Hi! My name is Sarah and I would like to share about my romantic life. Everybody experiences such romantic events in their lives isn't it. Some may find it boring, some may find it amusing. Some would find it relatable and some may even find it sweet but what I think is what ever may be the ending of a relationship be, be it a happy one or a sad and depressed one every relationship have some things a person Cherish through their lives and some that they want to forget about. So now before start I would like to tell you all about my self.

I am a normal girl Post graduated in Mathematics as my major. In my life till now I had only one relationship that too during my college(under graduation). But that relationship lasted almost for 5 years, and even without realising our relationship turned into a battle leading to Break-up that not only broke me emotionally but mentally too. I loved him so much that even today I cannot about any other person in a romantic way.

During my School days I was always a great student focusing always on my studies getting good great being a great student bringing all the fame and appreciation to my parents. Not only I was got it studies, but I was also good in my curricular. I was good at painting, I was good at playing volleyball. I even took dance classes. Some might be thinking that I might be blabbering about myself but that how I was.

But I was a kind of person who hated attention the most. So during my high school I generally focused all my attention towards my studies. Why? Because I wanted to get into a very prestigious college. For that I gave up upon all my hobbies, all my curriculum. I even stop hanging out with my friends picking up their phone calls texting and everything that would consume my time. And so by the end of my high school I became the most unpopular person that he could have ever met.

But in spite of that I managed to get almost 6 to 7 proposals during my high school, and you all know the answer. Yes I rejected them all. But don't think that I rejected them in public. I asked them to meet me alone and then respectfully rejected their proposal. Now rejecting the proposes had nothing to do with my studies I rejected them because I had a crush on a boy for almost 4 years. I met him during Mathematics Olympiad session and since that day I had crush on him later on I came to know that he was from my nearby neighborhood and by fortune he was transferred into my school. It was a strike of Fortune on me by the God. He was not so popular and average kind of looking guy but what attracted me towards him causes brilliant wave handling situations and yes he was an all-rounder whether it comes to his studies or it comes to his curriculum. I just became his fan.

But as you all know how teenagers are like shy, afraid to tell about their feelings to their crush, about their looks, about their personality, about everything, and so I was. Because of this factor I respect everybody, every single boy that proposed me. I really respect them even today for putting out their feelings in front of me inspire being so scared.

And to be very honest I was never able to confront my feelings and tell him how I actually felt about him. Because Firstly I was focusing on my studies and Secondly I was afraid that if words get into my parent ear's specially my father he would have sliced me , diced me into millions of pieces and then would have feed them to dogs. Trust me on that. Since he was a boy from my nearby neighborhood then things would have been messy and I am sure sure that my father could have came to know about my relationship, so I refrain myself from confessing. I didn't even tell my best friend about him. She got so mad that she didn't have a conversation with me for almost 2 months. But on the last day of our High School graduation I decided to confess my feelings to him in front of everybody. But guess what he never appeared, and so I lost my last chance to confess my feelings to him and later on I got to know that his father just got transferred, and so he went to live in the same city as his parents.

So this was how my school Romance was like

The worst feeling that I could have ever experienced that time was not able to convey my feelings to him. That took over me for more than three months. That person was neither on Instagram nor on Facebook. Neither I had his contact number nor any other kind of social media. Gosh! that was kind of scary because I used to cry over my own foolishness. But guess what, last year when I met him I told him about my feelings for him that I used to have and guess what he shared same feeling for me too. But he did not ever try to confess his feelings because by that time I had rejected almost 6 to 7 boys, so he was quite skeptical about whether I would accept his proposal or reject him, brutally crashing his confidence and self-esteem. "What the hell that came from", I thought to myself. I never had such kind of bad image and even if I had, I had no friends to tell me about so let it be the past now. Now what I am happy about is that I was able to convey my feelings to that person. It really felt like someone had lifted a very heavyweight up from me.

But when I think about it now I realize that even if we had confessed our feelings to each other than also nothing would have changed because at the end of the day it would have turned into a long distance relationship, and things would have not worked out for us. Now we are quite good friends we do share lots of hobbies and interest. If we had got in a relationship and things would have turned ugly then I would have lost a good friend.

Now don't think that I never had a relationship. I had only one relationship in whole 23 years that continued for over 3 years 6 months that was the most romantic and precious relationship that I ever held and is also the most painful relationship that I could ever have. Breaking up is not tough whether be it in a friendship or be it in a relationship. But moving on is at least for me, I can say. It took me whole two years to move on from that person and focus on my life.

But that break up made me realize that in a relationship physical pleasures or connection is not something that I want. What I want is to see my person smile I can go on forever just by knowing that my person is living healthy, happy and safe life but not with somebody else obviously me otherwise it would be considered cheating. In fact, I just want my person to support me mentally and emotionally. A person who will let me know that no matter how hard my day is he will always be there to support me. You can work hard and smart to earn money. You can even change your appearance but what you cannot alter is feelings that other person have for you.

Don't worry I'll be sharing all my secrets regarding my Love life so stay tuned.