When I miss you ...

I wrote down all the flavors

I tried to assemble it into beautiful poetry verses

This improvised taste, deepened my heart

When I miss you ...

Don't feel the tears falling down my cheeks

When I can not find the slightest there is you

I didn't even hear your sweet voice

When I miss you ...

I want time to go back in time

The time when I was beside you

When you haven't left my life

When I miss you ...

The blue sky was gray too

The hot sun could not warm my soul

There is no sense of beauty in my life

When I miss you ...

Millions don't want your presence back

Even though you have to walk far to pick you up

Kurela for the sake of my happy heart

When I miss you ...

All the steps without you are stiff

No laughter is born as crisp as with you

Life is completely sad

When I miss you ...

I want to feel like I obey all my egos

Grab my happiness, maybe ignore your happiness

I thank God, when I miss you I don't do that

When I miss you ...

I looked up at the sky, I saw you looking at me

I stare at the water, I remember memories with you

I stare at my life, so empty without you

When I miss you ...

I am sad when I think of him next to you

So I want to get rid of this longing

But the heart still wants to expect your return

When I miss you ...

Millions of questions popped into my mind

Do you also feel longing for me

I did not wish to see me again

When I miss you ...

I didn't regret that initial meeting at all

There is no desire to separate you

There is no sense of wanting to handcuff your soul

When I miss you ...

I spent hundreds of nights waiting

I have sown many dreams in the garden of my heart

Hope tomorrow you stand at the door of my heart

When I miss you ... Sometimes comes doubt, try to brush aside your beauty Sometimes I hug your pseudo shadow I stare at your photo, hope you see me When I miss you ... Millions of regrets are present for all my mistakes I wish I could fix the past If I can, I rearrange my life When I miss you ... Tucked into a question "are you sorry to know me?" Tucked into a question "can't you just have me?" Tucked into the question "is it so easy to erase myself from your life?" When I miss you ... Half of it I feel embarrassed, because maybe it's just me Next to you is not me, could you think there is me Until your heart, you can still miss my weak figure

When I miss you ...

Only this expression of taste is all I can afford

Although it can never be a medicine for me

At least released a little taste from my heart

When I miss you ...

I put all this affection waiting

I let myself reminisce the past

I assure my heart do not choose to hesitate

When I miss you ...

Hope grows, it feels like I can afford to be alone first

I leave a white heart without the dust of another love

Trying to prove how loyal I am

When I miss you ...

I give all sincere affection for you

I erased the memory of your imperfections

I believe that our true hearts are one

When I miss you ...

I realized how weak I am without you

I remember how rude I used to be

How eager to beg you to come back to me

When I miss you ... I try to assemble all the images that you also miss I try to dream you dream of my existence I tried to wait, prove my destiny and desire When I miss you ... No power of logic over all the feelings in my heart No body power over the existence of my weak soul Sincerely love you, from your imperfections When I miss you ... I ask you to be healthy always until the time limit I fantasized that one day I could see your beautiful figure again and I hear again… your spoiled and sweet voice When I miss you ... I nailed with the words of love and loyalty Sincere and without being felt by both Until it often makes me vulnerable When I miss you ... This is what I am like It was clear all my heart and mind Just because I miss you ... I feel white and sincere love Beautiful giving, strong taste How careful to try to be loyal When I miss you ... Missing is the only word in my heart

People say, the rain brings a song that only those who are longing can understand. There are also those who think that rain is the right time to reminisce about the past.

Until now, I don't know who was the first to conclude this. Much of it is true. Maybe because the situation was favorable; The slightly humid air, the smell of rising petrichor plus the raindrops that fell like scattered pieces of memories and hypnotized the mind.

Whatever the reason, I still like the rain. I love the aroma, my eyes can't help but stare at the droplets of water tapping the leaves, making a beautiful gurgling sound as they collide with the ground and the roof of the house.

