The Wind blow through my hair. i could feel the Cold, but i didn't mind as my tears streaming down my Face. Why do i have do be in this world? I did my best! why couldn't everyone see it? All they see is my mistake. i wiped my tears and try to smile but it failed. instead of smile i felt pain. I- I'm H-Hurt!

Why do I even bother? This is the world! even you do Good all they can see is your mistake!

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"Why didn't you even clean the house you Son of a bitch!" Mother shout and slapped me.

"I swear mom! i cleaned it! I-It's just my b-brothers-" i couldn't finish what I'm saying because she slapped me again.

tears start to form in my eyes but i tried to stop it from falling.

"You're such a bitch! how can you blame your btothers?!" she shouted !

i look at my brothers and my heart felt like it cut. how can they smile when i'm in pain? how can they do such thing to me?

without a word a hurriedly leave the house crying!

all i have to do is to stop my tears from falling! why it is falling without me knowing it!

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Damn this life! i want to blame them but i know it was not right! blaming others is not right!

I wiped my tears and took a deep breathe. i want to leave that house but i can't! and i don't know why!

I wish... i'm dead! no! i wish i didn't born in this world! im s-such a u-useless p-person.

i try to climb on the bricks where the river is! the fresh air and big trees! Where no one can remember. this is the place. the place i want to die! how can no one come here!

i spread my arms through the air when i finally standing on brick! as i look down i saw a clear water in the river. funny eh? its blue and Beautiful.

and its so deep!

i closed my eyes and memories went in my mind! it's all a b-bad memory. i don't have a good memory since i was born.

And i don't want it to go with me.

i let my body fall down in the water. and it makes me feel ease. and i f-feel like i-i don't want to go up.

I slowly losing my breathe and my eyes started to get blur .

i hear a loud splash! i try to open my eyes. and before it close i saw a man trying to swim towards me. i smiled painfully.

How can The World is so cruel to me. when i try to save my life somebody try to kill me, and when i try to kill myself someone try to save me. i wish i could my self!

but i'm too tired.

i

i

i

just

want

to

die.