1 ABOUT SOULBOUND!

"Judi... Don't close your eyes please, please. See we are going to reach the hospital right away. Please, Judi, be with me. I am so...sorry that I didn't trust your words my love, My Judi but please don't get angry at your Xian ge. Just a few more minutes and we will reach the hospital."

Tang Xian's eyes were continuously following the same pattern of looking at things. he was constantly looking at the machines which were attached to Song Jun's body and then on the road where they were heading for the hospital to treat severely wounded Song Jun and again back to his face which was almost turned pale because of losing blood from the shot wounds.

"Xi...Xian...ge...Don't worry ge...I am ha...happy...that...That you...said that...you love me..."

As Song Jun removed the oxygen mask from his face, he tried to speak to his Xian ge but before he could finish his talk it was immediately pulled back on his nose by his Xian ge.

"Judi...No...Please don't s...speak. We will reach to hospital in five minutes...Then we will...talk f..for whole life..."

Though the words were not coming out of his mouth easily still, Tang Xian spoke as nothing happened to him but Song Jun knew his condition too. Tang Xian was also injured but still, he was going to be okay as his wounds were nothing in front of Song Jun.

Rivers were flowing through their eyes but still, they tried to show everything was okay but when the beeping sound on the machine increased in the ambulance Tang Xian's breath hitched, he looked back at his Judi's face which was looking back at him smiling so brightly but soon he realised that light of those eyes was sinking.

"You can't do this to me, Judi, you know that? Are you listening to me? Do you remember what you said when you were leaving me, that whenever I will call you, you will come back to regardless of where you are!"

Looking at Song Jun's inanimate face and pale lips Tang Xian remembered the last words which Song Jun said to him while finally going away from him, that day,

"Xian ge, we are not just soulmates but Soulbound! Our souls are bound with each other, till eternity. Even death cannot do apart us.

You will find me everywhere you will go, your heart will let you know I am there.

Your mind will keep you coming to me, now and then.

Your body will feel my presence in every part of you, as every cell of your body has me in it.

Your soul will shout hard, to find itself because it will never be able to distinguish itself from my soul, Xian ge!

I am within you and you are in me, My Soulbound. I'll always have you close to me, for I have met your heart."

"Soulbound is finding a love that never fades or grows dim, but shines bright, leading the way as two people travel life's road together!!!"

MAIN CHARACTERS

SONG JUN: Main character. He is six years younger than Tang Xian. They are best friends just like their mothers were best friends at a young age. He calls Tang Xian, Xian ge. In Chinese culture older brother is called a Gege! It is the way to show respect to the elder brother or a friend who is elder than your age!

TANG XIAN: Main Lead. He is a best friend, big brother to Song Jun. He is everything to Song Jun. He calls Jun, Judi. In Chinese culture, we call didi!

SONG ZITENG: Song Jun's father.

LI CARMAN: Song Jun's mother( In Chinese culture Female don't change their names)

TANG JIANMIN: Tang Xian's father.

ZHANG ZINGTONG: Tang Xian's mother.

LU YANLI: Tang Xian's best friend.

Dr Cao: Love interest of Lu Yanli.

MENG ZIYI: Song Xian's good friend of University and his colleague in XM studios.

MENG CHAO: Song Xian's boss in XM studios and Meng Ziyi's stepbrother.

Song Bai: Song Jun's deceased uncle. Song Ziteng's younger brother died at a very young age under very strange circumstances.

Song Mian: Song Bai's twin sister.

These are the main characters of the book. I will add other characters as they come into the book and show any importance in the story of the book.

2 THE FIRST EMOTION THAT BELONGS TO YOU!

{Song Jun's point of view}

I don't know why, but it was the first time I saw those emotions in his eyes very clearly. I must say he is very good at hiding his emotions.

If he will be an actor one day, he is going to win the heart of so many people in this whole world! He never ever showed those emotions to me openly like this day, after we confronted love and lovemaking, which he denied like it never happened! The things started without our realization, but with love and respect for each other.