Rain teaches me many things: About memories. Hope. And about? someone. - At that time, I was sitting by the classroom window, watching my friends playing in the rain. That's when you came over. "Hey, Iceberg." Your greeting is relaxed. I who do not want to be disturbed immediately looked at you irritated. 'Just leave me alone!' I said silently. But you just giggled with amusement. Your hands swiftly pull up a chair and then sit in front of me. "I don't feel like our high school days will end." Your face suddenly turned sad, the light brown bead that used to shine dimmed as if it lost energy. "Yes," I replied briefly looking at you. What's wrong with this person? You reply with a forced smile, "that means you will be free because I won't bother you anymore." Both corners of my lips were pulled to the side, "That's good then." The days will pass comfortably. No more "Iceberg" calls, No annoying babbling Nothing will shift my position in the class rankings. No longer? yourself. I should be relieved, but somehow a speck of sadness actually creeps up in my heart. More and more as it rains hard out there. You laughed dryly then paused for a few seconds to meet my eyes.

Your mouth starts chattering again, "do you know why I always bother you?" Strange, your tone sounded very serious and your gaze seemed impatient waiting for an answer. "Because I'm weird." I answered carelessly. Your head shakes steady, index finger and middle raise the frame of the glasses that adorn your handsome face. “Because I want to see your expression. Every day, you always put on a flat face. Honestly, I prefer you to be angry or smile and laugh out loud because of me. It makes you look a lot more "alive" ... isn't it fun to live life without a mask? Be yourself, because there is someone who always thinks of you as valuable, "you said at length in a distinctive style. I don't know whether to be happy or angry to hear that. But there is something I don't understand, your words suddenly made my chest warm a little. And the warmth eventually rubs off on both cheeks in a way. I can see your face reacts the same. "Maybe this sounds ridiculous, but ... may I have one thing?" You asked a little clumsily. An eyebrow raised, "what is that?" I said a little curiously while continuing to suppress the inexplicable feeling through anything. Witnessing the red tinge on a youth's face is a rare sight for me. So calming and thrilling as the smell of rain. "Please don't forget me. And… can you wait until the time comes? ” You said it without hesitation and unfortunately I didn't detect the signal lies in your eyeballs. I'm choking on my own breath. Okay, this is confusing. Not. Not. This is so very confusing! But why?! Why am I even nodding ?! Sh * t! Sh * t! Sh * t !!!! What am I doing? !!!! I shook my head slowly after that looked down deeply. Trying to relax and hope that my increasingly crazy heartbeat doesn't catch your hearing sense. Aira, wake up! He's your enemy! Yes. An enemy I can never hate.

You smiled faintly and then your bead glanced out, “it's over. Let us go home!" you said, taking the bag then walking away. “Bagas! T-thank you very much, ”I finally spoke up after mustering up my courage, ignoring the great debate I was holding back half to death. Your steps stopped right in front of the door. The shadow of the tall body was such a contrast when it was hit by the evening sun. You don't turn around, but I know you're smiling broadly right now. Your right hand goes up and forms an 'OK' sign Then, the sound of your footsteps slowly moved away. I just chuckled as I touched my cheek. Hot. - Ha ha! It's funny when you remember the incident a few years ago. The last moment we interacted. After that, all walked in their respective worlds. Completely cut off contact. Only through long prostrations and rain, we greet each other. Never mind… the important thing is I really enjoyed the rain today and I couldn't stop smiling reading a message on my cellphone. "Next week I will come. With the group. Wait for me!"

Anas was still lying on his bed. While enjoying music with earphones attached to your ears. The strains of a song entitled "MY EVERYTHING" which was popularized by a member of Super Junior, namely Lee Donghae, reminds Anas of someone. Someone he admired since the first semester in class IX. BUT has she seen that Anas is cooking? Maybe not. The cute girl turned to the next page of the book she was reading. Especially if it's not a novel? Yes, he loves reading novels. "Hey? Anas, have you found the song yet? "Anas' friend, whose name is Laras, went into the room without the condition of the door first. Then Laras sat beside him and within seconds the earphones were off. "Yes, I heard. The problem with the song, just calm down. If it's with me, everything will be done quickly " "Yes, please believe it. Uh, I'm reading a novel. Definitely romance again. Yes, right…? " Anas was silent, ignoring Laras.

