walking through the gate for the first time to high school held butterfly in her stomach even she is the most toxic of all.

"boring"-Amanda.

walking towards security office is the only way to find out where she belong in this school time.

"Morana Amanda-class A science,two blocks away."-auncle Leong as he addressed himself to her.

"Ok"-Amanda.

she walks towards the new building as the security told her before.her eyes went all over the building searching for the class.she found it.

"finally"-Amanda

worst felling went all over her heart as she walked in.felling unwanted and unneeded.her eyesight went blur,sudden dark approach her and she passed out.yup she has phobia,social phobia or more known as anxiety.there's to many noisy student.

"where am i?"-Amanda

"you're in the hospital right now,you were passed out when I saw you"-B science teacher

"I was looking for A science class"-Amanda

"I'm from B science class,I guess you're given the wrong information☺️,Btw I teacher Sharlete see."-Teacher shar

"okay"-Amanda

a familiar doctor went in the ward as silence knocked in.

"r u felling Good Morana?"-Doctor

" yes and call me Amanda"-Amanda

"okay Amanda"-Doctor

"can I came out now"-Amanda

"since you are felling good,sure why not. I'll sign your release form."-Doctor

"okay"-Amanda

Driving back to the school isnt seem so far from the hospital.They reached the class when next sesion begun.

"Teacher Ham,I bring someone you might know."-teacher Shar.

"oh,Morana.where have you been?I thought you skip class on the first day,something that student shouldn't do☺️."-teacher Ham

"she travelled to the wrong class back then and she passed out,luckily nothing serious happen.it seems she has some isu."-Teacher Shar

"I see,come in,Thank you teacher Shar.Introduce yourself Morana."-teacher Ham

"I'm Morana Amanda"-Amanda

"thats all you got?"-Teacher Ham

"yes"-amanda

"You may choose your seat now"-teacher sham

She walked towards the last seat in the corner far from everyone.she fall asleep til she awoke by hearing the bell ring.

"time's up,you may dismiss now"-teacher Ham

she starts to pick her things up after all the other student disappear.she rushed out as she reached the gate.seem painful enough by judging the way she walked.the area which was loud before bacame sorrow in the evening as the school was near a scary dead forest.she heard lots of thoughts as she pass by the path which lead into the forest.she arrived home minutes later.

"I'm home"-Amanda

"go cooked yourself a dinner"-momma

"later"-Amanda

"finish your homework,clean your room and go clean yourself"-momma

"yes"-Amanda

Asian mum is the typical of mum which is very bossy thinking their daughter can't do things by theirselves.yes only to daughters and they tought us to became the best house wives thinking we're not suitable to do as good as men does thing.she heard it all again as she leaned against her room wall.'you're a girl!you should be in the kitchen'. or 'a girl should know how to cooked'.or'go washed yourself you're a girl,behave!'.while they dont have much demands for the boys.she closed her eyes as the thoughts started to conquer the mind.--good night--

"Amanda! wakes up!"-momma

she walked out of the room after finish getting ready for the school

"do your own breakfast"-momma

"yes"-Amanda

she walked towards the kitchen and starts making her breakfast.her brothers have gone to school by now and her mother may have make their breakfast.she done her breakfast and start picking her bag and a lunch box.she waited the bus at the bus station.she arrived late and now her punishment awaits.as the punishment she ordered to clean the washroom but she seeks this as an opportunity to escape classes.

"class is such boring"-Amanda

she clean the toilet's bowl and started to pick her phone out and enjoying the music.she done all the works and went out towards the classroom.she could hear them gossiping as she saw them glaring her.she ignore it and went to the placed she used to seated.she never being friendly to others and ignore the other classmates the study sesion went as usual.she went home and heard the same line everyday.but today is her brother's birthday anniversary so she can't stay locked in her room so she get dressed and watch they celebrate the birthday.she take a full meal and walked towards the verandah.she thought s she could be alone but a man come and sit near her while holding a drinks.she tried to be nice as the house miss so she tried to force her voice out but seem her mind refuse.

