SUNNY

"Sunny, when do you plan to finish these manuscripts?"

"I don't know, Eloise." I answered without looking at my friend who is probably standing behind me, while holding a bunch of papers with unfinished stories. I put my legs up my purple swivel chair and hug them as I settled my fair face over my arms.

"What the hell, Sunny!? Fix your goddamn life. Get over him." he said after sitting on the chair in front of me. After he mentioned 'him' I can't help myself but remember that day.

“Happy birthday, Auntie Hellen.” I greeted his mom and gave her my gift as I saw her talking to her amigas near by the pool area.

“Woah, you look amazing as always hija.” She held me and lightly brushed our cheeks from left to right as a casual greeting. After that she introduced me to her colleagues and threw some jokes about our intimate daughter and mother like relationship. Subsequently, I excused myself and asked Auntie Hellen about Yve. She laughed as she heard my question like it is amusing to her.

“You are really adorable, Sunny. You and Yve were really inseparable since you were young.” She smiled at me and kissed me one last time on my cheeks.

I smiled.

“Yve felt a bit sick earlier so I asked him to stay at his room. You can just go there or do you want me to call Nanny Cecil to assist you?” She continued.

I shook my head and said, “No, thanks Auntie. I can handle myself. Thank you again. I excuse myself.” I looked at her and her friends and smiled at them as I leave their table. I gave them a small wave before I turned to the direction of their house’s entrance.

When I entered their house, I looked for my gift in my classic red Chanel bag that I bought for Yve because I haven’t had the chance to attend his birthday last week. It was a necklace with a small angel pendant. I bought it for him because it reminds me the first time that we met and for me he is such an angel.

Sadly, I didn’t get the chance to give it to him at the exact day of his birthday because I was so busy with my studies and I didn’t have the time to travel to the city. Though, luckily, I have a free time today.

“Oh! Nice meeting you again, Sunny!” I was so shocked to respond to the voice that I have heard. I just found myself enveloped to Nanny Cecil’s hug. I kissed Nanny Cecil’s forehead for as she is shorter than me and as a sign of our closeness.

“Sunny, you keep on growing taller. You used to be this small.” She said as she showed me her hands trying to describe how little I am when I was younger. I laughed at her as I saw her wide smile that I’m very fond of.

“I know po.” I said as I hugged her tighter.

“Ah! Oh!”

I instantly released her from our hug when I heard some noise by the other end of the corridor. I’m not sure but it sounds like someone was hurting. Was it Jessica? I tried to walk to the other end when I felt Nanny Cecil’s hand.

“Uhm, have you eaten already?” She asked looking nervous about something.

“Not yet.” I answered. I heard the noise again and so I walked to its direction.

“Let’s go downstairs, Sunny.” She held my hand tighter trying to stop me from getting near to the other end.

“I’ve heard someone po. Let’s go there, Nanny Cecil. Is it Jessica? I though she’s in U.S?” I asked. I stepped again but she tightened her gripped to my wrist. I stared at her face and I saw a pleading look from her eyes. I also saw something different from her gaze.

Was it pain?

Sympathy?

As her hands enveloped my wrist into a hard grip, I couldn’t help but try to free myself from her.

“Nanny Cecil, let go of me.”

“No, hija. Please, listen to me.” She pleaded while showing me sadness from her eyes.

“Ah! Touch me there!”

I removed Nanny Cecil’s hands away from me, the moment I heard a woman’s voice at the other end of the hallway. I heard Nanny Cecil’s voice but I didn’t listen to her. I just ran to the direction of the sound of screams while hardly gripping to my gift for Yve.

I just ran without minding her pleas and later on, I found myself standing in front

of a door.

A very familiar door.

“Come on, Shania. Don’t tease me.”

A very familiar voice.

“Did you have fun? Do you want another ride to the heaven, babe?” I instantly look at the gape of the door when I heard the woman’s voice inside.

“What are you doing again, Sunny? Are you crying again?”

I hurriedly reach for my shirt and tried to wipe my tears off my face when I heard Eloise voice.

“No, Eloise.” I answered as fix my messy curls.

“Oh, dear. Never lie to me Sunny girl. You should forget about him. You and him ended the moment he chose that girl over you.” He spoke as he brushes my hair with his fingers.

“Just forget about him. I know that it isn’t easy even though I’m not in your position and I have never experienced your situation. But I’m only telling you this because you are my best friend and I don’t want to see you hurting every day. Okay? Get over him. What happened months before stays in the past.” He continued while wiping off my tears that I didn’t realize that were falling since earlier.

