at the end of my power I asked the dark magician to live again and be a normal person but they gave me a strange smile before I lost my breath

I really lived again as a child of a great scientist and my mother was a former princess .

happy and full of energy, my heart because someone already loves me but it was only for a moment because I thought I was a normal person but ?,i still have this black power left to me that was the reason why my mother's brother was attracted and give affection to me the young king in the Thore empire.

her fiance plan to kill me will be ruined but it's not happen I killed them with the word again I did it not do that

it was...an accident

"I wish is not true all of this!"

Mrs. Randall hurriedly dropped the paper containing the reason for what had happened to Duke's daughter she looked at her daughter long-haired black who was dazzling with the full moon "Asha do you know what happened?"

"...."

"Answer me! look what you did" but whatever blade she gives it seems like nothing happened

Ashan looks at the doll was give by her father and does not listen to what her says about what happened '*i really don't know what happened to*..' that's all she had in mind

'*probably because you do not love me mother*

yes I am happy because someone loves me but it is all fake so that can show of people how much she can still stand as a noble rather than being a **princess**'

she just smirk when her thought of the useless reason nothing still changes she is still a bad witch who punishes people with superficial sins "is this what the souls gave me?" funny am i still selfish

as

hell

my mother looked at me tremble as well as the servants, because of cold expression when they looked at my face "I did not ask for this and most of all not my fault why I am like this as well as in second life they will still play with me" **I laughed bitterly at them as if I no longer had in my mind**

My mother gave me a disgusting look even when I was young that's how you think of me nothing has changed.

"your eyes are beautiful mother what will happen if I offer that to the crows will they give me a reward?....I think it sounds like yes when you are no longer alive right."

7 years old and my small body, I was able to say all that

when she gave birth to me her eyes didn't even see me up and when I stepped on age 3 she just noticed me because I quickly understood about the empires I did everything to make her happy but it's not true she didn't use it all just to be respectful mother, she want all of people respected her not just a princess as a noble

I gave her a long smile with a dark expression before I left that room and that eyes she have were full of fear.

the room was dark and I was lying on the loose bed while next to the doll that my father gave me before he left I looked at her eyes it was purple with deep black lenses it was just a simple smile looking at me and her hand holding me it is bigger than me '*father really knows what my taste is when it comes to* color'

"So did you think that my dear Asha ..."

I felt the bed mattress come down and he stroked my hair I did not face him and I hugged the doll next to me tightly "I will give you everything as long as you are with me in everything I do, isn't it simple as a queen of the country?"

"what happened there? that you did to Elisar I liked that you know you are even better and become a good queen"

"I do not want"

I felt his sudden release of his smile I faced him without emotion "I will not shoot my blood or anything else you do I will not allow what you want to happen" he clenced his hand looking at me with firm lips he had red and blond hair that was long and thick eyebrows that matched the expression that he was giving me

"You pay for this wench witch"

i took a deep breath when he's presence leave

all my life I just want to do in this world is to use me according to what they want even in the second life there is still nothing has changed I am still locked like a shadow that can not be touched,dark magicians say when I finish everything they will give me a reward but what they gave me will still be used by other people like them I was fooled all I want is for someone to love me that I have never experienced in my whole life with someone at the time my mother witch gave birth to me she left me in the dark forest and no one left as if her sister had just adopted me but was full of abuse and always made bait for angry people with us but still safe I escaped them

"What am I?"

I cried silently in that room

this is the last cry I make because tomorrow is not going to be good tomorrow.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~∆

a mother who made me mask her

the servants who hurt me verbally

a prince who did nothing but chase me and confess to be his queen and use it as a weapon

people

full of anger and the family looking at me with disgust because of what I did to their daughter

I can't smile

because that's always happening

I just want to

..... love me

"Kill him!"

a knight drew a sword and struck it on my neck

"kill him as an order by his majesty"

I smiled suddenly when a butler approached me and whispered "Majesty still wants to revive you, choose before it's too late"

"Say this to him ..."

his angry face looked at me as I said all that

"moth \* rf \* vker"

"Are you saying yourself?"

"You acting like not a kid"

smirked.

"kill him"

"No! Asha!"

"Please excuse us"

"she did not do anything...asha!"

"Pa-papa.."

I just closed my eyes and smiled

'I'm sorry father I can not help you with your problem I hope you succeed in your dream'

I wish you a long and happy life with mother

even if maybe when I turn the world upside down, my situation is still the same

but I will not give up just because of that even if I still burn in hell

did I really do something wrong?