The barrel pursed lips. "Ouch, what a shame. Even though Adela already had a girl " "What the heck? .. Go away!" Anas put his earphones back on. It's raining tonight. The water droplets slide rapidly, competing to come down to the earth. It was quite heavy, but it didn't bother Anas for training. Anas tried to play the song he had chosen for the musical art practice exam which was coming in two days. "ISSUES OF THE HEART" is the title of the song. The girl started playing with the guitar. The melodious voice and guitar playing work together. Produces the perfect mix of tones. Anas took a breath when he got to the chorus. The scent of the wet earth caught his nose. The lyrics of the song are very touching. And the girl hopes, by singing this song, she can make someone who admires her heart open. Not that he was a destroyer of other people's relationships. But through this song, Anas wanted Adela to understand that the girl admired her with a different meaning and understanding. “I can make you fall in love with me even if you don't love… me. Give a little time, let love come because it's used to it " "Ahem .. cie, cie. It turned out to be the song. Surely that song can achieve it " I snorted in annoyance. Again Laras came without knocking the door first. "But, really good. Really cool you know " "Thanks" Anas just smiled wryly. Today, the music arts practice exam is scheduled. This time there is Mr. Philips and Mrs. It was Fransiska who tested it. Anas was very curious about what Adela would show later. The first participant, Aisya, performed a song entitled "MERINDUKANMU" with her piano as the instrument. Aisya's performance captured the attention of other participants, including Anas. When Adela's name was called, Anas's cheeks turned red. Anas couldn't believe it, Adela's piano performance was so amazing. The instrument for his song “MY HEART WILL GO ON” was beautifully composed. His fingers gently touch the piano keys flawlessly.

Anas exhaled deeply. His whole body felt hot and cold. His forehead was sweating. Her legs were still shaking when the girl was already sitting in front of the other participants, with her guitar on her lap. “Hm… before that, I want to say one thing. That this song is specially dedicated to someone and I hope he will open his heart through this song. Happy watching " Anas's eyes continued to stare deeper at Adela, not caring about the other participants who saw her with suspicious eyes. "Please God, I hope this song can achieve it" All the test takers, including Adela, were shocked when they heard Tasya's guitar playing stopped halfway. What is wrong? Anas could no longer hold back her tears. When he got to the chorus, his eyes began to heat up, unable to continue the lyrics. Anas played too hard or did he play it with all his heart? "Anas why?" "What's wrong with him? Why did the game stop? " Mrs. Fransiska immediately calmed things down. "Yes, please be quiet. What's up Anas? " Anas shook her head while continuing to wipe away the tears that were dripping. The girl stood up and walked towards the figure of the man named Adela. Arriving in front of the man, Anas was sobbing. Her tears fell even more profusely. Adela was just silent, who knows what to do And the people in the room looked at him, moved by the atmosphere.

Anas dared to stand closer in front of Adela. The girl lowered her head hiding her flowing tears. They both fell silent, only heard sighs and sobs. Adela was still standing stunned and could only look at the shoulder of the girl who was lowering her head. What should that man do, he had absolutely no idea. "Ah, you idiot. It must be that this man was also confused about why I was standing like this in front of him. Better…, ”said Anas to himself. Slowly Anas looked up and tried to find that hope in Adela's eyes. The two of them were silent for a moment, their eyes had met and slowly looked to each other deeper. Adela could feel the shade from the girl's eyes. Anas also felt a hope for him, it was clearly reflected in Adela's eyes. Now, I don't know what Anas should do. The girl suddenly forgot all the words that were deliberately arranged to express her feelings for the man. One minute… Two minutes ... Adela averted her eyes, awakening Anas to the memory that she had to reveal it immediately. Whatever happened he had to tell the truth. Anas couldn't keep that feeling for too long. "What is this feeling, huh? Do you know what it's called? " said Anas a little chit-chat with tears still dripping down the cheeks. "I'm sorry if I love you ...," he continued. Adela's shoulders rose, it was obvious that she was surprised. Everyone in the room was also shocked, some were seen shedding tears. Some distance from Adela stood up, there was someone there, the girl who was now Adela's lover also crying. "If you don't forbid, can I love you as long as I can love you?" Adela was still silent. But it looks at the edges of his eyes that are getting redder. "Thank you for filling my heart"