“I don’t know what to do anymore, Eloise. I’m tired from crying but I can’t seem to get numb. I can’t undo the pain.” I cried to his chests as he continuously rubs my back trying to comfort me.

“Cry, dear. Let yourself feel the pain. Let yourself feel tired. In time it will fade. Stop crying okay. If you continue crying, you’ll have no choice but to accept the fact that I will be prettier than you.” After hearing him talk, I can’t stop myself but embrace him and smile knowing that everything’s going to be better.

SUNNY

It’s been hours when I was rolling back and forth over my bed. Yet I can’t find any peace of mind to make myself close my eyes and visit the dreamland. I hurriedly stand as I got an idea on what thing I should do. I stood up while my whole physique is wrapped up with a fluffy purple blanket. I grabbed my mobile phone over my white nightstand and opened up my contacts to text Eloise. But as I was creating a message for him, I realized that it’s already pretty late and he might be sleeping because it’s just 1 am in the morning.

I put my phone over the desk and look at myself at mirror. I saw my ugliness through my reflection in the mirror. My skin is so pale and so as my lips. My eyebags are too big that it almost looks like it has its own life which I think will wave at me sooner or later. Eh, you turn yourself into a mess, Sunny.

As I started to touch my face, I can’t help but remember the things that Yve told to me.

“Sunny, you are unattractive. You are not sexually pleasing. Just looking at you makes me think that I am in a relationship with a kid. Our relationship won’t work because you are also too modest and too proper. Let’s end this maybe it’s also God’s will.”

Jokes on him. How dare he used His name? Lol, if he wanted to end our relationship, he should have been just honest that he got tired of me and he did not find me desirable enough. Fvck all of his shitty reasons.

So, what if I am too modest? Too proper?

It wasn’t my mistake if I grew up with a good upbringing.

So, what if I am unattractive in his eyes? Or if I look like younger than my age?

There might be something wrong in his eyes that he didn’t see my true beauty. I should be glad that I don’t look old. Right?

Right, Sunny?

How come that I know my worth? Yet, feel so worthless over something that’s so trivial.

How come that I know my worth? Yet, I’m always at the scale of being too much or being not enough.

Wake up, Sunny. This is not new. Don’t sulk on things that isn’t worth it. I stared at my reflection and tried to smile at myself. Sunny, you are your own sunshine and light. Don’t let his downgrading words cover your light. Brighten up, biatch.

The moment I bring myself to smile at my own appearance, I rummaged my drawers for a hair scissors and sat in front of my vanity mirror. Without second thoughts I cut my long wavy hair, short.

“I love it long. It fits your cute face.”

No, I think short hair fits me better. I just found myself crying out loud while letting my black hair strands fall above my legs and the cold tiled floor. After minutes of my drama and cutting my hair I can’t help but giggle as my hair cut turned better than what I have expected.

“You are damn gorgeous, Sunny.” I whispered to myself while smiling with my teary eyes.

Later on, I found myself lying comfortably on my bed while slowly dozing off the nothingness.

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“Who are you!?”  I laughed as I found Eloise’s shocked faced covered with his green tea facial mask while wearing his cute pink silky robe and bunny slippers.

“Is this, Sunny? Oh, my days! Am I dreaming?” he continued as he wiped off his face mask with his robe which looks so unhygienic. I smiled sweetly and performed a little turn to emphasize to him my jumper dress and it’s me who’s wearing it. Of course, duh. Who else?

“Biatch, I’m back. Why are you over reacting?” I asked as I removed his mask using my facial wipes.

“Holy fvck!? I am not dreaming. Okay, wait for me I’ll just change into some fashionable clothes. Wait for me, biatch. Give me fifteen minutes. Oh no, that’s not enough. Thirty will do.” He exclaimed as he ran up to his room like an excited child.

“Even if it takes three days, I do not mind.” Knowing Eloise, he will probably wear some of his grandiose outfits and hours will be too short for his get ready with me antics.

An hour later, I found him wearing a casual manly attire. It looks manly at him even though he wears a pink long sleeve paired with black jeans and white rubber shoes. If he won’t speak, I am sure girls will definitely beg for his number.

“Will I drive us to school?” He asked.

“No, I brought my car.” I answered.

When we reached the school parking lot, I parked my car at the west wing. Before going out I already saw some of Eloise fan girls. I laughed at the thought of Eloise being pissed off again with little girls.  As we got off the car the girls giggle and went to Eloise.