I just want to love me and help them with all of my heart

as a witch even though I was young then they were avoiding me because I'm in trouble if i help they hurt that because I want to help them and succeed I hurt them.

even here I still do wrong and an accident that I did just ended up going down

I want love

experience love more than my father

a man I can love

and help those around me

is there really?

before I closed my eyes again a boy was sad and shocked he looked at me his eyes were blue and the fabric he was wearing was so beautiful

he's hair is gray and his lashes are long and tears are falling while looking at me

he was handsome even though he cried

'*gosh asha what's on your mind your dying*'

who are you?

you look like my father

by chance

I will die as a \*\*\*\*\*\* again.

don't think about me I was just thinking when I was witch girl back then

"Okay young witches now the class we're going to do is weird! But it's not like that with what we're going to do, this is where it starts if you deserve to be a great witch"

wow!

that's awesome

my eyes glowed as I listened to our teacher about what to do but it suddenly disappeared when I heard the whisper of the one behind my classmates which is why I no longer listened to what our teacher was saying

"There she is again"

"Yes, it's annoying, especially what she did in the past"

"I don't want her to be my partner again"

"you said that yeah"

i rolled my eyes while listening to what they were saying did they not know? that I was here I just closed my eyes when they still could not finish what they were saying about me

Is that really how I affected them when I do something wrong for that,this bees during class time sometimes I lose my appetite to go to study and just go to abandoned house and invent a new potion

this is my life and how they think of me because I passed the other magic test I decided to help other Beginner witches for their class but the outcome was not good

first as I helped a witch who could not fly things I helped her how I could do that I was able to lift her and I could not control the wand I was using and she was kicked out loud due to her physical injury to the back

that I was grounded for 3 months

in our library my former teacher was having a hard time with the potion he was making I helped him how to balance it with money as I was able to do it it collapsed and broke all the bottles and expensive glasses he got angry with me and sent me away and banned me enter there

and many more, most of all, I almost broke the whole tree in the academy because I wanted to give it life but what happened was that everything burned down and the fire from me turned black after that happened I was sent back to my aunt's house and never came back because I gave them bad things

I tried to go back there again because I didn't want to experience it again when I was still with my aunty

I do not want to be a servant a bait I almost die on the run I will go her home with wounded but she did not care and is still looking for my carry-on that she asked me to do.

but no matter what I do I still help her at all but there is still no positive vibes gave her to me she kicked me and left me out of time with snow but a black crow came to me and became a human soul he offered me a a reward and I agreed to what he ordered me

"Take your aunty's eyes and you will receive a gift from us"

he gave me a deep breath causing me to fall asleep suddenly and leave like the wind

until I was still wondering if I would agree --- I did not agree I said what I agreed is i don't know what to do about he said "Do I have to do it?"

I closed my eyes and I heard the word wind

"I told you to do it first we need to"

"Yes I will ..."

this is the only reason for me to experience real life I caressed my face as well as my arm and neck full of wounds because of the simple thing I did not mean but I was still punished and still ordered as a bait

I want to finish it all

I want a good life and fun as a normal person

I begged the souls that after I did that they would give birth to me as reborn not as a witch but as a happy child they easily agreed to what I wanted and I did what I had to do this was the only reason for everything I would do

no one can't stop me

this is also the reason I punish the people who collide with me and make them bait for later aunty

aunty likes the souls of people

I will also imprison her how she does it with baits

there I will catch her eyes

that crowd's order

what is this feeling

it's cold

"Ash ... wake up"

huh?

her warm hand landed on me i open my eyes but I could only see in the dark

"This is me"

my mouth was only slightly open when I felt a noise coming from outside

what is this?

"Ash you need to wake up they'll catch you here plea-"

* door cracked *

"You will come out or die our last threat to you!"

"Ash! Please wake up"

"I don't see anything ..."

what is this pure darkness I can see trying to look in the other direction but I still do not see anything

"No ...."

"W-who are you why can't I see!" I shook her hand and tried to get up but I could not

what is this why i can't move?

"I'm sorry but your body is not yet in the connection so you can't stand"

"Who are you? Where are I? are papa and mama.." I looked in the direction where the noise came from but I could still see in the dark.

"You don't know everything that happened?"

"...."

* bag * "Open it!"

"Listen to me this" she took my hand and put a small piece of paper there "That paper will take you to my old home do not-"

* gasp *

"Look, you're just here"

"Stay away if you don't want to get hurt"

"You're alive"

His voice was familiar

the grip on my hand tightened as I heard it approaching us "I never thought you would come back to me"

"Stay away from her I warn you"

I hug to the woman in front of me and hid my face there I do not know but I trembled at what he said

this man I am not mistaken

"Why are you like that to me my dear asha"

that psycho

but I wonder why

"Get out of my sight"

"Asha c-can you stand up?"

"N-no"

why am i

still

alive?

did i really executed? or just a dream

did I return to the time that souls did

it makes me feel like I'm being separated from my own body

"How is it ... asha"

"I killed your father because ... he always in the middle of our relationship, right?"

Before I could speak, someone suddenly pulled my foot and I heard a gradual opening of a door at the down?"

"Don't worry they'll take you to the old house" she slowly let go of my hand and blocked me in front of the person speaking directly to me

why do I not feel mad because of him, why I can not react to what he says

what happened to me!

seems lifeless

my heart is just beating but I have no reaction?

who am i where am i

what is happening to me I am not like this

"You will also know everything after you get there asha" he whispered carefully to me I just nodded

and suddenly I felt drowsy "Sleep well asha"

"Who are you "

"I'm sorry for everything I did I can only do this to you"

"..."

Before I could speak again I completely lost consciousness and did not know what happened that night

m

did i dream?