Adela's breath caught, her guts felt like a samurai had stabbed her. His eyes started heating up. Adela looked up, trying to keep the tears from falling. However, no matter how hard she tried to stem the tears, they still fell and slowly wet her cheeks. "What? It turns out you love me too. If you knew, at that time I also loved you…, ”said Adela in her heart confessing her feelings. Adela was still rooted where she stood, while her left hand held her own chest to endure the pain. "Anas, wait ... !!!" The man turned his body and tried to catch Anas who had run away from him without heeding the man's call. But, when Adela had taken the second step, her lover stopped her. Precisely Laras who has gone far to pursue Anas. On the last day of the practical exam, of course after the incident during the musical art practice exam, Adela kept thinking about Anas. Moreover, until Anas was not present at the National Examination. There is no news at all about Anas' whereabouts. Adela didn't dare ask the people who were close to Anas, including Laras, the girl's best friend. Until the release ceremony for class IX students, where the event was very important and compulsory, Anas was still absent. And at that moment Adela convinced herself to ask Laras. Whatever happens I have to know where Anas has been, thought Adela. Adela met Laras who was in the school garden. In an instant, the man immediately noticed the change in Laras's attitude who was about to leave when he saw Adela pointing at him. "Wait! Don't do it, I beg you. I know you must hate me, but this time I beg you to explain to me about Anas's whereabouts now. " "Now he's calm in Heaven," said Laras in a trembling voice. "What do you mean? Please explain…" Adela took a distance closer to Laras so that she could hear all her explanations. As if she didn't get oxygen, Adela's breath caught when she heard Laras' explanation that Anas died in an accident after the incident.

Anas ran away from the man and left the practice exam room. Her heart and mind were very chaotic. He kept running regardless of Laras who was tired of chasing him. At that time, the streets were filled with horns because Anas didn't pay attention to his surroundings. Anas kept running, even though he almost got hit. With the remaining strength, Laras screamed for Anas when a car sped toward the girl. And so quickly it happened. Anas lay unconscious. Laras continued. "Before Tasya breathed her last. He asked me to give this to you " "What?" “Inside is a video. I remember that time, Tasya told me to record it when she was singing a song for you. This song was made by Tasya herself. This song is inspired by you. We recommend that you play this video immediately " Adela received a camera that contained a video as said by Laras. The man took a deep breath, then let it out slowly before playing the video. A tear fell on Adela's eye when the video finished playing. It was time for Adela to tell the truth to Laras. "Should I tell you the truth?" asked Adela to Laras. "Of course. Tell me ... " The man took another deep breath, then began to speak. “Looks like it is. So, at that time ... I don't know when exactly, I met Anas for the first time. All I know is at the beginning of the ninth grade semester, I feel a feeling that I have never felt. I kept thinking about Anas. I feel that since Anas was there, my days have become more colorful and sparkling "

Laras paid full attention to the explanation and took in his every word. “I don't know either… That feeling, what is it called? But I think it's a feeling of love. And at that moment, I saw Anas' closeness to that man. I feel there is no hope for me. The days passed, I was still trying to ignore the feeling, but it just tormented me. Maybe, because I was too afraid to admit my feelings for Anas. Finally, I tried another way. I want to forget that feeling. I chose him and not Anas to be my lover. But, when I just found out that Anas also felt the same feelings as, I didn't even know what to do. At that time, I wanted to chase after him, but he was blocking my steps ... " Laras gawked in disbelief. "So all this time…" "Right. I'm sorry too. Because it turns out, I love him too. " The barrel was silent. "And it turns out that your love has grown together since the first semester of grade IX. That's right, Anas told me if he kept the feeling at the same time as you, "said Laras half surprised. Adela made a regretful smile but she tried to be strong. "Oh yes. Anas didn't tell you about the title of this song? " asked Adela. "If I'm not mistaken, Anas titled this song 'WHY DO I LOVE YOU' ..."