Hi...

How are you?

hope you are fine:)

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Would you not ask, "How i am?"

but even if you asked me it's not like you really wanna know...

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Let's start from introduction

I am "me"

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I am stuck  inside me,my head...

I wanna come out from the cage..

but i can't...

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.At the moment I am hopeless

not really but i am happy

H= harrowing sorrowful me

A= alone me

P= pitiful me

P= pathetic me

Y= young pain

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I am Happy.......(:

(do i look like)

well let me tell you a story to you all

to be cheered up!

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Once upon a time there was a rose who was very proud of her beautiful looks. Her only disappointment was that she grew next to an ugly cactus. Every day, the rose would insult the cactus on his looks while the cactus stayed quiet. All the other plants in the garden tried to make the rose see sense, but she was too swayed by her own good looks.

One summer, the well present in the garden grew dry and there was no water for the plants. The rose began to wilt. She saw a sparrow dip her beak into the cactus for some water. Though ashamed, she asked the cactus if she too could have some water. The kind cactus readily agreed and they both got through the tough summer as friends.

 Moral: Never judge someone by the way they look

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in this  few line story we learned the old more

"Never judge someone by the way they look"

we here this line every day but in this story

i noticed the protagonist is rose

she is evil though the lead

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and the cactus who is kind guy

is just a supporting character...

Have you ever think

Why he is not lead?

Do he have his own story?

he is kind guy

though it's right or bad?

Don't answer because

i, me don't even know the answer

Sometimes...

when I see myself out of my mind

my life,

I think only one thing

Am i not protagonist of my life?

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Then why am i acting like side kick in other people story..

or God never made a story for me..

I want to broke my Cage and run away

as far as i can!

....but I can't because these are

some rules made by God to be followed (:(

Let's Forgot about me from now

and pretend we don't read anything..

tell me something about you

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Are you happy were you are?

um..tell me..

Do you have regrets?

Do you desire to be loved?

Oh! I am a idiot who is talking to herself only..

no one can hear me

nor can understand me

but no worries i can be Happy

by all myself

And now i am "Happy"(:

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ok bye for now

i am going to find a way to be out of cage..

When we meet next time i hope i will be out

of cage like a free bird.

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Author note:- 1 chapter every month

                      (if you want i can upload 2 chapter)

Hi..

I am back. it's me, me!

How are you all?

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no reply as always:(

I hope you are fine🤗

by the way

will you not ask me how I am?

um.. it's look like you don't even remember me

wow many people who I was talking to last time is not here...

it look like You have left me like other people

you must not even remember me(:(....

buts it's okay after all we are not even so closed to be remembered by each other☺️

silence?

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by the way

You know I am stuck inside my brain for a long time..

and I am acting like person who I am not..

but it don't really matter as long as my outer self act like part of society!

by the way do you know many people say that they are not part of society...

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but they all are any how...

and even if you are not then also you have to act like you are part of society to live in this world(:(

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feeling sad about it?

don't you?

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Do you know that

I am not even allowed to....cry...

when I was a kid my dad always said me

"don't cry!"

"Never cry Infront of me!"

but this he said to me not to be a cry baby I understand him...

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^^^but do he understand me^^^

mom always said to me when I cry in morning

"You should not cry in morning your whole day will be ruined!"

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when I cried in evening she said to me

"Don't cry your night will be ruined!"

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but do they ever think if I will not cry at that time my whole life would be ruined

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um...

now let's leave it...

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by the way these days my feelings have became gloomy..

In childhood I was sad because people don't listen to me and they hurt my parents

and now I am sad because....

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those people are dieing..

even though I hated them they were my family..

and today is my condition same"Not to cry".

for me "Not to cry" have became a policy

LoL😂😂😂😂😂(:(

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leave this topic too

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what should we talk about?

Music! Hobbies! Art!

what's your favourite music?

um...like always no one is replying me giving me cold shoulder....

many left me....

May I say my favourite music?

I like sad and indo songs...

many of songs beats the music in my ear always

my favourite song is Till the End!

it's really nice

🎶"I tried so a hard and gone so far

but at the end it doesn't even matter"🎶

this song this is my favourite line...

so true.... so hurtful...so real...

and my friends who have came to me will you tell me about you in comments:)

if you want.......

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Author Note

hi it's me not me but the author 😅😅

I hope you like this

plz like and subscribe

opps! this I had to say in last but I have said it already so it's okay😅😅😅

btw what do you think of this story plz review it and rate it

Thanks♥️❣️

[WARNING THIS EPISODE CANTAIN MENTAL ABUSE]

hi it's me again..

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today i don't know what to say..

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how are you all?

i know no one will answer

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its's okay no one will ask me how i am..

it doesn't matter today.

I WILL TELL HOW I AM !

I AM NOT FINE!

I AM NOT HAPPY!

I NEVER CAN BE!

JOKES! JOKES! JOKES! JOKES!

EVERYTHING HAVE BECOME A JOKE! MY LIFE! ME! IT'S JUST A JOKE ON WHICH EVERYONE LAUGH!

**NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY MY BEST I WILL AWAYS STUCK IN A CAGE! **

MY CAGE IS MY MIND AND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME THROW INSIDE IT!

I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH BROKE AND I WILL NEVER WILL!

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give me sometime too calm down

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I am just so tired today..

tired of running away from the world..

i say I have accepted reality but i always been lieing to my self at some point..

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running away..i am always running away from my responsibility

yeah...responsibilities

responsibility of my parents

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but it doesn't matter the responsibility  is of me not me

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walking in society is also a responsibility of me

so for it i should be a perfect girl

Firm Chest

Long Legs

**Intelligent **

quality of perfect girl these are but non- of it matches me

leave it too

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now lets talk about most important responsibility of me,myself

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"RESPONSIBILILTY OF BEING BORN"

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this i don't even matter...

cuz my opinion is a joke too.

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people always talk about a so word "Sins"

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was my sins were really so bad that I was born as a human?

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leave it as joke just like them.

it does matter.

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Guys you must have heard a about a word called "Love"

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you all must have heard..

boy and girl love

girl and girl love

boy and boy love

and family love...

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I don't much about love too much as i have only heard about it.

oh! sorry i just spit out the words i never should,my apologies.

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now i don't want to say anything so i think it's the end of our story

I really enjoyed our time together.

i also love talking to you..

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but now i feel lil bit that i should go in my old where i was

now i don't hope to be out of cage of my mind cuz

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now..

i give up..

{END OF CHAPTER}

{END OF NOVEL}

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Author note:-

yeah now this novel is over

and yeah the title "Who i am?" the girl "me" was not able to find out about herself she might be able to know what's happening around her but she was not able to know what she wanted to do about it .

she hoped to be out and be herself but the responsibility and society stoped from being out and free and she gave up on everything .

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"I give up on my dream to be out"

"I give up on being myself"

" and i give up on my life...."

[ THE END ]