I knew from the start that he loved me from the core of his heart, but he never ever voiced them to me even after our lovemaking and my constant approach but this time I saw it.

That I am more than just a friend for him.

That I am more than his small brother (his didi) for him.

More than a responsibility for him.

More than anything, More than other people in this world.

It was more than love, Ai, in my mother tongue because that feels so close to my heart.

Ai, Yes Ai, The love for which I was longing since the day I open my eyes I guess.

My mother used to tell me this story since I was small. When I opened my eyes for the first time in the world of emotions and feelings I cried like anything.

That was the first emotion one should feel. The very first emotion FEAR and in my case, I guess it was attached to me like my shadow! I cried for more than 2 hours not stopping at any cost.

It was like anytime soon, I will go back into the world from where I came. I didn't belong in this world but before I went back to the world where I came from, I met him who belonged to me. I found him in this new world!

My soulmate, my Xian ge!

Where my soul was bound to his soul for eternity.

something happened that time, that held me from going away from the world of the living.

Something happened that held me in this world of chaos and hate, into the world of meeting and parting, longing and belonging, into the world where we were supposed to stay.

That time my Xian ge happened.

Mother told me that looking at my miserable state, doctors decided to give me sedatives in a very small amount to control my cries and then treat me but before they could inject the needle in my vein small warm hands held me tightly in his small embrace. Not allowing doctors to hurt me by that needle.

His small round eyes also started to cry with me, looking at my painful cry. His cry was so terrible that everybody closed their ears with their hands.

His mother, my aye, came forward who was a best friend of my mother since they were small to take me out from his embrace. Watching her coming to him, he held me into his embrace more tightly but his mother threatened him to hand over me to the doctor.

But the adamant soul he was, kept doing his work! He was still crying loudly. His mother was scolding him literally screaming. All the nurses and doctor were making different offers to him to leave me.

Everything was in chaos but the one person who was still in her patience was my mother, who realized that I stopped crying in my Xian ge arms.

She has always been patient about me since the beginning. I just hope that she will be okay after this day ends. I just pray for her, to be strong enough to face her son's departure, just like she once saw someone, she treasured the most.

That time she shouted at everyone to shut up. Hurriedly she moved close to me and my Xian ge. She cupped his crying face in her hand and said in her lovely and sweet voice,

"Xian Xian, Stop crying see your didi stopped crying and he is looking at his Xian age. If you will cry like a small baby, then he will also cry again and then the doctor will definitely inject him"

His mouth stopped making sound but his sobs could be heard by everyone in the room. His eyes were still running water like a river but not like before they were happy! A happy and playful river.

"He stopped crying...my didi stopped crying...mama* can you see he is looking at me right?? Aye* look he is looking at me... Mama! See he is so beautiful like an angel...Mama, can you see his eyes? He is looking at me, only me!!!"

"Yes son, he stopped crying and looking at you and you know why because he understood that he is in safe hands now because his Xian ge loves him so much.

He knows very well that his Xian ge will never let anything bad happen to his didi! Will you protect and love him for whole life right, Xian Xian?"

My mother asked him a question and he answers her in his sweet baby voice looking at me determining

"Yes, I will love him and protect him till the end of my life, forever!!!"

The six year old big brother and a best friend promised his didi that he will love and protect him for whole life, forever!

What an irony he was still holding me in his embrace and trying to stop my bleeding with his hands when the reason behind all this was him. No, I am not blaming him, but the reason for our misery was the same unconditional love we had for each other, that took almost everyone's life in danger.

He was constantly saying that he will not do anything wrong now.To his Judi that he will not let anything happen to me, when he was also there with me, bleeding like me. Though his injuries were minor, still they threatened me to the core!

Drenched in his own blood that old man was holding his love in his embrace, trying to convince him that nothing bad will happen to him. When he was also having a bullet in his body.

"Xia...Xian ge...I... I don't want to live an..anymore. This world..wi..will never..let me be with you. I... I don't want to live s.. single sec... second but once for on...once tell me...wh...what you..fe..feel for me truly... I am ready to die Xian ge...I am happy...t...to die...in my Xian ge's arms...."

