Is it a crime for a 30 year old bachelor woman to live a happy life without love. Its not like i haven't tried these ways...its just that it always have to end up in a one side love story and not the typical love story that is in novels,dramas and all. And as if that wasn't enough..the worst is that i always end up hurting myself in every one sided love that ive ever had and the worsest sistuation is that I've to act like i wasn't hurt at all,does it even need to be asked,who won't be hurt in a one sided love unless its fake.Well it might not be an actual love,but who cares,it still hurts too ..ive always dream of having a first kiss,first love ..all the romantic proposses while i was young but it only end up in the hand of others. Well..if one asked me just how much of a one sided love that ive bravely encountered..honestly i might not be able to answer the exact amount,cos if all those one sided is mutual i will have a relationship with every increase in academic level.Its not like i will be some play girl who gets into relationship just for the purpose of pleasure...its just that,thats how much of a one side love that I've encountered,i can't help it you know,when i find that the one i liked like another and that they're together,i just wanna diverged myself from those feelings and pain and thats how i can do it,only by changing or focusing it to another one,another person.I still remembered that one special person who ignited all those feelings of mine for the very first time...i am not sure if thats what they called love is but at that moment every cell in my body was like they came back to life from death,i don't know how,i can't even describe that feeling but i am sure that i loved every moment of that time.But that too end up in vain,and also the worst among all the other crushes that ive had,cos i wasn't even able to have a simple nor single conversation with him.I just have a few glances with him however i was still satisfied with that and thats how it came to be my first crush along with my first one sided love came to end. Life is not fair at all,i even wanna have babies,and lots at that,to be precise i wanna have a triplets,a twins after that and last but not least a single child,i have dreams too its not like i can't. Well,as for the me in 30 yrs,who cares about all those bullshit...i can live happily ever too without that thing called love.

And that's what i think untill....

Mrs Nathan keeps scolding children of our class as they are noisy and keeps chatting together...arghh what a day.Most of my class start with Mrs Nathan and somehow half of her periods end up with the scolding of Herald and his friend.Sometimes i wonder how Herals could keep Mrs Nathan to scold him for the whole Junior high..i know right,I'll say his talent maybe this way.

After Mrs Nathan class,Sir frederick and nickelson class start and after that the lunch period begins.Have i said that i have 2 friends,a girl and a boy,james and alissa. Ive known them since my 4th year. Well they're more like my elementary friends...we've been together through thick and thin not that we actually go through a hard time since were only a junior high students.Me,james and alissa sat on a bench under the trees of our school backyard.We have something in common which is we always liked a quiet place and also thats how we get together in the first place.During my first year in elementary school,i met them both in a corner of our class,they were both so quiet and alissa looks as if she will cry at any moment so i approached them first and talk to alissa about some of the cartoons ive recently watch and James hear our conversation and joins in and thats how we became friends until were this old.While i was reminiscing about our first encounter and lost in thoughts i feel something move in my left side and somehow I've a strange feeling that something bad is about to happen and just when i was about to turn to my side james stood suddenly and said "I've somethingto say"we looked at his side and i can see he's struggling to say something,i wonder and then he continued "i..I've a girlfriend"..its a shock for us,yes a real shock,and as if cat got our tongue none of us utter a word and there was silent,i could hear the wind passing through the bushes near us and as i was about to say something james said again "i didn't mean to hide it from you guys,its just that i don't know how to say it,i know we are a bit too young but...but its not my fault..the girl proposses to me first and i liked her too so.." "who told you that its wrong to date..and besides were already in junior high..and even if some say its stilll too early...who cares"i stoped him. He was already blushing so hard and he's so cute right now..ive never known that boys could be so cute.After sometime maybe after about a minute alissa speak and says"yeah vanessa's right,but don't you ever blame the girl for confessing it first to you,its really hard for girls to make a move first and besides not all girls can do that,u hear me" Alissa literally start scolding james,and so the days passed by and the first romance of my buddy start to blossom.

Last year of our junior high,Alissa came running towards me when i was sweeping the classroom as i was in duty for the day.Alissa suddenly hugs me and i was somehow shocked cos she has never been this way before,she is always a timid and a shy type or to say she's the cool type of girl but now she's hugging me openly (not the romantic type u know :) ) and I'll say this is a first,then before she saying anything she start jumping or should i say leaping and finally after all the drama,she looks at me with a look that said she have won over the world but gladly she didn't and alas she finaly spoke "Francis proposed to me!!!he asked me on a date!!!" "A what!!!" was all i could say.Really..now i know it im gonna have to be a third party or a fifth party if james and alissa decide on a double date.My life!!why is it so hard if it romance is ever involved.

I was brought back from my thoughts when alissa shouted my name..loudly at that."i can hear you"i said almost shouting but alissa was dumbfounded "what!!"she said and then i shouted to her "i said i can hear you,u dont have to shout at me""you looked like you have lost your kidney so don't u..."before she could finish speaking i stopped her saying "okay,okay,congrats..you've officially become a diplomat in the field of romance or should i say a bachelor" we ended up laughing together.I was really glad and happy that both my friend have found someone they liked but that make me realize that i am the only single one from our circle,but then a thought came to me that i am still too young and there's still a lot of year to came by.and so i got motivated again,and decide to believe that i will be able to have a love life in my senior high.

And thats how i got through my junior high.and also thats how my friend alissa start her first romantic relationship and also the end of her cool behavior.