Was I clinging within the threads of my torn drapery ? Or

Was I part of the nothingness.. but.. a flash passing through the hole of this reality?

...________________. - Raze

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Deep through this sea of blood and graden of stones rose an epitome , A broken staple like a pebble drenched in a cold red river - A sidestone ....

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A free verse story ......

∆ Bleeding Rain

( Me - Narrator - REXEN 20 year old - A son of Don Ro)

It was a drizzling day . Dark clouds oversky . But no rain -

Me and my Boys ( We call ourselves as "bladed yohas")

Yeah ! I knew this name sucks but decided through voting so gotta stay with it quite a few days , then imma change it to something cool .

So ..College ended , we were back home and I being a don kid had private vehicles to drove me back to my mansion , still I would drive myself with all boys through local trains back to Shonta Region - where we lived .

The real reason was bcoz of my friend -

QUAKE -

He was an angel , a Jesus , living among us Iscariots...He hated doing crimes with us but never showed up his true mind to me bcoz he was in debt with my family..He was an Orphan ! Adopted by poor farmers who could only afford food and nothing else

So , My father Don Ro offered them job in our farm ...with Quake a high excellence job in our illegal practices and paid him more than a government worker..Quake is a real gem to us . We met in school , I was made to sit on same bench with him , so I could become as good as he is ...but irony is reverse . Since then I know him like a brother But I never looked down on Quake like a debted friend , I knew he never wanted to do this but due to poverty he has to ! He was helpless so was I ..in his case ..

He was a hard working boy .. After reaching home , he use to help his parents ..then study for hours..do every household like cooking,etc ..and at 4 pm would reach to me at our mansion for checking for any work around as partimer..

So it was drizzling that day ..and it was Saturday - a day when there is no job for us by my father ..So looking out of the window in train , I questioned Quake and Floro( Floro - a girl's man - every girl knew him - he was from rich family - but a pure simp and total asshole ) ..

to join to play soccer today evening !

They both were ready .

We reached our stations ..and parted away

It was 4 Pm - drizzling stopped - Quake and Floro and my other gang members gathered on the ground . like every other day we were playing soccer ...there was a bench in corner of the ground in shallow trees where one man daily use to come and smoke whole 1 pack of cigarettes like a maniac .

But today was a life changing day .. new guy recently came in our neighborhood to live , his name was Broco - he had annoying face like a swollen pig , he asked us to allow him to play with us. And I , In order to show my superiority and Power allowed him and set him as my opposite team goaltee - so I could hit him hard and bully him .

We started playing,

I shooted his face like 3 times continuously , everyone of my boys supported me in bullying him and we laughed loudly .

He left without saying a word - but gave a grudgy look - way like I will be killing you soon .

We teased him until he left ....

On our way home Quake was gloomy so I asked him his reason for his down face .

He said me "You shouldn't have done that to Broco , we don't know him .. He could hurt us back again !" ..

I burst out with laughter ..."Really? You this that pigdik can touch me?Haha ..I will make that swine taste my poop then " I replied..and everybody commented and laughed at Quake ..

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Next morning it was Sunday and sun was overhead shinning like a ball burning .

I, Quake and Floro were hanging around the ground..And suddenly Broco and one big giant( he was Broco's brother I guess) like boy came at us with Sticks and bats ! ...

Nevertheless , I wasn't afraid of it since I always had been into fights like this before with bunch of kids since I was born - it was in my blood to be a gangster.

Broco came at me with that giant *** boy and started abusing me and screeching loudly to plea for yesterday's incident- he had no idea whose son I was .

Quake tried to calm them down , but what shouldnt have happen took place - That Giant *** gave a hard blow to Quake and this was declaration of war

I gave a hard punch to Broco and Floro joined me to beat them ..2v2 ..Broco was short and weak ..I hit him hard till he started bleeding through his nose and mouth...within an eye

Floro was kicked away badly and That Giant face *** took a rod nearby and hit my head hard..

They were about to take off with their cycle closeby and escape ..Broco was driving..and giant sat on backsit ...

With dust in my eyes and world spinning off ..

I managed to pick a big stone beside me and thew it so hard that it hit Giant's spine behind neck and he fell off the cycle instantly .......

We rushed toward him ...But gross ...His eyes turned White , his neck was like a hanging snake with no bone...

I was scared .

Quake checked on his breath and pulse ...

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But

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He was dead ! On the spot !

It was accidental..

But it was in my fate !

I saw no good other idea than to run away from there with Floro and Quake .....

