My name is Poison, a girl  who never think that she's different from other and always tried to make new friends.

Today I'm going to tell you my story, I know well every and each person have their own story like that my story begin,

I'm a girl who was born not because my parents wanted a child but without their consent. After my birth, my father abandoned mother and me telling my mother, she can't even give birth to a son as first child and married to another woman.... you know when he did that I was only 2 month child ... because I'm a daughter after I born he never even lift me in his hand nor looked at me ... and abandoned us...  my mother who was alone in a room beside me without any food nor vegetables that can be eaten and she was weak but she always looked at me and started crying "dear... why did your father leave us in this situation?"... she do some little work so that she can feed me and herself ... everynight whenever she looked at the food that is 'potato and soup' only.. she cried and cried everynight .... ... like that I grew up to 3 years old...

I asked my mother because I don't know anything, " Mama, where's father?"

then she always put a smile on her face saying "dear, your father's working outside the country and soon will come to meet you with many dolls" caressing my hair

and my answer was like this ," Really mama, poison's so happy that father's coming soon"

what I don't know was everytime I asked my mother that question eventhough she put on a smile infront of me but always cried when I'm not near.... she was a single mother who raised me without letting other people saying bad about me 

After I come to age of 4, we shifted to auntie[mother big sister] house ... and there mother do work like cooking and washing clothes,utensils like that she earn some money and think to save it for future use... since my mother is kind and naive ... my auntie made a use of her and telling her to give the money my mother earn and will save it in 7% interest which will help you ... and my naive mom believe her and give all the money she earned....  one day mother saw that auntie is giving me cold food and cursing me saying that "her daughter always have to cared by her whole life ... tsk useless" ... my mother heard that and then she asked auntie to return her  money but she easily said that it was all used in my two daughters clothes so there's no money, haha... now that your money's finished ... you should also get lost from here ....

 My mother was heartbroken again and write a letter to grandma[mother's mother ] asking that can I come to home mom... this happenend ... she decribed eveything in letter and aske for help but you know what the reply came from that letter .... "you have to take care of your husband first and hold a grip ... tsk.. such a useless daughter of mine... don't come back to here because my daughter-in-law are here ... don't you dare to come here nor message me]....  

Is this the letter a mother send to her daughter who was fooled by her own husband and sister.... and I think god's also mocking and have hatred at us .... you know why I think that because as the time pass by I got difficulties in walking and always got sick.... my mother use all her money to cure my disease... and one time I was severly sick like I'll not alive now anymore and the doctors also lost the hope and said that "she's dead ... sorry we can't save her"... my mother who carefully give her all attention and used all her fortune in my growth... she fell apart and stated to thinking " what ... what should I do now?... my daughter... why did they say like that"... doctor please save her please