First of all. Now im gonna tell you who he really was. I didn't know it before we became couple. But he has everything bad. He's smoking, vaping and drinking alcohol. More about him you will know in story.

I was about 13 years old. And met the guy who was 1 years ilder than me. We didn't meet all the time. Just about 1month. But i was still in love with him. After 4 moths. Have crush on him. I finally knew what i want. And i told him what i fell for him. He told that we can try. And about that moment it's started. After one day he broke up with me because he's "friend"

say if he won't do this he won't give him smoke. And when he told me WE'RE NOT COUPLE ANYMORE. I was heartbroken. But this is not the end. I was really stupid and wanted him to like me back so bad. So when i talked with my cousin whos good friend with him. He's planned date. And when i finally met him. He asked me. DO YOU WANNA BE WITH ME? I didn't think and said YES. After that day we meet all the time. And i thinking now HOW I CAN'T SEEN HE REAL FACE. He's wanted me to do things that i didn't want to do. But all the time i thought that i need him. I thought that i love him. But days and days going. I finally understood that... Hes not the one. How could he be if he can't wait when i will want the things he asked me to do. But after all knowing that i don't like him. I still was with him.

Before... I saw in my cousin messenger chats with my boyfriend ex. And it says. "IS HE NOT GONNA MEET ME ANYMORE AND IF HE DON'T CARE ABOUT ME THEN WE ARE OVER"

And then time stoped. He was my boyfriend but in the same time he was with another girl. And now i know everything i have to know. And about 2 days later i told him. Everything is over. And what he replied?! "OK" and when i said sorry. He told me "I DON'T CARE" And we never meeting anymore. And i am happy.

I still don't know is he really liked me then. Or just acted.

But there's one but. The one who really loved me all the time was my ex boyfriend best friend. And when he told me that. I didn't know what to say. He is so nerd. I never liked him. But thats not the point.

The title all because him. Is that i never have a chance to meet my best in the world friends. And i lost everyone.

So that's why i regret having him.

And what's most saddest that i still dream about him.

But now i have crush on somebody else. Who's so much better than him. So i wish he like me too.