hello ,

let me introduced my self first I am vani belongs to india and state himachal pardesh .

I am not good looking at all. I am average looking girl with dusky skin.

it starts how we meet in college how love begins .

how be became friends , how we fall in love with each other

I dont know what future holds but its been a 5 years with him .

lets start the story .

as I was student of pharmacy

he was the senior In b.tech batch we were in same college but we didnt talk to each other

actually if you are going through some inferiority complex you feels little bit awkward to talk with someone else .

its 21 July 2016 my facebook notification pop up

its message from the boy named shivam choudhary

hii what is the meaning of Rx ?

actually my facebook profile is named as Rx Vani .

I checked out his profile I got to know that he was our senior .

I replied it means god heels every medical professional person write it before he write any prescription I replied .

now the talks begins ..

he ask me about family about myself

I told him about my family about myself .

everytime whenever we were online we starts chatting about how's the day how the study going I dont know when I get adicted to chat with him .

if he doesn't text me on facebook I start feeling like I am missing something

after college we chat for sometimes

and we became a good friends but we didnt meet yet . one day come when he wants to meet me .

I am little bit confused about to meet him in the college campus .

it was our final practicals time I was preparing for viva and practical he text me to meet in front of MBA campus.

I took chocolate form the canteen and I saw him from my department he was with his batchmates

I went in the direction of him but my legs were shivering my heartbeat. getting faster .

I cant have guts to meet him

to I drop the chocolate in the wall in front of MBA block and text him to took up that chocolate and come back .

finally we exchange our number we start talking to each other in mobile phone.

he is not interested in me. but we are good friends .

and I dont thing that friendship needs a pretty face .

actually at that time I had a relation with a guy who does not. even give respect to me .

I was very disturbed from the relation but I feel happy whenever I talk to shivam .

I get fed up of my relation because I know he was cheating on me but still I was with him I don't no why ??

one day I broke up with him . and start talking to shivam about all the my past relation he suggested me to stay single if any help I need I can call him.

I start living according to my way .

as i said I am average looking girl nobody had crush on me but I likes to talk to shivam .

one day I saw him with a girl in a canteen I feel very bad It hurts me I dont no why .

we were just friends I don't why I feel jealous .

...the first kiss...

...I get jealous when he was sitting in the canteen with her batchmate actually everytime when ever I saw him that girl was always with him...

it gives me very bad feeling I can't even tell him what I feel because I dont no why I feel like that .

its ok we were good friends but there is no space for love jealously. I start maintaining distance from him

because its me not him who feels insecure.

but its very bad feeling when you know about nothing will happen between you and him.

let me explain his nature he was very attractive personality with beard look tall fair good looking and I was dusky skinned short height , but I like one thing in me whenever I smile I got dimple on my face and it looks pretty.

its time when our examination were finished and winter holidays begins.

I have to took bus early in the morning

and the bus stand from the college is little bit far and in morning there was very dark outside .

so i decided to call shivu to took me up from college gate and drop me to bus stand .

he said ok fine I will

but you will have to give me a friendly hug .

I said no and the day comes 16 dec 2016 when I called him in early morning

shivani - hello get up please come to college gate

shivam - little bit sleepy mood okay I will come but you know but you promised .

shivani - no I didnt but come fast other wise I will get late .

shivam - ok fine I am coming

so finally my roomies drop me to the gate and shivu comes there I said good bye to my hostel rommies .

and we start walking towards the busstand from the college gate .

its very cold weather that day stars in the sky , it was very deserted .

he starts shivering because its very cold that day .

he told me to give him hug about 2 3 times but i ignored but his legs were shivering .so i told him okay but only hug so there is one small tea stall on the right side of the road .

we went to the stall so nobody can see us

I hugged him. its very pleasant and decent hug.

I dont no what happened next he kiss my forehead and grab my *** .

I dont. no what was that.I can even say him no that time .

he kissed me in lips it was totally unacceptable.

it takes around 2 minutes .

and we left that tea stall and he drop me to the bus stand .

I still little bit confused about what we had done

I text him sorry for whatever happen I didnt mean it to be happen .

I am not that type of girl who kisses the random guy .

I dont no why it happens but I swear it will never happen again .

we were good friends I am okay with that

I don't want this shit to happen again .

I text him and went back to home its our winter holidays.

but still I was thinking about that day

why I didnt stop him why we go through this.

I don't know what to do how to face him again .