"No no you are not dying and I am not going to tell yo...you what... I fe..feel about you...If you...w...want to know t...then d...don't die. L...live then I...w...will...tell you...then..."

"Xian ge...It...it is not... possible...pl... please on...once say those words... I will be at peace..."

"Judi... I am not going to say it now...You live then I will tell you...."

He was so damn stubborn. So stubborn that when I was dying, he still didn't want to say it but this time I will not listen to him because I know that last bullet hit in my chest, maybe in my heart. It got difficult to breathe properly. I don't have time. I can't wait for him anymore, I can't.

As I gathered my last laboured breaths I told him in a .firm voice a big lie of my life,

"Xian ge I will live...I...if you will tell m..me what ...you f..feel for me...The truth...only truth... I promise you that I will live....mmhmm"

He didn't let me finish my words. His warm lips touched my cold lips and I felt like the entire world around me stopped.

His warm lips made my bleeding heart at peace. My entire existence felt alive like never before, just like those days when we finally became one! It was so different, different from all those kisses which I forcefully robbed from him after our differences were born in our relationship!

It was a different feeling than before when I asked him to give me a kiss by blackmailing him. Yes, I blackmailed him for everything, for kisses, for spending his time with me, for making me his priority after our so called true relationship turned into ugly truth for him!

But that was lust and jealousy but never gave me even 1 % of satisfaction but this kiss completed me! I wanted him badly to stay by my side notwithstanding anything! That time all I thought was not to let him go away from me! The only way I found good was to hold him back!

Never realized that the truth of our relationship's state was way too pure just like a white lotus! Yes, the purest of all!!!

It’s worth my wait for you Xian ge!

It’s worth of my journey for you Xian ge!

It’s worth the effort for you Xian ge!

I don't know what will happen next but if there is god then I have only one request, that if I have done any good deed in my life please give it to me to save my Xian ge's life and make it better. Send me to hell I don't want to go to heaven just let my Xian ge live his life.

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Author's note :

Mama - Mother in Mandarin

Aye - Aunt

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3 LONGING FOR DAYS OF PURE LOVE!

{Song Jun's point of view}

"I will not say I missed you Xian ge because for missing a person we love, we need to forget about them for some time but there was never a single moment when I forgot about you.

You were always there in my mind and in my heart! It was impossible for me to forget you even for a single moment!!"

That day I was waiting for him on the aisle to come and fetch me. We were going to meet each other after 10 years! Yes, a long time, really a long time which I survived without him, even I don't know how?

Believe me, everyone! When you wait for someone, even a single minute also feels like a year and I waited to meet him for 10 years! It was like a century or more than centuries for me!

My heart was pounding fast, so wanton that I almost felt like if it kept on going like this, it would explode inside and will come breaking all my rib cages. The thought of meeting him after our wretched parting. I was trying to keep calm but to failed miserably!

My face was as usual passive. A bitch face as they all call it but people still love me with that face or I can say they can die to get just one closer look of it!

I was waiting for him desperately. It was the first time in the last ten years that I came back home. My home but everything has changed here, like a whole new world immersed in front of my eyes, taking a new shape!

My eyes were constantly moving to every corner of the airport! The feeling of love crawling inside my whole body giving me small small electronic currents all over my body!

I put on my mask, hoodie and goggles. Yes, I needed to hide my identity here and for my privacy, I needed to hide everywhere I go! I was the face of a famous boy band! People, especially girls, were after me. Yes, boys were also equally mad for me for always running after me for pictures, videos, selfies and sometimes for touch.

I hated it. I hated it the most when someone used to touch me, but what can I do? I was the one who chose to be in this field leaving my father's flourishing business. Now it was inevitable to not get touched or pictured every time I moved in public.

But after putting on a mask, hoodie and hiding my identity I saw a person out there with whom I was in love was getting proposed to by a girl and on top of it by a very beautiful girl. I hated it, saying that the girl was so beautiful but I was never that sort of person who couldn't see something which is gorgeous for everyone's eyes!