“Senior, can you please give me your number?’

“Senior, can I just call you El?”

I bursts out laughing when I saw the horrified looked at Eloise face.

“Oh, my days! You girls are stressing my bangs. Shoo! Get away from me.” I laughed louder as he drove them away like dogs. His eyebrows are forming into a line as he dusted off his long sleeve that was touched by one of the freshmen.

“Lmao, Eloise. Stop being mean to our freshmen.”

“Shut up, Sun. You know that I only like hot men that has glistening abs.” He dreamily said while waving his hands to our school’s men soccer team who’s busy jogging to the green field.

“Damn, Brooke is so hot. I need a glass of cold water.” He continued as he fans himself while we are walking to our classroom.

We sat at the back of the classroom since it is our favorite place. Eloise being a biatch as always took his iPhone 12 pro max even though we should not use our phones during class. I leaned closer to him to check what he was doing but he was just reading boy's love comics again. I took out my iPhone too since the lesson that was being discussed was already discussed in our previous years. While scrolling I saw something interesting. It was called as ‘Click.”

I opened my browser and input it on the search bar. The website flashed right before my eyes after loading for seconds, and since I’m such a curious child I read some of its terms. After a few minutes of scrolling, I decided to sign up to the website using one of my dummy email account.

-Enter your username-

       _Sunshine

-Enter your password-

         **********

-Enter your password again for confirmation-

         **********

-Enter valid email address for account validation-

        light_gchn@cmail.com

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Account created and signed in.

I smiled when my account was signed in. Should I browsed more?

Before I can browse through the website I heard some footsteps towards my place so I quickly settled my face over the wooden desk and put my phone to my jumper's pocket.

"Mr. Gibson, what do you think you are doing at my class?" What the hell!? I think Eloise will be doomed as I heard that our teacher mentioned his surname. Aigoo.

"Give me your phone after class."

"Sir, it was a mistake. I was checking my mom's text." Eloise reasoned out. I listened to him without removing my face away from the table. I just shut my eyes of tighter as I hear Sir Kin's voice.

"You should have informed me about it, Mr Gibson. For now your phone is confiscated. You can take your sim card and memory card before giving your phone to me after class."

Oh, days. Poor you Eloise.

"How about you, Miss Guanzon? Why are you sleeping in my class?"

What the actual fvck? Calm down, Sunny. Think of a reason.

"Miss Guanzon, wake up." After he tapped my shoulder for a couple times I faked a tear and decided to face Sir Kin.

Putting up a face with a fake discomfort I started to speak. "Sorry, Sir. I really can't handle the pain from my dysmenorrhea so I slept for a while." I reached for my stomach and act like I am really in pain. I even let some faked tears fall from my eyes.

"I am really sorry, Sir. I haven't informed you." I acted.

"No, no, it's fine Miss Guanzon. Do you want me to assist you to the school clinic?" He worriedly asked. I looked at Eloise and winked at him for our go-to sign.

"I'll just help her out, Sir." Eloise stared at me bewilderingly. I secretly winked at him again and acted in pain again.

"You may go." Sir Kin said.

SUNNY

“Oh, my days! What was that Sun?” I laughed when I saw his confused face.

“I saved our asses, biatch. See you still have your phone and I wasn’t even scolded.” I replied to him while laughing hard.

“Geez, so you don’t have your time of the month eh? I guess I got worried for nothing.” Eloise said while he messes up his light brown hair.

I smiled at him and held his arms to guide him to my black BMW.

“Where are we going, biatch?” He asked while fixing his seatbelt beside me.

“Let’s go to the salon. I want to let some professionals to fix my hair. Don’t worry it’s my treat. What do you want? Manicure, pedicure, hair spa or haircut?” I asked while putting my car keys.

Eloise who’s more girly than me promptly applause in excitement. He even pouted while checking out his

face on the car’s rearview mirror. Oh, dear. A girl soul trapped in to a man’s body. Yah.

“Sun, let’s go to the salon with topless haircutters.”

“Are you that thirsty biatch? Do you want me to report you to your father?” I jokingly asked as I stepped on the gas pedal. I know that it will make him go on silent because he is afraid with the thought of letting his father know that he is a gay. He acted like sipping his mouth and settled on the shotgun seat like a very nice kid.

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“What service would you like to get ma’am and sir?” A guy went to assist us as soon as we enter their shop.

“Oh, my days! Can’t he see I am also a miss?” Eloise whispered to me while rotating his eyes like a fine-as s biatch.

