Today is yet another interview of mine for my new job. I don’t know what job they are going to give me, but it doesn’t matter as long as I can continue the same life of mine till now. They all gave me not such great jobs and not such great payments, but I am satisfied because I just want to lead a normal life peacefully, with a roof inside which I can stay, food that is eatable, and clothing that is wearable. I could earn a living till now. In my last job, I was fired, no, more like kicked out… because my boss found out that I was disguised as a human. Why can’t they understand that I just want to live contently, I don’t want to interfere with their affairs. But, why do I have this weird feeling that something is going to change and I don’t like it? Never mind, let me focus on now. I go to the receptionist and tell her what I am supposed to tell her. She gives me a weird look at first, I also get confused but then I understand. Huff! It is because in this job I am not going to be disguised. Anyway, she does her job sincerely and tells me what she is supposed to tell. I have to go to the third floor of the building to take the interview. I don’t know how to go up, I don’t dare to ask the receptionist again. So, I just ask a person passing by but he ignores me. Never mind, why will he answer me? I start to search for a flight of stairs but there aren’t any. I then see an elegant lady opening a lift and I see that the lift goes up. So, I go towards the lift. After it comes down, I try to open it, it opens and I try to go inside but just then someone pushed me and goes inside. Until I get up, that person already closed the door quickly with a disgusted look on his face. I just sigh and wait for the lift to come back down again. I again try to open it but just then again, a woman comes and pushes me, thanks to my earlier experience that I didn’t fall this time. She says with annoyance, “You lowly creature, get lost! Let me go first. You are created to serve us!” I again just sigh and go while she rushes in, I wait by sitting on a chair in the corner of the reception lobby. I don’t dare to sit on the furnished maroon velvet sofa. To be honest, yes, I had social anxiety. I needed my personal space. I also didn’t have the courage to stand up for myself. I wake myself up from these thoughts and start looking outside the grand windows, or should I call it a wall? The wall itself is made of rich glass. I keep looking outside at the wonderful view of tall and grand buildings but at the same time a green-colorful space, until I wait for everybody to go up. Finally, now there is no one, now I go to the lift and press the arrow which points up, I don’t dare to touch it. I go up to the third floor. The doors of the lift opens and I go out in a hurry so that I am not late for my first impression. But….. at the lift’s entrance I bump into a woman. Oh my God! What have I done? I don’t want to do anything stupid now!...

Oh no! What will happen now? Will I be fired without even working? I slowly look at the woman to whom I had bumped. She looked annoyed. She was about to slap me but, she stopped. And she said, "Hello cutie! I am very sorry!" with a big smile. My heart started fluttering. No had been so kind to me before. I said with a little pink tinge and smile, "T-thank you, my lady." And I bowed. She asked me with a smile again, "Do you work here?" I was about to reply but someone came and dragged the young beautiful lady with him. I didn't know what to do.. But I gathered all my courage and went towards the two of them. It looked as if the girl didn't want to go with him. She struggled. I went up to them and said, "Hello young man, you should be gentle towards this lady. You should not go against her wish." Argh! Why the həll? Just why in the world did I even say that shıt?! Now I regret saying that!

...{AT HOME}...

I go to my table next to the bed and take out my diary as usual. I start writing...

^^^[Dear Diary,^^^

^^^Today was another very tiring and troublesome day.. I went to a new huge company for a new job. I took the interview successfully but, I met some extreme embarrassment and trouble. I had bumped into a girl on the entrance of the third floor. She was kind to me and said sorry though it was my fault. Then, I saw her getting dragged away by a pretty cruel man. I thought that she was in trouble. So that's why, I went to help her thinking that she was kind to me. I told that man to stop.. But, it turned out to be that, that man was the boss of the company. Argh! Why do I always meet trouble?! Then, he told me that I was in no position to tell him what to do! What the fůck?! I agree that but- Ah! Never mind! I apologized him and went away. But he told me to come to his office after the interview. I felt sorry for the girl. I went to the office after the interview. I was so scared! Oh my God! And, I went, and he told me, that it was nothing. And he told me to work seriously. I said okay and went. Ahh~ I am back home... It's so much better even though it's suffocating. Bye dear diary! Good Night!]^^^

...{FLASHBACK}...

...{While the CEO of the company was dragging the girl outside}...

"Ahh! Please! Leave me!" the girl shouted.

"No, you can't stay here." said the man in a deep voice.

They reach the parking lot. The man calls another man which seemed to be his assistant and told him to take the girl back to her house. The girl said, "Wait! I will go back brother! But first tell me why did you ask him to come to your office!"

He replied, "I will ask him to quit." She instantly answered, "Okay! But don't do that, if not I will make a scene here. Brother, come here." She signals with her finger asking the man to come near her. He does as she says. And she whispers to his ear, "Brother, I want to play with that low cutie. Hehe." "Okay." he says.

I wake up very early in the next morning to go to work at that stupid very big company. Hah~ I know it's bad but still I don't want to be late. Oh yeah, but u really want to see that girl... She is pretty and has a strong presence and most importantly, she is kind even though the society thinks that I am a lower creature to her. I go to the office and everything goes as usual. That means that everybody ignores me and is disgusted by me. *Sigh* Never mind, who cares? I don't care now because of the girl I met yesterday. I hate one thing of mine and I want to change it very much! And that is that I am very very clumsy!! Argh!! I again dashed some person on the corridor! That person was disgusted and didn't want my help to pick up the things that were fallen because of me. Just then, when my help was rejected, I saw that girl passing by! I was so happy! At the same time I was embarrassed... But then I was at relief when I saw that she didn't notice me. Hah~ If she had noticed me then I am sure she would have smiled and I would be embarrassed because I didn't want to show her my clumsiness... Now, it is the break time in this dãmn office... I wanted to see that girl but I don't find her anywhere in this canteen... I just simply have some simple food at a deserted corner. Then I suddenly see that at the second floor of the building beside the canteen, the girl is sitting and having delicious meal with that man, ugh, the CEO of this dãmn company! Well, that building is the one which serves meals to rich people. Hm~ I am okay. It's good that those two have made up... After finishing lunch I have to go back to work again.. I got a not so great work again.. With and not so great payment again.. My work is to arrange the files in a proper order. I have to look over if there are any mistakes in the data and then arrange them.. I go to do that. Unexpectedly I notice a huge mistake in the information put on the file. So, as my job, I correct it. Who could have expected that it was something not under my job?! It IS my job as far as I know! That employee who did the mistake starts yelling at me like hêll! Then, she takes me to the boss of our section. "Ah!!" She literally drags me and pushes me in by my collar! It hurts so much! That mistaken lady was clenching her teeth all the while. The boss of our section looks at her and tell me to go back to my work and he will call me later. I don't know what's happening inside... But I hope they won't do any partiality...