when i was in elementary school i used to secretly watch my crush from the distance .

without seeing her my whole day will be like hell ..

one day i just thought hey its to hard now i can't keep my feeling in order not to pretend i like her so i decided to talk with her..

in order to express my feeling but unfortunitely i got stoped i saw someone was talking with her and she is being shy with him so i just watch her again from distance i dont know what they are talking but my heart beats fast and my mind was running with wild thought they are in love so i just return to my class and sit on my bench lay down to desk my friends were having fun they usually teasing ..pinching each other. in the middle of no were i was alone while whole classmates were being happy and enjoying the company of friends..

Again the class was started an i did not understand what teacher was trying to explain i ask to teacher more than 6 time same question .

then teacher ask me are you making me fun of it..?

and i reply no sir i just dont understand whats the actual relation between x\=y \=0 were the value of x is 9 and y \= ?

so am being confused that all sir..

so teacher began to explain again with aggresive mood ..

and i just sit down again and being to focus on point by the time actul reason of not understanding was my mind thought about my crush so my mind got distracted other wise i was good student.. finally class was over school time over now head back to home ..

like always i pack my bag and started to walk out from class and suddenly saw my crush was waiting for someone so my mind was telling me that she was waiting for that man and my heart was saying she is waiting for her friends..

and i decided to wait until she goes and again i saw that person again walking towards her and waving hand each other to tell am here wait for mee am coming.

Again my heart beats fast and my mind was full of wild thought without know the truth i just thought she was in love with that person so i just walk away again .. on the way back home i bid my friends good bye and say well meet tomorow morning early in class to discuss something very important .

and i just started to walk way to home being sad and my heart was full of sorrow my mind was absent .. i just walk like robot and i did not even reply to other after started walking just thinking about it i was just late to express my feelings to her dame why my dessicion come so late why god ? why ?

and suddenly and girl come towards me and give me a piece of paper and say read it ok and say bye and i was shocked what the hell .? is that ? so i did not give to much important to that and put on my pockect ill read it later when i reach home..

finally i reach home like always i wash my foot change my clothes and having tea and leave for my tution after coming home from tution i began to ask my self why ? my mind always think about her ? that time i recall the seen being waiting for that person having good conversation with him. and again am sad