I thought we are happy, strong and will last forever. But that what I just thought...
Here I am in my room playing games when my sister appeared and sat beside me so I ask her why and she actually making confused face so I said "we're sisters, spill it or I'll kick your butt". And there she said everything.
She said that my dad has been chatting with someone and that a woman with the same age as him. Their chat were like
: You're daughters are pretty exactly look like you
: yeah but they'll be more prettier if you were their mom
: I shouldn't had left you, Im sorry how I wish that we were still together
~So on and so forth
That day when my sister said those I also feel confused whether tell my mom or not. But in the end we did not tell
We just investigate further more and got shocked when we knew that it his first love. Why and when are the words that have been in my mind everyday. Why did he cheat when he already have us why does he still love her when he already have four children.
When did you start cheating and lying to us that you're busy out of town doing work and only go home every sunday because of your so-called busy schedule
My sister and I did not say this to our mom, Of course who the f-- want their family to break when they're happy and loved. We investigate that woman and find out that she is dad's first love before my mom. How fool of him to still love her when he already have us, when he already have family and children, when his first love also already have a child and husband. I feel so betrayed as dad's closest child. Can you imagine that you're happy and feeling contented when he's not. Can you imagine being betrayed by your first love who's your dad.
At that time I still smile but not all the time, I feel pity for my mom who's loving him, supporting him all through his life. I feel pity for my mom that's smiling genuinely not knowing and thinking if she's been cheated. I feel pity for my mom loving him deeply when he's not. I feel pity for myself not having the courage to tell her for I fear that I'll break her smile and will not see it anymore.
And I even feel betrayed everytime I see him I feel betrayed that he'll smile to my mom and siblings but doesnt know our worthy. I dont even know what to do that time.
I thought you're happy with us staying by your side and supporting you, I thought we are strong and will last forever because of our love and bond as a family. But that's what just I thought..
If it is you, What will you choose if the first love, true love, or great love come.
Will it be first love that taught you how to love.
True love that you've been loving truly.
Or the great love where you feel so much love.
Think carefully or you'll end up questioning yourself and end up saying " I thought..."