“I told you, we should have gone to the sexy salon. I’m sure if we went there, I will be treated better.” He continuously said while folding both of his arms over to his chest.

“Shh, shut up Eloise.” I whispered back to him. I went to the staff as I saw Eloise settling on one of the brown leather couches near by the clear one-way mirror.

 “I’ll have a haircut, hair coloring, manicure, and pedicure.”  I looked at Eloise to ask what he would like and he just sent me our favorite signal, finger heart. It’s like our go to sign which means that he’ll have what I chose.

“That guy sitting over there will also take what I’d get. Okay?”

“Is that all ma’am?” The staff asked me again for confirmation while writing some stuffs on a piece of paper.

Before I can say yes, a bright idea clouded my mind.

I smiled to stop the staff from drawing out another piece of paper and said another thing.

“Wahhhh! I curse you biatch from the heaven to hell. Oh, my dear guardian angels! This hurt.” Eloise screamed while the lady sitting in front of him removed the wax from his hairy legs.

“I curse you, Sun!” I grinned at him. Then, covered my face after noticing that we are getting a lot of attention from the other customers.

I heard Eloise’s unending screams but I just ignored him and continuously scroll at my account’s feed.  As I was scrolling, I remember the website Click. I hurriedly opened up my browser and looked for it. Thereafter. I logged in and changed my profile. I put up my picture which shows my cute face covered with my full bangs. I also edited the other information about me.

Age: 18          

Sex:Female        

Country:  Do not display

Bio: Newbie. I love arts and anime.

Later on, I changed the website’s theme using the settings. I turned its bright light mode into dark mode. I also muted the sound options from its notification and put it in vibration mode. I just sigh when I finish changing the options based on my preference.

Is my bio fine? Should I change it?

I think I should change it. Before I could change my bio, my phone vibrates and fifteen notifications appeared on my screen. I checked one of them and saw a handsome guy. Hence, I think his face is a bit familiar.

TeenBen12: Hello, welcome to Click.

Should I reply or not?

I think I should, right?  I don’t want to be rude.

_Sunshine: Hey! Thank.

TeenBen12: Cam with me and have fun. I’m good with naughty stuffs.

What the fvck is this? I found myself feeling so disrespected with his approach so I blocked his account without hesitation. Damn you, jerk!

After blocking him I read the other messages from guests and users and just found myself blocking more boys because of their faulty mouths. I only stopped blocking people after I have read all the messages that I have received. I saw few people chatting on the website’s main chat so I decided to try and join them.

Main Chat

insanegirl: Wtf, James you are stupid as always.

James: At least I am not ugly like you, midget.

Carlyhan: Shut up you two. You sound like children from kindergarten. What are you guys, 5?

_Sunshine: Hey!

insanegirl: Damn you are so pretty.

Guest22: Yo _Sunshine

Guest106: Please be my girlfriend _Sunshine,

Aeron: _Sunshine, are you Japanese?

theBaddestgirl: Where you at Samantha? Check out my dm to you btch!

_Sunshine: Guest22 hello sup?

KennedySmith: Hmu girls.

_Sunshine: Thanks, insanegirl.

insanegirl: I am not pertaining to you. I was talking to myself.

_Sunshine: Aeron, I am not but I am pure Asian.

xxLovexx: Have fun with me. Dm me if interested.

James: Sorry for her child-like attitude she is premature.

insanegirl: You mean immature, jerk?

Aeron: Can we talk in dms _Sunshine?

_Sushine: Yeah, sure.

_Sunshine: It’s fine James. It’s not a big deal 😊

When I checked my messages, I saw Aeron’s messages with other few messages from different users. Hence, I only opened the messages from Aeron.

Aeron: What’s up _Sunshine?

_Sunshine: Nothing much. Just chilling. How about you?

Aeron: I am doing great though I am kind of bored.

Aeron: Do you have any other social media accounts that I can contact you with?

“Hey, Sun! Can’t you hear me?”  Before I can type a reply for Aeron’s message, Eloise already snatched my phone and turned it off which made my eyebrows form into a line.

“What, Eloise?! I am doing something. Give my phone back.”

He smiled at me and bat his eyelashes like he is trying to irritate me more.

“Pay now, Sun.”

With that, I stood up and proceeded to the payment desk.

“Ma’am, would you pay with cash or card?” the woman smiled friendly at me.

“I’ll pay with my card.” I opened up my favorite red Chanel bag and gave her my debit card to pay for the tab.