You are the memories that I don’t want to lose, memories that I want to be my treasure but what if were not destiny to each other.

I am just a girl who dream about being loved to one person who is special to me. A simple girl who want to appreciate by other people. I meet a guy who I want to be there for a rest of my life. He always wait for me, he didn’t get angry with me. I said to him I want to go to Festival with him so he agree but there’s many things he need to complete a requirements, he said to me “wait for me”. This is my first time waiting for him. I just got surprised.

Him: wait for me at festival. I be there for you.

Me: yeah, I will wait for you. Be safe! I love you!

       I looked  at him as he walked away for me, ever second I miss him but he was going home and he also needed a break so I went home too.

*Festival*

I so happy to see him, I’m very excited.

I  wait for him an hour but he didn’t come,  I call him but he didn’t answer but someone calling me, it’s his brother. His brother said “he got accident”, my tear drop that I didn’t know and I drop my phone, I run faster to the hospital.

I didn’t know to do, to say, to think, I just stare at the patient, sleeping quietly. That’s not the point I am crying, the doctor said that my boyfriend lost his memory. Why this happening to me?? *crying*

When he wake up, he just stare at me, he has a cold eyes and he just have a creepy face, I don’t know why I am scared, I’m his girlfriend I want to tell him but I don’t want to push him to make his memory back. He always make his face cold when I’m speaking to him but the other is not. We are walking with his brother then he accidentaly pushed a woman and he suddenly smiled, it’s my first time seeing him smiling but not for me but the other girl. Two months, his brother tell me I need to go home because I’m very stressed but that is my biggest mistake, my boyfriend and that girl make friendship and it was fast that they already lover, I cry. I don’t want to lose him. I went to hospital and I see him laughing at the girl he loves, I suddenly went outside so no one seeing me crying, did he just forget to love me or he just give up to his memory back. I don’t want to let go of you but if that is what he makes him happy, I let go of you.

Me: See you next my love

Three year Later*

It’s already winter, I didn’t notice. It’s so cold like the eyes of you. I’m waiting to you to where I wait to you before the accident , I just want to see you, just one more time before I leave you .

But when I see you, your kissing the girl. It makes my heart broke. I wish I am that girl.

Ever since I lost you I don’t care about losing anything even my self. I just want to disappear even it’s hurt.

 I wish I could lose these feelings as fast I lost you. My memory is just a stranger to you.  I love you but I didn’t hear anything like I love you too.

This day is my last day that I will love you. I’m walking, carrying all my things, going to other country, I will always remember you, my love. These memories will be my only treasure.

I see you running to me, saying “I’m sorry”

I don’t want to talk, I just want to walk, to run away from you but I stop hearing you saying “Why did you give up on me?”

I Smile and turn to him, I said “ I give up because……………… you already do. I don’t want to wait for you alone just to make your memories back.

You need to come back to your girlfriend, she is waiting for you.

If we meet again, I wish our destiny is fated to each other.  I will promise I will not let you go again but today I will go and leave you to someone you love.

You are not my destiny

           But you are the part of my journey

                I keep this precious memory