To my doctor cum ex-crush,
And as days after days passed cranked up in that hospital bed, the monotony of the hours bored me to death. Your visit was my solace. I was so fed up with living, the constant pain from broken bones and torn tissues could not be subsided even with the high dose of morphine and other pain relievers I was on.
My parents, both were so heartbroken with my condition that I could never cry in front of them. Nor my old grandmother who never stopped crying and praying for me since the day of the accident. You, maybe because you were so adept with handling patients and have seen worse situations or maybe because you regarded me as a peer and a future college, always gave me hope. Always made me smile with your antics and jokes on how even in that condition I was a force to reckon with all my mischievous attitude. I always enjoyed your company- when you scholded be for not trying hard enough to move my then pseudoparalysed legs or when you saved my from your superiors insisted I was trying my best to recover.
Those three months in a steel bed with air mattress, immobile in a small room in the eastern wing of the hospital were the best and worst days for me. I always had to act brave and courageous in front of my parents, my relatives, my friends, everyone except you, who knew all about my condition and yet left out bits to not make me feel depressed. As if I will never come to know about it.
One day in the future I could have healed(I am already healed 80%) , finished my Medical degree and got together with you(what a wishful hope😂). Okay, maybe you would have rejected me downright since I am 7 years younger than you after which I would have burned all these memories and dated someone else. However, you are married. I heard you married a few months before we met, which was when I was brought to the ER all bloodied. Really could have waited bro. But I have accepted it. I guess there was no lust or infatuation but simple fondness for a person who has such a great personality like you do. I wish you both best wishes and life full of happiness.
From the moment you asked me not to call you sir(since pg students also teach sometimes) to where you smile at me everytime we cross paths in the campus, you make my heart fill with warmth. You would always have a place in some corner of my heart and I will always pray for your best. But know, I have demoted you to ex-crush and now crushing hard on Kim taehyung and Noah Centineo.
PS: Congratulations on having a baby boy last month. He looks just like you but way cuter. Warm regards.