All of this was like a fake nightmare , a mistaken movement of my life. Not me but my friends were now part of this.

This incident haunted me for many days..

I still remember .....The time we were fleeing off , my legs were trembling , my heart was pounding, I was not knowing where I was going but I was moving...My steps were heavy . Time was passing slowly like on a loop for eternity ..and I was running and running from this moment all along till now...

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Since that day , My hands were stained like my father .......

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Take away my Pain ∆ My bleeding Rain ∆

Was I clinging within the threads of my torn drapery ? Or

Was I part of the nothingness.. but.. a flash passing through the hole of this reality?

________________. - Raze

A free verse story ......

∆ CAN YOU SEE THIS ____?

CAN YOU SEE MY BLACK BURNING HEART?

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( Me - Narrator - REXEN 20 year old - A son of Don Ro)

2 days had passed since the incident,

Broco and his parents filed a case in police and charged us for felony. That

giant was Broco's brother in law .

I was locked in house by my mother for 1 week time ,

police had arrived at my house since morning , having chat with my father

and my father's right hand and trustworthy man -

Uncle Crosso ( I call him uncle , he is in family since I was born ) .

I was summoned to explain the action that took place ...

I was scared , every high ranking officers in Shonta Region around had

gathered at our hall I told them everything - The Truth.

After a long Discussion , with taking some bribe , they came up with a

decision to disclose the case and spreading the news that the boy was

accidentally deceased while playing soccer which hit his nape .

After everyone left , My father called me to his room ,

Uncle Crosso and Lieu Gregg was waiting there for me ..

( LIEU GREGG - A self-made boy - He was 23 , college dropout - a pure

yakuza working for my father to collect taxes and keep eye on every gang

matter in our region . He had a sharp sense and sensibility to work with

people - he was our trump card

I was never in close contact with Gregg , he had a heinous aura but a

charming attitude as a gangster )

So , I went into the room..I sat on chair close to the door , Father was on bed

checking on Gregg's work .. I sat quiet until they finish .

Gregg looked at me and gave a big smile .

After finishing their work ,

Father just stared at me for like half minute into my eyes , and just asked one

question

"What if broco comes back at you to kill your loved one's? What will you do

then ?" .....

Never in my life I was moved by his words than now . I was stoned - with no

answer but silence !

5 Days passed , I couldn't find any answer to this ..

It was Monday and everyone had exams today at college .

After 1 week break ,

I was feeling awkward to walk down to college just as a criminal - but this

incident did not divulge into public - it was only printed in paper that a boy

accidentally died while playing soccer .

I reached college..At the gate I saw Gregg waiting for me , this was unusual .

He said me " Let's take care of your matter , meet me after college at Gontron

Garage "( Gregg's hideout ) . I said OK and passed on ...

Everything went normal at college , I gave exams and as soon as college

ended rushed out fast to reach Gregg . Quake and Floro were waiting for me ,

I was in a hurry , I told them to pass on for today .. I have some job to do ....

I reached at Gontron , it was a dark fallen place

Dogs and cats running around - train track wailing nearby . A complete

deserted place .

Boogie was waiting there for me -

Boogie ( Good friend of Gregg )

And few other new faces whom I don't know were standing ..waiting for me ..

They took me In garage - it smelled chemical and spices inside , Gregg was

sitting and smoking and gave me a cigarette and shown me a chair at corner

of room . Someone was tied to it !

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.

It was Broco!

Gregg handed me a bottle - like a deodorant - filled with acid and a knife

And gave me 2 choice

" Burn his face " or " Cut his fingers " so he can never in life come back to

seek revenge again.

I was frozen.

Everyone started abetting me , encouraging me .

My hands were startling .

Gregg looked at me with complacent face and said " If you don't hurt him , he

will return to hurt you , this is a cycle of life , Do or Die "

I saw no choice but to do this . I was meant for it . I knew this was my father's

doing to abduct him and make me do this .. to make me strong , to make me

heinous , to make me fearless , to make me fcking INSANE !

I took over acidic deodrant bottle and knew I gotta end this menace now or

later .

I went close to broco , shaking bottle vigorously - the bubbles were burping

out .

Broco started moving - crying - screaming - pleading forgiveness for guilty

His pupils were begging for mercy .

But It was fargone

THE VOICES IN MY HEAD THEY TOLD ME TO , THE FORCES IN MY HEART

THEY MADE ME MOVE….

All I could see his appalling smear look which he gave me that day

I surpassed my fortitude and reached my surge insanity..

I sprinkled the spray first time ..

