It's dark... too dark so i can't see even a bit

I only hear screams and cries keep calling a person's name.

It's not mine, but it's similar.. i don't know who it is, i don't know who is he, or she? .

Also my body feel painful, i want to struggle so hard but i can't. It's hurt! Someone please help!

And then no one helping because no one can hear me either, i'm lying on the bed alone with people in another room screaming annoyingly

i want to be alone, make it stop! stop it! you break my calm !

Ahaha, i knew it... no one will notice anyway. Come to think about it, should i exploring my memories here?

I ever helping a family who their daughter is comatized, doctors said that she must be not visited and isolated alone in a secret room that only the core family and i know. They want me to dress and act as similar as their daughter, in replace of their daughter for temporary. Of course it's sucks, i'm a male! they forced me to dress and act like a girl? skirts and cuties? i'm dying that time.

And the act? i have to be "Too smart" and cheerful, good at piano and anything else, excuse me? are they dumb? i'm not a professional disguiser or shapeshifter. Duh, at least they help me pay the debts, and good at musics are not bad either since i'm a musician?

Umm.. but when i attend the school she supposed to enter, i have good friends, good deskmates, good teachers and good grades, school time is forgivable.

and sometimes i meet my bandmates outside the school, do karaokes, dinner and watching movies together. Free times to have personal life is good, good

I kinda enjoying my life at the time?

the family is rich so i often eats delicious foods and money to buy anything i want.

richass people life must be fun eh?, that's good

Oh! the family is nice and quite lively, the daughter must be blessed having a loving parents and siblings, this make me jealous sometimes because i don't have any. I don't know who's my parents since i was lost at 3, i don't remember the face and the voice anymore so i used to be alone until i met my friends when i was 15, 12 years i spend alone as a beggar and thief. That's kinda sad.

When i spend times with my bandmates, it's ridiculously fun but when i visited one of my mate's house, i was kicked out by his mother because i'm an orphan, he suddenly yelled at his mother and because of that, i'm scared to womens for certain reasons that is maybe too much if i had to say

but i still can play with my friends outside, even if sometimes i have to work, they are willing to help me tho. Okay, if these are too much, i will tell you all of my life slowly.. about my blood, sweat, tears, and happiness

So i'm here to replace the position of a daughter in a rich family which is now in a comatose because of a disease. In an Elite School that only freakin' richass people can enter\, also for your information\, this school is also owned by a relative of the family\, gosh. Well it's good to enter such a school like this but... not with me wearing girl's uniform please! *sobs*

Umm, so let's enter this school, Whoa! it's so cool! i'm amazed with the architecture of the school that is so minimalist yet so elegant!, "I can be more proud from 'them' except 'he' attending this school too, huh? i said. I was thinking about my besties that is attending in another school except one also a richass person. But i don't think i can be happy if i meet him here, it can be turned horrible and embarassing, so better to keep distances away from him.

"For the entire first grader to come to the main hall for the welcoming ceremony"\, the announcement said. Yeah\, i want to come ASAP but\, this school is **WAY TOO BIG!\, **even an entire month couldn't be enough to make me memorize all the places in this building. So i walk into the same direction the students around me goes. Because maybe they're going to the same hall as well. but.... instead of following the same first grader\, i'm following the third graders! and now i'm lost. This is bad! i'm not really good with indoor directions! the time keep narrowing and i'm desperate to not knowing where should i have to go... "Is there something i can help you?" said someone\, i'm facing someone who is behind my back\, "Aah\, you're the first grader too right?" he asking me\, i'm just confused and awkwardly nodding\, "too? is he also the new student? he looks familiar\, it seems like i have known him somewhere" i guess. then he sudddenly grabbing my hand and pulling me away\, "C'mon! we're gonna be late for the ceremony!" he yelled\, "O-okay" i answer nervously.

When we arrived at the hall, a teacher actually stopping and scolding him like scolding someone he long time known, "Lucas! why are you so late? you've known this school  for a long time right? there's no way you would lost!", the teacher said. "I'm not lost! but this girl is lost, so i taking her here," he defend himself. "I'm so sorry if i'm not good with this school's directions, this school is too big!" i'm protesting him in my heart. Then we go sit on the empty chairs remaining, and listening the rest of the speech.

"Hey" he call me, "what's your name?", "R-ryanna Harrisca Von Schize?" i answer with my soft and high voice that it seems like it wont get low even i'm passing puberty. "I'm Lucas, Lucatia Agentine Roscher, nice to meet you" he introduce himself and give his hand for handshake. "What? Roscher? if i'm not wrong, the director's name is Roscher too?", i'm startled, "so it's mean... he is the son of this school director!". I'm staring at Lucas, if he is the son of the director, oh my god, seems like i kinda making a terrible mistake!.

It's okay\, act calm and pretend to not knowing anything\, i'm smiling at Lucas and said\, "Nice to meet you too". Let's pretend we are strangers\, or should i act more cunning like?\, and don't cry over the spilt milk. Now i don't care if he feel something is suspicious from me\, maybe the thing i can answer is "Oh? i'm having Amnesia" or "Sorry\, but my memory isn't as good nowadays".  **BUT IT'S OBVIOUSLY CAN'T BE USED\, ANOTHER ONE PLEASE. **

"Is this place good? it's a high quality school that actually have good facilities and foods~, the staffs and the teachers are also very nice". "Indeed it' very nice to be here, i think i can enjoy my life in this school" i said cynically. His eye just look like shocked and he's thinking why 'Ryanna' appeared again like a total strangers tho in the past she's the one of his closest 'a guess?. The more he feel something odd from me, it can be so fun to tease him with his ignorance.

i'm smirking to him and said, "I'm not sure before but, i guess we often met before right? can you tell me where?", his eye is surprisingly shows sadness, what a pair of loss... but so, he's a smart boy, he'll knows why i'm doing this and found me inside Ryanna's identity. "Lucas? i will open myself within 2 years, i can show faster if you find me, and then, you will find my 'true' self" as i'm giving clue for him only, "this is only for you since i accidently done a terrible mistake". Then i'm disappeared, blend with the crowd.

I'm walking through the students, "i think i would meet him again, teh worst i'll be his classmate or even deskmate?" i said on my mind, and surprisingly true, that i'm in the same class as him, in 1st-A class, it supposed that because i'm a relative so i was inserted to this class. "Aha--, i'm done, surely done" i flatly giggled. And when i entered the class, it feels like Deja Vu, once again all the seats are occupied except the seat beside Lucas's

"I finally see you again".