"Hey, why are you here?"

"stay away from us!"

"Whenever we play with you, it always ends up so unlucky!"

"Let's go, guys! let's play somewhere else."

"just like your name, it means unlucky, you bring no luck!"

"my mom said to do not to be so close to you because you are unlucky it will bring us a misfortune"

I wonder since when it started? those children during kindergarten, never want to play with me? was I really born unlucky? so, why do I even born if my life would be like this? I want to play with them, but I don't want them to be my friends. They always say that my name implies my life, but I didn't choose this name, I don't want this anymore, there is no one there for me, I always end up alone here at the playground at the tunnel, crying alone.

"Why are you crying?"

a voice of a kid? A kid? I was surprised by his sudden appearance and I scootch to the side because if he gets closer to me he will get affected by my unluckiness.

"Are you deaf? you're hurt, it's bleeding." As he comes closer I shouted at him to do not to get closer to me or else! I don't want others to get hurt because of me! I don't want him to come closer to me!

"Fine. I'll be here, you don't have to be afraid of me. I am not going to hurt you."

"But I'll be the one who going to hurt you, so don't come closer"

"what can a little girl like you do to hurt me? " I didn't speak anymore, I just ran away, he tried to stop me but I ran fast. I wonder who is that boy? while running I saw my mom looking for me.

"There you are! my girl! where have you been? I've been looking for you all this time, look at your clothes, let's go home, and let's take a bath okay?"

"Okay, mommy"

while holding the hand of mommy while walking I couldn't stop thinking that little boy, will I able to meet him again? maybe not, because no one would like to play with someone like me. after that day, I always end up staying at the playground inside the tunnel then he appeared again. Over and over again, we always meet up here and talk about different things, we even play just the two of us, weird but whenever I'm with him I am very happy. Until one day, he came to the playground with an injury on his face, I was sad and cried.

"I tripped yesterday that's why I have this patch in my face...hey, why are you crying?"

"because of me...because of me, you are injured, you are hurt because of me."

"what are you saying? "

"I will never play with you anymore! don't come near me anymore!"

"wait!"

****I ran off, when I came home mommy console me because I was crying so loud, I realized that time it is over, I don't deserve to have a friend anymore, I lost my friend because of my unluckiness****!

****After two days, I came back to the playground, thinking if he is there, but he is not there, I started to cry again and blame myself once again****.

"******Why are you crying******?" ****I turned my way to my right then I was surprised by him again, that boy****!

"Seriously, you are a crybaby. I've been waiting for you here, thank God you came"

"you...you...why are you here?! because of me you are hurt!"

"I got hurt because of my clumsiness and that is not because of you"

"But!"

"I will always by your side, okay? I will never leave you"

he pulled my hand and by that, he smiled at me, that's where I realized, ah that warm and bright smile that I want to see, I don't get tired to see that smile. during those summer days, we always spend our time at the playground, as if there is no more tomorrow. We spend our time at home, my mommy was surprised when I bought a friend. we slept together, we play together, we fought those bullies together, we are happy to be together. Until one day, before summer days ended I came back to the playground but he was not there, at first I thought that he did something but after days of going back to that place, he never came.

"where are you? you promised..."

After waiting for so many days, after going back and forth to that place, he never came, I almost lost my hope to see him again.

"my dear, is there something wrong? you seem to be sad, does he not came again?" We are currently in the car going somewhere, can't remember where are going.

"Don't worry mommy will make you happy, I will buy you your favorite!"

whoever thought that that moment will be my last moment with mommy, the truck was in front of us and my mommy tried so hard to save our lives, I don't know what happened after that, my head is ringing so loud, my vision is blurred, people are trying to open the car door, why are they shouting? I cannot hear them at all, where is mommy? Mommy, I feel so heavy, my whole body hurt so bad. ugh! where I am?

the moment I opened my eyes, I was already at the hospital, my head is wrapped up in a bandage, my vision is not that clear, after few days in the hospital room, when I regained my hearing they told me that we caught up in an accident, a lot of people died but I didn't expect that my mommy was one of the people that died due to that accident. I couldn't believe it at first, in the end, I end up being alone, we caught up with an accident because of me, because of my unluckiness. I didn't shed any tears, I stayed silent in the room until one day the nurse told me that one of my relatives came to get me, I don't know who is my relatives ate when the door opened a grandma and grandpa was crying came for me. They told me that they were my grandparents, they were parents of my mommy, they took me home with their house in the province. Unknown place, unknown neighborhood, unknown people, and unknown feeling.

This where I finally realized, my life changed during that summer days.