He yelled ! As a dying dog ! He was bawling and howling....

It felt good..

He was screeching and mourning with a cloth in his mouth.

I felt like a King !

It made me laugh ! It was fun ! It started sprinkling more and more acid on

him !!!

Having a big ranting laugh talking about how he was griping for his life ! ...it

felt so good like loosing all the tension I had in last week ...

I sprinkled and sprinkled and sprinkled for 7 times ...his eyes and nose

started bleeding . His skin getting ripped off and wearing away.

It was a blastful feeling - A pleasure in others pain ...I was laughing and

roaring loudly uttering - "Hahahaha , Yes ! How do you feel ? You bastard !

Remember this face - A face of your new GOD ! "fcker"

From spine to tips of my fingers I was enjoying it , my blood was boiling to

hurt someone and this was it!

I drifted away in that moment so badly like a madman ...Gregg and others

were dumbstruck looking at my monstrous grin face and evil doing ....

Suddenly , I heard sound of someone coming running at me and kicked away

the bottle from my hand !

And gave me a hard punch!

I was back to land .....

It was Quake !...

I looked at him ( I was full of sweat and my eyes were flooding - Absurd

feeling) , and said

CAN YOU SEE THIS QUAKE?

CAN YOU SEE MY BLACK BURNING HEART?

I can’t fake it ! This is who I always been ! THIS IS WHO I AM”

.........

He pulled me off over there and brought me back to my senses...

He was crying for broco and to see me turned into a devil ...

............

He knew something was wrong and suspicious ,

Since I join them everyday after college back to home.

But today I left them without saying nothing .....

He might have seen Greg at gates today morning..............

Broco was burnt like a bacon ..He was alive ..his face was as shit as pig now ,

nobody would notice him now . Not his parents too.

I felt good ..... I feel free now ....all the pain and pressure was released ...

Days later , Broco and his parents left the town ....

It was sad but FUNNY

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∆ Scream as a wailing sirens -

Boosts my insanity and violence ....∆

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Betraying the Martyrs - Monster

Was I clinging within the threads of my torn drapery ? Or

Was I part of the nothingness.. but.. a flash passing through the hole of this reality?

________________. – Raze

UNCHAINING THE AGONY

A free verse story ……

( Me – Narrator – REXEN 20 year old - A son of Don Ro)

I met lieu 3 years ago for the first time.

He was around 17-18 year old

I was still in primary grade that time.

He was in same grade in high school with my brother. After passing primary school he

moved to Shonta Region for study. He was deep minded with shallowness in his

behaviour like he was holding something within him.A galaxy raising through.

Lieu’s mother started working as maid at our mansion and his father started a garage

nearby which was their prime income source. ( Gontron Garage ) where lieu worked

under his father in the meantime.

Therefore , he and his family were regular member close to us .

His father Mr.Gregg was a crooked and selfish person – a short minded . He was a

heavy drinker , no day would pass he hadn’t been to tavern for hangovers . He spent

every money he earned on drinks .

He was trouble to their family . He would beat lieu and mrs.gregg for money everytime .

Even he used his wife’s earning and costly things at his house to fill his thirst for alcohol

. It was part of his daily schedule to beat his wife and kid and they were practically used

to this …

Months passed ,

My father ( don ro ) saw lieu’s and his mother’s daily hardwork and decided to provide

money and fund to his father and his garage so he can revise his taxes and earn more ,

garage was advertised all around the region for promotion .

But as we say , give dog a bone and dog will come back tomorrow for another……

Mr.Gregg took so many loans from the bank under the name of my father . He reached

to his limit . Mr.Hoen was a bank manager – (who worked for my father and close to

Uncle Crosso) rejected giving him further loan and asked for repay the money .

This hurted Mr.Gregg’s pride ! He was frustrated with anger .”how can a low Leech ask

payment to me? Don’t you want to live your happy life “ and started chattering and

fighting loudly with Hoen . Hoen tried to calm him down but he was out of bounds and

started abusing and loitering the bank. In the end , the guards had to kick him out the

bank .

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To be continued in next chapter 3.5

Chapter 3.5 : Brunet Snow

After getting booted from the bank . Mr.Gregg’s ego was hurted , he was mad and

desperate for payback . He was waiting for chance to prove his contempt for Mr.Hoen.

Few days later , Mr.Gregg was heavy drunk and was sitting with his other drunk friend

in tavern . Both of them were so drunk they were flying to the stars. Gregg starting

babbling and reporting how he was humiliated. The other drunk guy seeked this chance

and planted ideas in Gregg that was despicable action against him , he should repay

him to restore his plume.