"How old r u?"-the man

"15"-Amanda

"I see,so you're James sister's right?"-the man

"ya"-Amanda

"My name is Jackie shawn, Your brother's friend's. I'm 1 year older than you.call me Ikiey"-shawn

he pulled his hand but she refuse.

"what's your name?"-Shawn

"Morana Amanda"-Amanda

"nice name"-Shawn

"yes"-Amanda

''I heard you went to same school as us?".-Shawn

"science class".-Amanda

''you must have good luck''-Shawn

''maybe''-amanda

sha hurried finish her meal so she could escape

''what the hurry? I'm from pschology class.''-shawn

''You think I'm crazy too did you?''-Amanda

sorrow fill her eyes.shawn smiled

''no.''-shawn

''then why did you attracted to me?you must think I'm laboratory rat''-Amanda

she lost her appetite.

''no''-Shawn

''I'll take my leave now''-Amanda

''I can help you.''-shawn

she walked away with regrets.being alone is her side the other half is hate. video games is the only solution to forget the reality.her laugh louder than her tears back then when she was a little girl which her father adore the most.now realizing the teenage life isn't as fun as back then.her father died,her mother married another man,having step brother and wicked stepfather since 10 years old never been so relaxed for her.all she have been through make her sometimes determine to commit suicide but her time was not over and there is something she has to fought for.

-see you next chapter-

last night scenes cant easily fade away.she isn't supposed to sit there.she usually went to her room after taking some food.she woke up early this morning just to reduce the possibility of meeting her momma.

"Hi sunshine"-Zynn Kyrell

"Zynn!"-Amanda

"early bird huh"- Zynn

"I'll get going"-Amanda

"bye"-Zynn

Her second step brother was the only one who was nice to her.yet she never get closer to him.she walked to school since it's still dark morning and there will be no bus this early.all she can do is eating while waiting the school to open.

"alone?"-shawn

"yes"-Amanda

"ever thought of my offer?"-shawn

''no''-Amanda

''I see, you don't wanna have a normal life arent you?"-shawn

''I am normal,what do you see me as?''-Amanda

''its not normal being phobia of people around''-Shawn

''it's okay''-Amanda

''its not okay''-Shawn

''shut the fucking up''-shawn

''fine''-Shawn

she hurriedly went away.behind the misterious forest,a figure stood watching with wary eyes.

''disobediant''-none

she felt strange aura but she just ignored it.

walking to the class seem so tiring even its not far from the gate.she walked to her seated when her other classmates walked in.

''what a fortune''-Ana

''the new arrogant classmate''-hane

''hey classmate, what's your name again?Moron?"-Ana

They laughed at the joke they make theirselves but that seem not bothering her.

"What's up moron?not funny?"-Ana

''if you want to fool yourself just go away.you annoyed me''-Amanda

''you..''-ana

Ana was about to held her hand high until she felts the something hold her from doing it.

''it seems I'm not welcomed here, I'll get going''-Amanda

she skips her classes and went home.she used the back door as the momma about to get angry knowing she went home late as she forget the time while wandering in the forest.seems the forest aint that scary as nothing happen to her back then.she walked to her room like a thief.she get shower and open her laptop to find the information about that forest but a knocked on the door disturb her.

"what is it?"-Amanda

"seem you dont learned how to tell when you get home,or that you slipped in as you back home late''-Momma

''~~~''-Amanda

''Morana!!did you hear me!fine then you mind your own condition from now on''-momma

'like I have her to mind my things'-Amanda

she visit the school website and searched the news about the forest but disappointed as no news about it.she closed it and open her computerand started watching anime.she couldn't hold it anymore she rushed to the downstairs toilet as her toilets broken.she sat on and heard a whisper telling her to come.she has strong mind so she doesn't spoiled by it.she continue her things and walk back room.

~Good night~