In front of my eyes, he was smiling pleasantly looking at the girl, who was kneeling in front of him with red roses in her hands!

How was I supposed to tolerate that? How can I just stay idle in front of it? I know he is also getting famous slowly but still, it hurt somewhere inside my chest? I felt like someone stabbed me in my chest for thousands of times.

My heart summoned me to stop in front of him and shoved that girl out of my sight and then scold him about it by holding his collar, but how would I scold him? What would I have asked? Why are you smiling when she is proposing to you?? Why are you letting her do it???

If I would have asked all those questions he would have asked one question to me, wouldn't he???

"Who are you to ask me this? What relationship do we have that you are asking me this question?"

Then what answer would I have given him?

That I love him since the day I have memories of my childhood or he was the one I wanted to love for my whole life? He was the one with whom I wanted to spend my life with! My existence in this world was only because of him. Or I am a boy but still fall in love with a boy?

And that too in front of everyone who will judge him for it! No, I could not possibly do that. I can take all the slandering, scolding for myself but can't see someone doing it with him and that too when I don't know anything about his feelings for me!!!

Maybe he also loved that girl from the bottom of his heart!

It was making me go berserk but I controlled my feelings at that time just thinking about his image and stood there just looking at the scene like a maniac, but after some time it became blurry and I felt pain in my throat. It became difficult to breathe in that air!

The lonely drop of tear flowed from my left eye. I touched the wet thing on my cheek and its warmth made me realize that I was crying. I looked down at my phone and averted my gaze from my Xian ge. My gege, the only word left from my lips,

MINE!!!

And I walked away from him but yes in the same way he was standing. I walked past him slightly touching his back taking the breath in the same air my Xian ge was standing. Taking his scent in my lungs after a long wait of 10 years!

He became really tall, just like me! When we were kids he was way too taller than me but now things have changed. I was way too small from him and clingy too!

Till I was five I asked him to carry me sometimes on his back and sometimes in front too. Circling my legs around his small waist. Sniffing and kissing his neck all the time.

Yes! I was clingy, gluey, gummy but only with him. We were inseparable or it will be right to say that I was inseparable from him!!!

Till the time I was a toddler I used to wait for him to come home from school like a good child but as soon as he used to take the first step home, I used to make his life hell!!!

Yes, I was like that since the first day of my life! As an infant, I used to cry for hours for him to return back home. Then slowly when I grew up I started to wait for him at aye's home. I used to have my lunch, dinner, snacks only from his hands!

We used to play for hours but for that, he started to sacrifice his sleep to complete his homework in the night to not to miss anything.

One day when I slept over at his home, I got up in the middle of the night for water and saw him doing his studies.

"Gege why are you studying in the night? Don't you feel sleepy? Come and sleep with me right now..."

I ordered and he obeyed like always but the same night I got up again to see him sitting on his study table and then like always I made it hard for him to complete his work!

He silently came and slept next to me but I was stubborn from a young age. I circled myself around his body like an octopus. It's just that I had only 4 limbs!!!

Next day morning after my nursery school I asked mama why gege studies at night. That day was the first day I learnt that my gege loves me more than anything!

"My JuJu! He studies in the night just to give all the time to you! Do you know how much your Xian loves you??"

I knew how much my Xian ge loved me! I opened my arms fully to show my mama.

"He loves me like a big earth loves the moon who never let go of his Moon anywhere always keeps him near her!"

"Yes, what your Xian ge says is so correct, but do you know to keep that Moon constantly with her she has to make many sacrifices. It hurts JuJu, very badly. Do you want your Xian to be that Earth, who hurts herself to keep her Moon to herself??"

"Mama, my Xian ge is in pain??"

Tears made their way out as soon as words fell on the ear and then to the heart.

"Mama I am hurting my Xian ge?? Mama tell me am I hurting him??"

My mother was always this kind to me and my Xian ge,

"No my child you can never hurt your Xian ge, never but if you will give him time to complete his work in day time then he will also have peaceful night sleep. Do you understand my boy?"

"Yes, mama!! Now I will always give him time to do his own thing and after that, I will keep him for only myself!"

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

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