I fell in love once with a guy who was tall and handsome but at the end of it, I was heartbroken. He left me in tears that day. Meanwhile, I was questioning myself what I did to make things go downhill. Since then I’ve never loved anyone else. It’s been 10 years since that happened, but I will never regret it when he made me one of him. One day I will get my revenge and hurt him slowly just how he hurt me. Except I can't hurt him because I still love him with all my heart so what should I do at this point? Should I just give up on love and become a cold-hearted v-vampire? Or should I stay soft-hearted and keep loving someone who hurts me day by day? Should I confront him about what he has been doing behind my back, cheating on me, and making me suffer? He's hiding things from me and he has become more distant ever since he had ch-change me. I miss my family, my mom, my dad, which died five months ago but they're in a better place hopefully looking out for me, protecting me. My love is so harsh sometimes I wish he'd change someday maybe if we had children. Maybe that's what he wants but doesn't know. I feel bad for my love because as a vampire you're supposed to hear each other's thoughts, but I can't hear his and that might be hurting him and now thinking about it that might be the reason that he's so distant from me. Just maybe if he'd stay with me and showed me or I guess prove that he loves me, maybe then I might be able to hear his thoughts. I know deep down that he cares for me, he's just bad at expressing his feelings with people he loves. I started to cry i-i guess...I just feel unloved, unwanted by my Benjamin Dear....one day he will be happy..wait no...the both of us will be happy soon I hope.

I woke up the next morning, and Benjamin was gone. I got up from my bed and went to the study room to see if he was there. I saw him passed out, an empty whisky bottle beside him, and broken glass on the floor. I cleaned up the glass from the floor and put the empty bottle in the trash. I left the room after cleaning up the mess. I had gone to the kitchen to make breakfast for Benjamin and me. Benjamin had woken up and walked down the stairs. “Good morning,” I said as I smiled. “Good morning to you too,” he replied. He had gone to the table to eat the food I had just made. I joined him at the table and ate my breakfast. “I have to go to the office today and I won’t be home till 10 pm tonight honey” he had said. I had looked at him and all I said was “oh okay have fun with your OTHER GIRLS”. I had run to my room and slammed the door after I had said that. Benjamin runs up the stairs after me and stops at the shut door.” dannazione si apre la porta dang” (god damn it open the dang door) he yelled. “No, non sto aprendo la porta” (no, I'm not opening the door) I replied. “bene allora essere pronti per stasera” (fine then be ready for tonight) he said walking away. I gulped. “Im screwed now…” I told myself.

I was home alone and a couple of hours have passed. “Boss” Benjamin’s assistant had said.  “Yes, bell” he had said in an angry tone. “Boss what's making u feel down?” she replied. “Nothing bell,” he said in a flirty way. Bell starts to get touchy and Benjamin was enjoying every little bit of it. It has been 3 hours since he had left and yet I miss him. I had gotten dressed and ready for the day and made lunch for Benjamin and I. I had gone to see Benjamin in his office. I had walked through the doors and I stood there for a minute and I didn't even notice I had dropped the food. I burst into tears and ran away from there as fast as I could. Benjamin had noticed that Katherine was there. “Bell stop” he yelled at her. “b-benjamin w-what's wrong” she replied. “This...this is wrong..you are fired,” he said in a serious tone. “W-what you can't fire me,” she said

“Guards” he yelled. “Yes sir,” the guards said. “Take her away now” he demanded. The guards took bell away and threw her out. I kept running and running until I got lost in the woods. I thought of calling Benjamin but then I thought I could just stay the night out here. Benjamin calls his buddy Damon. “Damon, I need your help finding Katherine,” he said. “Okay I'll help u but what did you do now bud?” Damon replied. “I-i did something I shouldn't have done, I was angry and I lost control and I slept with my assistant,” said Benjamin. “When will you ever stop hurting her, she loves you so much, and yet she still hasn't given up on you, you know that she is the first who hasn't given up on you..” “yeah..” Benjamin interrupted  “then why are u hurting her” Damon finished talking. “I don’t know,” said Benjamin. “Just help me find her” “okay fine I'll help” replied Damon. Benjamin hangs up the phone and searches for Katherine.  After a while Benjamin finds Kathrine in the woods “finally I found you” he said. I look at him with tears in my eyes “how could you...” “How could you do that to me?” I told him. I burst into tears again. “H-how…how...co.could..yo..you” all he did was look at me, didn’t say anything for five minutes. “I-i’m sorry…” he said “i didn’t mean to hurt you” “just leave me here if you're sorry,” I told him. “I can't just leave you here in the cold” he shouted “I haven't...you’ll die from being in this temperature.” “What do you mean I'll die...I'm one of you” I said. “No, no you're not I never really..bit you...which means I never changed you..” he said in a low voice. “WHAT” I shouted.