bunnies)

I was so happy that I hugged her then her friends who's scared to come close to me earlier came and hugged me too.. they all looked so happy I knowing that the scary bunny is also kind ... I was so moved that I cried inside the bunny suit.. but because my character is an evil bunny I didn't let it show... I also found out that their all orphans who's still waiting for their forever home...

they all went home and I happily waved at them as they vanished through my sight ... I felt so refreshed ... though my life is messed up ., still this kids showed me some light ... even though it's not that bright for me to see., it gave me some hope that I can get through all this shit in my life I'm going through..,

I took off my head costume and wiped all my tears and snots then slapped myself to wake up.. “Hah! c'mon Dia you can do this! laban lang! (continue fighting!) ”

I walked back to the office and I passed through àll this happy family who takes pictures with me and shakes hands with me .. I told them the fireworks are starting so they all happily run to the best spot they can hold hands... their so happy.. and I'm envious them... I wish... Aaaaaiiisshhh .. back to work!!

I was almost there near at the center office in the middle of the amusement park when I saw this guy standing in the middle of those busy people ... he's tall... and he's facing the other way so I can see his face ob side view... I was surprised and stunned by this man's beauty... but I wonder why he's crying in the middle of this happiest place on earth... he looks so mesmerizing even though he's crying...

I remembered that little girl and I thought of doing something to comfort him too .. Atleast... but I also remembered my status.., I'm the most hated villain in this Dreamland I'm just a trash and I might not be able to help him... I look àt him and hes still standing right there.. people are looking at him.... I can't bear to watch it... I suddenly touched something on my pocket.. it's that chocolate those little kids gave me earlier... gosh I'm sorry kid I know this would be rude for me giving away what you've given me but I need to do something for this guy too., oh I remember!

I have a key chain I accidentally bought yesterday .... maybe I should give it to him too.... I carefully approached him and hugged him I didn't look at his face and just put on his hands the balloon with those chocolates and Keychain attached with it and left as fast as I could ....

I sighed and I heard those people watching gossiping.. they said "oh it's just a show .. I thought it's real that the hot guy got rejected but it seems that their just àcting to show off Chipphop bunny to gain popularity" ughhh😓😓.. that hurts a bit but it's okay.. I just shrugged and prepare for my out and recieving my pay..,

“salary here I come... ”🤑🤑🤑🤑

“one more order please!... make it the heaviest drink you fcking could give!”

what the f*ck?? are they really whispering with each other? didn't they know I could hear it?? “ppssshh..,” I stand up straight and pull out my pocket .. since I came here I already calculated how many Glasses I can drink but I'm not interested on it anymore .. I purposely slap my card and cash on the table heavily. I don't care if everyone looks at me .,.

he signaled the other guy and they both shrieked after they looked at my card .. well yess that card is my membership card here .. I usually came here on Sundays but it's an exception today coz it's my birthday ,. maybe they didn't know coz their both new here..

he said while stuttering. actually I'm glaring at him as he speak so it's natural he would act like that.. Tssss nevermind.,. I forcefully snatched my card and left ...

ughhhhh I thought I might be drinking a lot tonight but I guess my alcohol tolerance have gone a bit low since the last time ., now I can barely even walk straight here and I needed to hold on the bridge railings so I can walk ... I heard some concerned drivers whose passing by shouting at me and asking if I needed help “ IM FCKING FINE!! THANK YOU!!” I shouted back at them and other several drivers did so too until I finally reach home...

so this is it .. I'm here again..... I opened the door and as usual they're all busy playing with the kids and watching that stupid bunny TV show.. they did notice me but never even took a glance of me like I was nothing .. I just simply looked at them with sadness and locked myself inside my room .. we are not that kind of usual happy family sort of things just a simple "oh you're still alive look" and we're done no more conversations that will eventually lead to sermons

we family simply had no affection towards each other or so I think ... my mother usually is at her work and my brother and sister have their own Family now they are living together here with us, ofcourse they already have kids and my mother "only like kids and those who usually have something to give her" if you don't then I don't care,, so I'm definitely used to being alone specially when I'm here in the house... my whole life is just like that.. work home and sleep then repeat again.. it's not that I don't want it to change but I just don't know what to do with this life anymore... Sigh., I wish something new came tomorrow..

The alarm rings exactly 5 times before it hits 4 am in the morning every single day but these days that I have no work something rings so loud and I automatically grab the Alarm and throw it on the wall... but the sound doesn't stopped...

I angrily sweeped my blanket away and got up on my “DAMN FCKING ALARM I SAID I HAVE NO WORK TOADY AND I FREAKING HATE IT WHEN MY SLEEP GET DISTURBED IN THIS——......,. ” I suddenly stopped after I saw my Nephew holding my Lipstick while on makeup table ... “FCK! G-GET OOUUUUTTTT YOU GAY!! ” I shouted so loud and he runs out as fast as he could slamming the door so hard....

I looked at my phone and I saw this missed call and message from my boss.. telling me to come at the park at once.... Fck?? did I mess up something??... Hell no.,

“damn that man he didn't even told us what's happening and just decided to shut this amusement park up! he's a jerk! he's a — Gay ..,.........”

I said with my eyes and mouth wide open after I saw my manager and that handsome familiar guy are k-k-k-kisssiiinnnggg!!!??? f-fck hell no what the hell should I do! what now! what should I do!

“oh hell no oh hell no.. what do I do ...I should hide before they see me” I anxiously said while running back and forth then I accidentally kicked on a soft drink can ...

ffccckkkkk.,. they're both denying it so badly and their looks... they both look so messy and what's with the rope?? awww gawd!! they actually doing "that".. in the middle of the freaking park!!?? that's fcking sexy... but calm down Dia .. you can't let anyone know that your into that BL stuffs...

I just look at them suspectedly ... then took a picture of them in every angle as fast as could ... this is an actual BL!! I can't let this chance pass....

is he bargaining with me??

“NO ... ” I strongly said with a straight face “... not interested .. ” I said then leave...

“ you said anything??? ”