He told Gregg that there is a guy – Grosslow

(An extremist – political dog ) who has big political hands in government .. to go and

meet him and look for his help to veil the illegal practices between Hoenn and Don Ro .

This would damage Hoen’s entire career from his bank manager post and he would be

lied down to streets.

Hoenn and Uncle Crosso were close friends , so they would drive every Sunday around

the region for property and taxing checkment . Hoen had old car model – his lucky car .

He used to bring his car to Gontron Garage for repairs and services . And as usual he

left his car at Saturday night at Gregg’s for washing and cleaning .

It was fall of the year , a snowy weather .

World was white . Dark nights . Chills passing through the atmosphere.

Sunday morning , it was holiday . So lieu woke early and went to garage for working .

He saw his father was fixing Hoen’s car for long hours. Lieu continued to his work.

Few hours passed and Boogie came at garage with his cycle and Lieu and boogie sat

chatting down . Meanwhile , Crosso and Hoen arrived to pick up the car . Hoen had his

original paperworks in his hand and asked mr.gregg if car was ready to drive and

opened the door of his backseat and put the files in the seat . Crosso by then sat with

lieu and boogie and talked him normal chores .

Mr gregg asked for more 10 mins and kept on fixing the engine since it was cold winter

and the car being old had jamming problems in engine and asked Hoen that he has

filled new fuel and oiled the ignition coil , so the car would buff for sometime which

they should ignore it.

Car was ready to drive .

Hoen sat on driver’s seat and crosso sat beside him and after starting 3-4 times the car

..both took off .

As soon as they left , a non identical person came to meet Mr gregg , he looked feared

and behaved suspicious .

Lieu ignored it and went back to his complete remaining job ………

In corner of the wall he saw an old model piston and ignition chamber lying from the

old model car …..

Lieu dropped his job and threw away the instruments and abruptly asked boogie for

cycle keys and took off !

It was snowing , the roads were clumped .

Lieu rode heavily …

He saw Hoen’s car near an office parked by .

Hoen was sitting in the car , and crosso was in the shopping mart near . He went to

buy cigars .

Crosso buyed cigars and was returning to the car , the car’s side door was open.

Hoen was ready to start the car . He pulled the starter one time… screech ..no

movement… second time ….no movement ….

Crosso was about to reach the car and suddenly

Lieu rode

..he hit and pushed crosso and both of them fell down aside

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THE CAR EXPLODED 💥💥💥…

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. Hoen died and burned to death..

This news spread throughout the region .

Don Ro was aggravated by this .

He picked Lieu’s father and beat him and tied him to kill him .

( Lieu explained the truth to Don Ro .

He sold out his father .

How the car engines was trampled by his father – he removed the piston which

caused the ignition coil directly come to contact with fuel tank . The more times the

ignition was lightened the more petrol would fell in ignition coil which had lead to

connect the contact for blast )

Due to lieu’s action and help to save Crosso he was showed mercy .

Don Ro , gave lieu a coin and asked to flip it

Heads – You will kill your father with your hands

Tails – Recover the files sold to extremists

Lieu tossed the coin – and catched it in between his fingers and said .

“ I will do both” and gave a heinous Smile .

Don Ro couldn’t understand what his real intentions were but he accepted his decision

and said only one word

“Fine” .

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Lieu chose to kill his father first and then go to recover the files next

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Lieu asked Don Ro “ I want to kill my father with immense pain , could you provide me

4 bulls and liquor”?

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Lieu tied Mr.gregg’s both hands and legs with chains to all 4 bulls and made bulls drink

alcohol to drive them crazy .

--- and said to his father “ These are the hands and legs , you hurted me and mother

everyday right? Now meet your fate tonight “

Mr . Gregg wasn’t afraid to die . He accepted it with mad laughs and said

“ Remember Lieu , No matter how beautiful snow is .. The winter is always dark “

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. And the he was released in open area till his hands and legs were pulled off of his

body .

Lieu sat there and enjoyed his death throughout the night .

Don Ro and Crosso was moved by his behaviour . Lieu was a agonized serpent around

the neck waiting for perfect time to bite.

He was unchained that day from his miserable life . It was his rebirth .

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Now I could understand what the pleasure I felt in hurting Broco that day .

Lieu had been suffering this since birth.

The feeling of the pain you hold in you for time makes it ripe to most insane anguish

you will pass out through.

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Next day Don Ro gave a gun to lieu and asked him to go and revive the files

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